hitting hard times :(

So I've done the unthinkable: re-homed a few of my pets. The last ferret I took in has gone to stay with my step-sister. He seems happier there. He lived alone before he came to me and I don't think living with Static and Stella was his cup of tea. So now he has free run of the house quite often and it seems to be working out for everyone. Honey and Milkshake now live with a dear friend. I just never got as attached to them as I did Hairy and Minuit. I think it was too soon... I was trying to help Minuit out by getting her a housemate, but then she died leaving the new rat alone so I ended up buying a newer rat to keep the new rat company. If I'd known Minuit was gonna die anyway I wouldn't have bought the first one to begin with. So that was just a thing I did that didn't work out as I'd hoped...

Anyway, I also sent my gliders to live elsewhere. There was some weirdness going on with them that I could just no longer deal with. A rat, a mouse, the last hermit crab, and the hamster have died. The last time I tried to post a memorial PhotoBucket was being a dick and I never came back to it. I guess I have some catching up to do.

I still have more of a houseful than I need, but I have a hard time parting ways with my kids. Speaking of fur kids something is wrong with Scooter and I hope, Hope, HOPE it works itself out SOON because I certainly do not have the money to take him to the vet. He's had diarrhea and been vomiting for like a week and I've done everything I know of to fix him. I haven't switched foods on him, I've given him dewormer (just in case), I've made sure there's nothing un-foody around that he could be getting into. I just don't know what else could be going on. I treated them all for fleas with CHEMICALS! - which I'm normally opposed to doing, but nothing else is working. The fleas are MONSTEROUS this year. 😟 I wonder if that could have jacked him up.

Speaking of diarrhea - Scooter's just been going where ever he goes. For the most part he's done pretty well considering that there's no one home to let him out mid-day anymore, but now that he's sick all bets are off. And he likes to do his business in the big room where the floor is concrete or cement or whatever. Which you know - is porous. It's like trying to mop up wet poo from a sidewalk or something - it just doesn't work. So my house smells like sickly shit right now and it pretty much grosses me out. I actually feel a little nauseated because of it. But I have not found a way to get it completely up - most of what I do seems to just... rub it in. Mayhaps that's something I can work on in a bit. Suggestions?

So it was brought to my attention...

that I haven't blogged in a while. That's pretty true. So here I am.

I've been stressed out lately which is just what I do sometimes - and WOW - has my skin shown it. It's like "Whoa, what happened to your FACE, man?" For serious. I've never been of the train of thought that looks were everything, but when I start looking like this it makes me want to hide under a rock. I look sickly. Like, with some chicken pox or measles or some shit. Boo. And just add to that my hair. Yep, I'm letting my hairs grow back and they are at that funny, awkward, "Haha, you can't do shit with me" stage. I either wear a hat or just have to let them stick out all over my head. It's great. Also, I'm graying, but I'm kind of excited about that.

Well, despite all of that crap I'm ok. I'm always ok. ... I'm just going to be ok.  Worst comes to worst I can get a roommate. I don't really want to as I'm enjoying having the house to myself, but I could if I really needed to. I sort of have other plans in the works for the almost clean and empty room I'm working on, but it wouldn't be the end of the world if someone else had to move into it. I guess it's good to have something to fall back on.

So I'm being a little strange lately... to myself, anyway. Maybe no one else would notice. But I ate a hamburger last night, quite intentionally. And a hot dog earlier in the week. And I haven't obsessively cut my nails every other day this week. I've been painting them daily to keep me from cutting them (which painting them is something I literally have not done in YEARS). And I shaved my legs, once, just because. And I'm growing my hairs. And I took out my giant earrings to shower, but I'm not putting them back right now. ... I think I'm just feeling somewhat experimental... like - just making sure I still know myself. Or what I like or not. Or maybe I'm bored. I really don't know. The best answer I have is that I feel like doing these things (damn the reason) and so I do them. It's kind of neat.

Aside from that people... well, mostly A people - has been introducing me to musics that rock my face off. I'm all over it. It's been a while since I've been so into music... most of what I was hearing was just not doing it for me at all. I'd become quite bored with music which is just fucking sad. Speaking of music... very soon (I hope) Shadow will start playing my drum set. He wants to, I want him to, I wanna do it with him... and it will be great fun if nothing else. I just have to get some stuff moved - which is what I was doing before I started blogging and probably what I'll be doing after I finish blogging, too. But yeah, I'm looking forward to that.

Speaking of looking forward to things... there are a few things happening that I'm all about. First of all - it's great weather for camping. I discovered this summer that I really like to do that so I want to do it some more. A LOT. Mayhaps I will just move to the woods for the fall. 😜 Also, there's a show coming up in November that I really want to go to. If I get to it will be my first show of the year. How pathetic, but oh well. From what I've seen this one will probably be awesome enough to make up for all the fun I've missed this year. Needless to say:  I'm excited.

All in all I'm struggling with a few things, but life feels right. Life feels good. Really good, even. I think you never know who your real friends are until you need them and I'm honestly shocked at how many people have just been there for me. I am SO not complaining and I can't really even claim to understand WHY some of the people who are here, are, but I'm grateful. It's the best thing ever. Severiously.

And so... I think that is all.