Yesterday was pretty terrible.

Yesterday was pretty terrible.  Not because of anything going on with me, but from an outside force.  Someone tried to do a good thing, but the execution of the plan was nothing short of HORRIBLE and it was just very stressful all around.  The execution of the plan has been re-scheduled to be done the way it should have been to begin with so I'm glad that's settled, but I question if I'll ever look at this person the same again.  I don't think it will be possible - which is extremely unfortunate.  Aside from the horrible plan, there was also a great deal of demands being made, and refusal to even speak about the situation.  My relationship with this person is NOT ok.  I guess only time will tell if it ever will be again.

On the flip side I didn't lose my shit yesterday despite how volatile I felt on the inside.  I think if this had happened a week ago with me having my Mirena in it would NOT have ended well.  I mean... shit probably would have hit the fan in a completely irreparable kind of way and I doubt I would have cared.  So yay for timing.

Also, I have to say that rather than freak the fuck out - I let go and put my trust in Shaun.  He had to play mediator, but he's good at it.  I've always trusted him, but this put it to the test.  This is the kind of situation that I NORMALLY would not leave to anyone else to handle, but I did.  If you haven't deduced the conflict was about an animal - one that I care a great deal about.  Despite the stress I stopped my crazy wheels from turning and just left it to him.  I have never done that with anyone else before.  What's even better is that he came through, so I feel closer to him than ever.

All in all one relationship was severely damaged, but a more important one was strengthened.  I am still angry and my feelings are hurt and I've got a stress headache like WHOA, but I'm heading to my couch to relax and forget about this.  It might have dominated my day yesterday, but it's not going to ruin my weekend.

Later, friends.  ❤

People, I painted my nails.

People, I painted my nails.  No, scratch that - I did some nail art to them.  They are nubs from months of lack of care, but they are FANCY nubs.

I am feeling VERY damn accomplished today.  😃

For the first time in probably two months...

I got up when Shaun called me this morning. I feel ok, I've done all of my morning rounds, and I'm ready for work. Honestly I should already be there, but getting in at 10:30 beats rolling in at 1 or 3 any day so I'll take it.

My body feels a little weird, but I have gradually felt my life force return since the removal of my Mirena. I would like to encourage all the ladies who are using hormonal birth control in any form to not overlook the side effects if you are feeling "off." In my case I was on a slow but steady emotional decline. Things got bad enough that I lashed out and stopped doing ANYTHING (even things I liked doing) until some people who care told me I should seek help. I didn't suspect my birth control at first at all because there had been some stress in my life and I thought "Well, feeling this way is probably all part of aging." Turns out it wasn't and I am SO THANKFUL for that.

It could be as simple as trying something new to get you feeling all better again. My personal preference for now is to stay off of hormonal methods which is going to be difficult, but in my personal opinion - WORTH IT. If you are happy with what you are using then more power to you. I'm not trying to push my preferences on anyone - just want to point out that if you aren't so great don't rule it out as the cause. Your happiness and emotional well-being are worth it.

Now, off to work!

Just got an email...

Just got an email... my girly business shipped yesterday from Germany.  I shall have it in about 2 weeks.  🙂

"I'm looking for a boy...

"I'm looking for a boy with a turtle bite on his index finger."

Sounds like my kind of guy. 😛

I'm home.

I'm home. I didn't work for long. I feel emotionally ok, but physically pretty crappy. I feel PMS-y in my body, but nada yet. I'm sore and achy and crampy and BLOATED - and lacking energy in a big way. I am also dealing with bouts of nausea and headaches. I kind of feel like I'm trapped somewhere between PMS and the Mirena Crash. I guess if I had thought it through I might have realized that there would be some side effects after having a hormone in me for 6 years then quitting cold-turkey. Oh well. 

On the bright side I got nail mail today. I ordered some polish from a blog sale and it was waiting for me when I got home. 🙂 I guess the flip side to that is that if I have any energy I'll probably use it cleaning, not doing my nails. Maybe soon I'll feel like painting again.

Had a weird night.

Had a weird night.  I was unintentionally up pretty late, but I feel much better knowing that I have BC options on the way.  I was sort of panicking.  I don't like feeling limited to having only things I don't want.  That's stupid.

So as I was getting ready for bed - at 3 am - I noticed that my bathroom was occupied.  What?  I knocked on the door and Shadow was up getting ready for school.  He was apparently REALLY confused.  I don't know how that happened (he has an alarm clock in his room!), but I told him it was 3 and to go back to bed.  So he did and then I went to bed, too.

I was later woken up at 6:something by a rather panicked 14 year old who had missed the bus somehow.  I didn't want to take him to school, but I did.  I guess that's my job.

While I was up I noticed that I didn't feel so great.  I am rather sore in the guts area, nauseated, and have a headache.  I'm (FINALLY) almost over my sinus crap - so I have a feeling that these are side effects of the removal of my Mirena.  My mood doesn't completely suck again today, so that's nice, but since I don't feel great, meh.  I don't feel like doing much.  I did go back to sleep for a while, but that didn't really help.  I'm gonna eat some breakfast, take some Ibuprofen, and head to work.  Wish me luck.