Monday, December 14, 2020

I haven't really said much on here since announcing my graduation...

I haven't really said much on here since announcing my graduation because we've been busy moving.  I guess this is me checking in.

Before the pandemic hit I told Shaun that I wanted him to make the BIGGEST deal out of me graduating because it's been such a hard journey and it would be a massive accomplishment for me.  I don't care to recap every negative thing that's happened to me since I started college in 2015, but suffice it to say I've hung in there despite a lot of stress and major losses, and poor physical and mental health.  I'd planned to attend the graduation ceremony and I wanted a dinner party at Baja, at the very least.  Obviously none of that is going to happen and while I have a small amount of disappointment over it I know that FAR too many people have had much bigger losses due to COVID so I am not complaining.

In other news:  The house is coming along nicely.  The sun room looks great in my opinion.  We have about half of the animals moved in.  We brought Bruce (ball python) the other day, and brought the tortoises last night.  Tort Baby (predictably) dug a little burrow and went straight to sleep after the car ride.  Nom, on the other hand, peed and pooped in his carrier.  BLEGH.  It was probably a good thing, though, because there was a lot of poop and it looks like he might have been constipated.  On the bright side, he did not seem to mind riding in the car.  He didn't attempt to get out of his carrier.  Just chilled and pooped.  😂😂😂  I love having a utility sink in the sun room because it was super convenient to give him a bath before putting him in his new house.  Unlike Tort Baby, Nom explored and walked a lot and then pooped some more.  I bet he's feeling a lot better today.  I noticed he hadn't been his usual social self and I was wondering why.  I hope that explains it.

Last night despite the rain and darkness Shaun and I moved our big ass couch that we got in February to the house.  I don't think we'll ever buy another couch that isn't a sectional because we moved all but one piece of it in two trips in our little cars.  Not having to carry / maneuver one big piece of furniture is AWESOME. Also, I think it looks great here; it fills out the living room nicely.  Shaun's been doing a ton of work around here, but I could tell his brain was done working on anything else until he got the living room set up.  I totally understand preoccupation and mental blocks, so I was like "Yeah, let's do it.  Let's move this couch in the dark and the rain so we can move on to other stuff."  😂  I can tell he feels happier having a place to rest and take a break.

Other than that things have been going pretty well in regards to moving.  Shaun and I have decided that since the lease for the kids apartment is up in mid-January, they'll be staying in our house in Anniston while we get it ready to sell.  While that house is in a far better neighborhood than the house I owned for 14 years, we're still not comfortable leaving it empty.  I think that will work out great.  No rent for the kids and we get the benefit of their presence and their help while they are there.  So we are trying to go ahead and get moved out so that they can move in.

Anyway, I'm staying busy, as usual.  My stress level has dipped knowing that I passed my class, which is nice.  I basically went straight from the school mindset to the moving mindset, so the fact that I'm done with college hasn't really sank in.  I felt excited knowing that I passed my class, but that hasn't translated into "no more classes or homework" in my brain yet.  I am planning to don my cap and gown and take some photos at JSU (hopefully this week), though.  Maybe that will help it feel real.  Without a graduation I just haven't felt that there is a period at the end of the college sentence.  I know that probably sounds goofy because a lot of people skip the ceremony, but I earned it.  I need something to punctuate the end of this chapter.

Well, I'm off to go try to get some things done.  I hope you all are doing well.  If not, don't forget that things can change in the blink of an eye.  Hang in there.  That's the only advice I can give.  ❤

OMG, this old thing...

OMG, this old thing is loving all over me this morning. Why is she so precious?! 😍😍😍😭😭😭

This is Sindar, the cat companion Shaun had when we got together 12 years ago. I bet she misses the days of being the only cat, but she is pretty effective at letting the other cats know to stay away from her. It's probably a lot easier at the moment since there are only 4 other cats here. We'll be bringing the other 5 this week.

Bonus pic of Bastian napping sprawled out in the floor while Adrian chills under the coffee table.



Friday, December 11, 2020

We spent the last few days...

We spent the last few days working on the house in Talladega as a distraction from anxiety about my grades. We built new houses for the tortoises and the cats got a nice big tower. Bastian couldn't wait for the tower to be finished. He needed to supervise our construction. 😂😂😂 Sindar, on the other hand, is the oldest and just happy we put a couch in the sun room.


Tuesday, December 8, 2020

Well... I had ice cream for breakfast, spent too much money on nail polish, and had a good cry.

Well... I had ice cream for breakfast, spent too much money on nail polish, and had a good cry.

Now I'm helping Shaun with his father's estate paperwork and commencing with the move to the other house.

I am still disappointed with myself, but it's not over yet. If there's another semester in store for me, that's ok. I enjoyed this material and I'll ace the class if I take it again.

I hope you all are doing well. If not, try to make the best of it. That's all you can do. ❤️

By my estimate I made mid-50s on the final.

By my estimate I made mid-50s on the final. That is not enough to raise my grade to passing. I missed 2 problems for sure because I ran out of time. I missed one because I can't fucking factor, apparently. I don't deserve to pass.

Monday, December 7, 2020

I'm in bed for the night; it's my last sleep before I either graduate or fail a class for the first time.

I'm in bed for the night; it's my last sleep before I either graduate or fail a class for the first time.

After my exam I'll either catch up on social media or have a crippling let-down migraine.

Regardless of what tomorrow brings I'm gonna be feeling things.

Goodnight, friends. ❤️