My plants are still awake, though.

I'm exhausted and in bed. My plants are still awake, though. Their bedtime is at 10. Look at them. 😍

My little cactus is blooming again. I love her crown of flowers.

This one isn't blooming again, but those extra - long spikes are new.

My little webby guy has a couple of new things growing off of him.

This bud is a lot taller. I think my Frizzle Sizzle is going dormant. If I water her now it's not supposed to be often. I might give her a drink tomorrow. I'm going to do some reading and see if that's a good idea or not.

New growth on the plant I beheaded. I still feel bad about that, though.

Lots of babies in progress. ☺️

Well today could have gone a lot worse.

Well today could have gone a lot worse. I missed my first class of the day, but made it to the second two. After class I talked to one of my teachers and also my adviser. We're all in agreement that I should probably drop a class. Two computer science and three math classes was just insane. I don't know why I did that to myself - unless I just really wanted to get extra ahead in case I mess up. What's crazy is that my last semester already won't be jam-packed so I'm ok. I'm really ok and it's hard for me to accept that. 😕

Although I haven't dropped a class yet, just knowing that I can has relieved some stress. I will feel much better once I do. Also, today I found another pencil so that was awesome. It's blue with white polka dots and the eraser is barely used. Score! I needed a win. 🙂

I have a ton of work to catch up on tomorrow and hopefully I'll feel ok enough to make progress. I'm already in bed so I'm resting up. We'll see how it goes.

Goodnight, friends! ❤️

How did I work in an office for 10+ years and never know this?!

How did I work in an office for 10+ years and never know this?!

100% me today.

100% me today.  I have been trying for HOURS to get myself to do anything from my to-do list.  Still failing miserably.  😫🙃

I am starting to think...

I am starting to think I'm having breakthrough depression caused by feeling utterly overwhelmed this semester... or either my antidepressant is losing effectiveness. In any case I think I'm going to be dropping a class within the next 3 weeks (before the academic penalty deadline). I'm staying as long as I can to learn as much as I can, but I am ready to be down to 4 classes. Clearly, 5 is too many right now. I don't need to push myself this hard. I'll still graduate on time.

I'm really hoping that will help. If not, I have a bigger problem than I thought. I really wanted to spend the weekend catching up on school work, but yet again I couldn't make myself do ANYTHING. This just won't do. Something has to give.

Anyway, I hope you all are doing well. If not - make some changes and hang in there. ❤

Facebook says this is my most loved photo from 2012.

Facebook says this is my most loved photo from 2012. It's honestly one of my favorites, too. I like it when I look happy. 😃

Time has changed us physically and I've learned a lot over the years, but I guess I'm always going to do shit my way. College in your 30's is no joke, but just as I've had to do for most of my life now I keep on keeping on and do what needs to be done. It's just a little harder with more years under your belt and the health issues that can bring. But I'm tough. If all goes as planned I'll be graduating again in May 2020 with TWO majors, and with Shadow, Shaun, and Kira by my side (and hopefully no one on my hip 😂😂😂). I'm looking forward to that happy. It's gonna be a BIG happy and I will have most definitely earned it. 😁😁😁

Plant Updates:

My Frizzle Sizzle is turning red and her bud is getting taller. I can't wait to see her bloom!

I ended up sorting my propagation babies and putting them in one tray. I already have several with both roots and teensy plants and hopefully many more to come. 😊