Out of the Blū

Friday, February 16, 2024

Shaun put him on the couch.

Shaun put him on the couch. He's watching TV. 😂

Thursday, February 15, 2024

I'm feeling extra SPICY today...

I'm feeling extra SPICY today and this is just me blowing off some steam. 😬

I'm cold and uncomfortable and I'm mad about it. The temperature in the house is 70°F and it's sunny out and I'm in a hoodie and socks (with my other clothes, duh) and also under a blanket and I'm still not warming up.

I'm having ANXIETY because there are some things to do around here and they are slow to get done. We're doing the things we have control over (look at my picture - we cleaned the "junk pile" that was in the dining room / other side of my office - so that's nice), but we're waiting on things we just have to wait on. Like the tree trimming that has turned into tree removals 😭😭😭 and the floor situation in the sunroom (we can't put the floor down until it arrives).

I'm sad about the 2 trees were losing, but they're sick and there's no saving them. 😞 The new floor in the sunroom would make cleaning SUPER easy. Right now it's concrete and awful to sweep / vacuum (the litter boxes are out there). We're also waiting for a custom glass panel for our sliding glass door. Right now we have to leave the door open for Bear. The custom one will have a doggie door in it. (Cubba and the cats have been using a doggie door that's placed in a low window with stairs, and Bear can't do stairs.)

The built-in doggie door and the sunroom floor will be super nice to have done because then we can remove the stairs at the window and also have room to move Tort Baby out there, which I am excited to do because I get sensory overload like a bitch when he's scratching next to me and I'm trying to think about / do anything else... Which is a problem because this space is my office now. 😬😂

I am an ENTIRE, WHOLE mess right now because all of these things are nagging at me and on top of it all (or more like, beneath it, probably - and one of the major reasons I'm dealing with things so poorly) is the fact that I've been super terrible with my diet and exercise for a while now so my psoriasis is coming back and my skin feels TERRIBLE. I can only blame myself for that part, but the worse I feel the less good I take care of myself, so it's a bad negative spiral that I need to break ASAP.

Fun times. 😂

Stress sucks.

I think with all of the house changes, losing Oreo, starting a new project at work, the things wrong with Bear, keeping our old cats in good health, etc.... It's been kind of a lot the last few months. No wonder my self-care has been slipping. I need to chill down and focus.

At least having my junk pile cleaned up will help that. It's a good start.

Tuesday, February 13, 2024

It's been a rough day.

It's been a rough day. I think I was stressed after seeing Bear's seizure because I had stress dreams all night and woke up battling a migraine. I am ok now, but it took me all day to get that way.

Look at this sweet baby, though. He jumped up in his Papa's lap. He's not a big jumper and not super cuddly, but he needed some extra loving, I guess. ❤️

Bear saw the vet today.

Bear saw the vet today. He's starting phenobarbital for his seizures. The vet is hoping they were caused by his monthly heartworm prevention, which he started on February 1st. We're going to skip it on March 1st and he'll still have a week on phenobarbital, then he'll be off both meds so that we can re-evaluate.

Here he is crashed out at the vet's office. We've never seen him nervous before, but he was clearly nervous about being taken somewhere without Cubba. I guess the nerves tired him out because he fell asleep while waiting for the results of his bloodwork (they were good, thank goodness).

Also, gotta give props to my super sweet husband for carrying Bear up and down the stairs at the vet's office because of his bad knees. Yes, there was a ramp, but Bear gets confused and tries to go off the edge. 😂 I definitely married the right one. ❤️

Monday, February 12, 2024

I wasn't going to post this...

I wasn't going to post this because of my junk pile and the leaves in the floor... But I changed my mind. We're moving some things around at the moment and that's just how things look right now. And Bear brings leaves in constantly from his favorite bush, so... 🤷🏻 It is what it is.

This is a sweet video of Bear and Cubba and Balthi (with a little Toebean running through). And my favorite, Shaun.

Also, apparently we ALL wear socks with sandals in this house. Shadow. Me. Kira wears them with her flip-flops and says "Look at my hooves!" 😂😂😂 And now I have Shaun on video doing it, too. Judge us. It's fine. 😂

Y'all, my heart hurts.

Y'all, my heart hurts. We caught Bear having a seizure on camera last night and it looked ROUGH. 😭 I am so sad he went through that alone, but he calmed down and rested well. Being a pound puppy, he's probably always been alone through them, anyway (if he had this issue before). 🙁 He seems totally fine this morning.

Shaun read that it's common when falling asleep / waking up and it's more prevalent in dogs under 2 years old and with small heads. Bear is still young and has that small, domed noggin. Poor baby.

We're still going to have him checked out. We'll definitely take the video. If anyone wants to see it, message me directly. It made me sad to watch, so I'm not putting that on the timeline. We never heard from the surgeon about his knees, so we need to do a follow-up appointment, anyway.

Edited to Add: Bear is seeing the vet tomorrow.