For the first time in 14 years I am dogless. 😭😭😭

For the first time in 14 years I am dogless. 😭😭😭

Booka had a rough night and things only got worse throughout the day. We took him to the vet this evening, but they offered painkillers as palliative care. I didn't want to see my boy suffer, and I certainly didn't want things to go down like they did with Faith, so we made the tough decision to let him go.

He was 18. He had cataracts and could barely see. He had lumps growing on him. Over the last year, he's had a few UTIs which made the vet raise concerns about kidney failure. He was having a hard time using the stairs (of course we helped him). He'd had at least one seizure, possibly 2. We felt that his quality of life was on thin ice as it was.

I am sad. So, so, freaking sad. I don't know how I'm going to sleep tonight without him snoring. I don't know what I'm going to do without my little bad boy. But what I am not is regretful. We have honestly spoiled the hell out of him, little last man standing, since Faith died. Snuggles all the time, never left alone, blankets to roll in, treats on demand... After a few nights of me getting out of bed for midnight snacks for myself, he decided he could get up and ask for something good, too. 😂😂😂 And I indulged him - because why not?

Shaun and I were with him when he passed. We took a blanket for him, as well as bacon treats. We both petted him and loved on him. I literally spooned him to death. I hate that this happened today. I was not ready. But I am more at peace with this decision than I will ever be over leaving Faith that day.

It's the end of an era for me. Here's to the best pack I've ever had. ❤️

Scooter

Emma

Booka

Nappy

Faith

Lowrider

Lately Scar (cat) cries when I go to bed.

Lately Scar (cat) cries when I go to bed. When I wake up he gets under my feet and won't let me walk until I pick him up and hug him. When I'm not in my room he's pretty much always near me. I'm not used to this level of clinginess from a cat. I honestly thought that behavior was only a "Shaun + Bastian 4ever" thing. 😂😂😂

I knew cats like to sit on laps, but I thought being picked up was different. Most of ours don't mind, a couple HATE it, and then Bastian and Scar beg for it and enjoy it. I don't know. I guess I don't mind being loved like this, but I'm definitely not used to it. 😂

Booka doesn't like to be left alone...

Booka doesn't like to be left alone - probably because he's a million years old. But it was bedtime and I could tell he was ready so I took him to my room and left him there for just long enough to brush my teeth. Rather than settling himself in he barked such a fit that when I got back I found Shaun sitting with him and comforting him.

Tl;dr:  My old puppy is spoiled and I married the kindest human. 💗💗💗

A couple of days ago we had a thunderstorm roll through...

A couple of days ago we had a thunderstorm roll through around 4:30 in the morning.  I was in my bed and Shaun was in the den (at the opposite end of the house).  I wasn't quite asleep; I remember being aware of the storm.  Then suddenly I was wide awake with my heart trying to escape my chest because there was a lightning strike so close and so loud.  I've never experienced anything like that before.

I texted Shaun to see if he was ok and he said he was fine and heard it coming.  WHAT?!  After some yard work yesterday evening he told me that the tree outside of my bedroom window had been hit.  I went outside to look a few minutes ago and there are scorch marks on it.  That's so sad, but that definitely explains why it sounded close. That tree is about 20 feet away from my room.

I did my nails twice recently.

I did my nails twice recently. One time I had high hopes but hated the way it turned out. The second time (pictured) I was just going to wear a polish but Shaun told me I should stamp purple on it, so this is the result. I actually really like how it came out. Sometimes less is more, I suppose.

I am so excited.

I am so excited.  Last night I worked on my desktop PC that had been running slow and had wayyy too much junk on it.  I've had it since 2012 and it's running Windows 7 (by my choice - I blocked the upgrade to Windows 10... for reasons).  It's still a good computer but for the last two/three years it was easier to just use my tablet for school.  But now that my summer class is coming up and it's going to be fully online I need to use my tablet for my ebook while still being able to connect online and watch class.  So... it was a good time to go ahead and get it running better.  I did and I feel accomplished!

ON TOP OF THAT I found my .psd resume file.  I thought I'd lost it and would have to start ALL THE WAY OVER on my favorite resume, but I don't.  That is a HUGE deal because I worked for literal hours perfecting it.

On a similar note:  I've also got most of the files that I'm not immediately using put on my external hard drive.  I feel so much more organized than I have in a long time.  I deleted a bunch of duplicate files, sorted things, and have even considered scanning in some stuff from my filing cabinet and going more or less paperless when it comes to documents of which I need to have a copy.  I don't know.  That's probably a bigger task for another day, but I can certainly add it to my to-do list!

Anyway, I'm feeling pretty good so far today.  I have my bedroom and PC nice and tidy and ready for school / work when the times comes.  My brain feels so chill when things are in order.  Yay!  😁

My claws are SHARP.

My claws are SHARP. While changing into my pajamas just now I literally sliced my nip-nop to the point that it's bleeding. I'm definitely repainting these bad boys tomorrow to dull them. Gotta cap those edges!

Ouch! 😬😬😬