Y'all, I'm struggling right now.

Y'all, I'm struggling right now.

There are several things going on at once, but I'm going through one of my phases where I am exhausted and my routine is non-existent and my self-care is going to shit and I feel ungrounded and it's just straight-up not a good time.

Part of it is stress.  Overall, things are pretty good, but there are some things nagging at me that need to be resolved.  I have probably said that I am doing this before, but I am literally doing it now:  I'm looking for a therapist.  I also think I probably need to be evaluated for Autism/Adhd.  I'm just not functioning like I "should" or would like to.  There are so many things that I relate to within the AuDhd community and if there is help out there for me, then I want it.

I missed a day of work this past week.  That is a whole fun, TMI story, but when has that ever stopped me?  😂

So the doctor who prescribed me the Semaglutide compound told me to stay at the lowest dose (.25mg) for at least 4 weeks.  They said to stay there as long as it was working, and that when I felt I needed to increase the dosage I could do it in .25mg increments.  I started feeling like I needed to increase my dosage and I'd been there for 6 weeks, so this past Tuesday I took .50mg.  I even did the shot by myself.

Well.  Tuesday and most of Wednesday went fine, but I'd been battling a migraine since Monday; I had kept it at bay for 2 days with a lot of Ibuprofen, but it was coming.  I took my migraine pills and went to sleep Wednesday night.  I woke up in the middle of the night with diarrhea and such a super full, overly stuffed feeling in my stomach.  The diarrhea lasted all night and my stomach was so uncomfortable.  Kira could hear me coming in and out of the bathroom and messaged me to check on me.  I told her what was up and she grabbed a Propel water and brought it upstairs for me.  She's sweet.

Recently, my psoriasis has been breaking out, and I think that was due to the protein shakes.  So I cut them out, and when I needed a thick drink I'd just have Lactaid Whole Milk.  And I think that, plus the double-dose of Semaglutide is what got me.  You're not supposed to get crazy on fatty foods on this medication and I just didn't even consider that.

Anyway, I messaged work at about 4 in the morning on Thursday saying that I needed a sick day because I DEFINITELY did.  I still had a headache, had not slept more than an hour stretch thanks to my butt, and I would've been useless.  Thursday morning, Shaun went and picked up some Imodium for me and that shut the booty faucet off for a bit.  I still felt uncomfortably full in my stomach, but tried to sleep off my headache.  At some point my headache disappeared, but I kept that really uncomfortable, overly-full feeling well into Thursday night despite not eating much that day.

I have (thankfully) felt mostly pretty ok physically today, but I've gotta get my mental shit in order ASAP.

As for the Semaglutide, I've read that splitting the higher dose can be helpful in reducing side effects, so I'm going to try that.  I'm going to take the .25mg on Tuesday like I was, and then 4 days later the next .25mg, and then 4 days later do it again and keep going like that if I feel ok.  I am pretty sure that if/when it's time to up my dose again I will do it very slowly (like .05mg/injection or something) because I don't want to go through that again.  I'm not trying to lose weight fast - I just want to feel like myself again.  It's ok with me if that takes time.

Anyway, all that is to say that it wasn't a really fun week overall, but I survived it and learned something, so I guess it's ok.

I hope things are going better for y'all.  If not, hang in there. ❤

Shaun and Bear are opening the pool.

Shaun and Bear are opening the pool. I guess it's about that time. Kira should be happy. She's been asking about it for weeks. 😂

I was sitting up talking to Kira and Shadow...

I was sitting up talking to Kira and Shadow and Toebean decided it was time to wrestle Shadow as he stood there eating his food. 😂 I don't usually see Tobi play; he doesn't with the other cats and he's cuddly with me and Shaun. But I've seen him come for Shadow a few times and it's pretty funny. I guess they're buddies. 😂😊

🎵🎶🎵He got legs... 😂😂😂

🎵🎶🎵He got legs... 😂😂😂

This boy and his kicking. I was in the living room when he started kicking the box. He tried to pretend nothing was going on until I went to my office chair, then he immediately started kicking again. 😂 He's easily fooled. It's not like I wasn't still looking directly at him. 👀😂

Pardon the mess. This is the room we were rearranging over the weekend and we are not done.

A couple of the few people...

A couple of the few people who have been in our house since we moved have commented some version of "It's very... neutral" or "How long have you been here?"... I guess in response to my lack of decoration.

It's totally fine; that's not offensive to me. It's kind of funny. 😂

But I will agree that downstairs is pretty neutral because that's where everyone should feel welcome, and it's also where most of the animals are. So not too much that I really care about is down here.

Shaun is more of the decorator of the family. His game room is swords and knives and red and black things and LOTR. Our bedroom has my loft bed and more of a nature vibe, I think. It has some of my decorations in there. And the actual loft room does, too.

But all in all, I prefer less clutter, fewer things to dust and clean, and less grabbing my attention. I find it easier to relax in a space like that.

It's funny because today we moved some stuff around. We took the shelves from the sunroom and brought them in to the "dining room" that I use as my downstairs office space. It's not done, but there are a few plants on the shelves and some driftwood and some rocks. We have a few small totes of rocks and I put the totes in the bottom shelf. I called it decoration. Shaun disagrees. 😂

But there is no good way to display that many rocks. I don't know why, as a family, we have so many rocks, but we do. Me and Shaun both collected rocks when we were kids, and still do. Shadow did/does it, too. Kira might be the only one of us who didn't move a box of rocks into this house. 😂  Actually, she did.  She brought rocks that she had painted.

I'll post a photo of the area once it's done. Right now I am getting beachy vibes, probably from the pale colors and driftwood and sunny area. I would like to try my hand at houseplants, but I hit a few spring sales for succulents already and I'm not trying to spend a bunch of money on plants I might accidentally kill. There is plenty of time to load up my indoor shelves.

Anyway. Goodnight, friends. Monday is almost here!

So the question earlier...

So the question earlier stemmed from the fact that I say "in the dash" instead of "in the glove box." Apparently, it is confusing to Shaun, so I'm gonna try to remember to say "in the glove box" next time. I just grew up hearing "in the dash" and thought that was pretty normal. But I like to be precise with my words, so I'll work on this.

Oddly, this isn't the first time we've run into this. But I'm glad I'm not the only one who understood what I meant. 😂 Thank you if you answered my question. ❤️

Question:

Question:

If I asked you to look in the dash of the car to get something, where specifically would you look?