Yesterday morning Shaun burned a wax melt.

Yesterday morning Shaun burned a wax melt. I noticed when I woke up that the glass holding the wax had been tilted and wax was pouring down the wall.

Yesterday evening I was chilling on the couch with the cats and started to get a headache from too much smell. I checked around to make sure nothing was lit and even went to Shaun's game room to see if he had incense burning or something. Nope.

Was talking to Shadow this morning and he mentioned that Balthazar had something in his chest fur that smelled nice.

Balthazar was the cat cuddling near my face yesterday. Apparently, he's the one who bumped the wax warmer and also gave me a headache.

Mysteries solved. 😂😂😂

Soo... skating went better than expected.

Soo... skating went better than expected. We went to the park near our house. There is what used to be an outdoor basketball court that no longer has hoops that me and Shaun skated on. There were some gravels and some cracks and it wasn't perfectly even, but it was good. I spent some time on YouTube last night watching videos on how to fall and how to handle rocks and cracks and all that since I knew I'd likely not be on a perfect surface. I believe it paid off. 😁

So I only fell once but I took the advice of Indy Jamma Jones and took a knee when I knew I was going down and much to my shock it didn't hurt at all. 🤯 I mean, I was wearing padding (safety first!) but that was pretty cool. Getting back up was more of an ordeal. 😂😂😂 In my defense I lost my balance going over one of the gnarlier cracks so it wasn't like I just went down without cause. What's dumb is that I'd gone over it a few times already, but faster. When I hit it slow it was no good. Now I know.

I tried skating when I got home but my cul-de-sac is on a hill and while I know in my head the moves I need to do to go up a hill I am clearly not there yet. 😂😂😂 Also, the road is nice but wayyy bumpier then where we went earlier and I had trouble even going perpendicular to the hill. So I need more practice.

At the suggestion of a friend I looked to see if there is a derby team in my area and there is. They practice a few times per week so I've sent them a message to see if I can come along. I'm excited and I hope to hear back soon. Maybe they'll get me rolling fancy in short order. 😃

Freshly re-laced with toe caps on.

Freshly re-laced with toe caps on. About to take these beauties to the park (a regular park, not a skate park yet) and see if I can stay upright. 😂😂😂 I have padding and a helmet now so hopefully it'll be fun either way.

Super wishing it wasn't a pandemic and that I felt comfortable going to a skating rink. I never got to go a ton when I was younger but always enjoyed it when I did. Maybe things will be safer next year and I can have my 40th birthday party at a rink. That sounds amazing. 😁😁😁

I hope you all are having a nice Saturday. I'm about to get some exercise and sunshine. ❤️❤️❤️

We went to Sandia Crest today.

We went to Sandia Crest today. It was a beautiful drive up. We even saw a deer.

There's a "Snow Play" area that I imagine will have snow soon. I wonder if that's exactly what it sounds like. 😂 Lots of trails and picnic areas to explore. Shaun is excited. He loves mountains. I'm less athletic but I'm up for the exercise.

Afterwards, we had a little dinner date. Shaun and I needed a getaway. I ate a strawberry crêpe for dessert. It wasn't flaky like I remember from French class in high school, but it was tasty. All in all it was a pretty nice day. 😊

Decaf Vanilla Comoro...

Decaf Vanilla Comoro with steamy frothed milk in my cute owl mug - something warm and comforting this evening.

I've been in my head a lot lately, for better or worse. I guess better because I'm working through some things. Maybe worse because I should probably be seeing a therapist and focusing on this house and my job search. I can't always control my brain, though.

In any case I'm feeling a bit better today. I went out to watch the dogs because it's "take your trashcan to the curb" day and they were barking at the neighbors. I apologized for their rudeness and played with them a bit to distract them. Then Shaun came out and asked if I'd be up for playing badminton with him (he bought a cheap setup recently and we hadn't used it yet). I guess I was into it because we played for a couple of hours. It was silly fun because we were playing with the dogs the whole time, too. I needed that. I needed to get out of my head for a while.

I told Shaun I wanted to find a helmet tomorrow so I can skate. One of the last times I skated I fell flat backwards like a starfish and hit my head. I was indoors that time but there are lots of places to skate outside here but they are concrete, so, you know - I'd rather not bust my melon. 😂 I'm really hoping that indulging in things I enjoy will help me feel better. Sounds super obvious when I spell it out like that, but usually when my mood is down I'm not interested or motivated.

Anyway. We'll see how the helmet search goes. I also need to find some good succulent dirt. I've been recommended one by someone I trust so now it's just a matter of whether I can find it locally or not. Guess I'm looking for a lot of things right now. Job, helmet, dirt. What a list. 😂

Well, I hope y'all are doing well. I'm better today than yesterday, so I can't complain. Have a good one, friends. ❤️

My anxiety is up.

My anxiety is up. Probably because I'm officially job-looking. 😬 I've been having nightmares and sleeping a lot. I can tell my mental health is trying to slip but I'm hanging in here. One thing I've promised myself is that after I'm working I get to join a gym. I desperately miss yoga and being left alone to focus on only myself for a bit.

I went out back to have tea and try to chill down. The dogs were in a playful mood, so we played. The sunset was gorgeous. Probably would have been a real sight to see from our little balcony, but that's ok.

I hope everyone is doing well. I'm going to be fine. I've just been through a lot of change over the last couple of years and I'm so ready to settle down and find my new normal. Living in flux is so tiresome. Hopefully I'll be done with that soon. ❤️

Went outside to water some succulents and...

Went outside to water some succulents and we saw an afternoon balloon. I bet it's lovely to ride this time of day.