Sunday, April 6, 2014
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Saturday, April 5, 2014
Yesterday was pretty terrible.
Yesterday was pretty terrible. Not because of anything going on with me, but from an outside force. Someone tried to do a good thing, but the execution of the plan was nothing short of HORRIBLE and it was just very stressful all around. The execution of the plan has been re-scheduled to be done the way it should have been to begin with so I'm glad that's settled, but I question if I'll ever look at this person the same again. I don't think it will be possible - which is extremely unfortunate. Aside from the horrible plan, there was also a great deal of demands being made, and refusal to even speak about the situation. My relationship with this person is NOT ok. I guess only time will tell if it ever will be again.
On the flip side I didn't lose my shit yesterday despite how volatile I felt on the inside. I think if this had happened a week ago with me having my Mirena in it would NOT have ended well. I mean... shit probably would have hit the fan in a completely irreparable kind of way and I doubt I would have cared. So yay for timing.
Also, I have to say that rather than freak the fuck out - I let go and put my trust in Shaun. He had to play mediator, but he's good at it. I've always trusted him, but this put it to the test. This is the kind of situation that I NORMALLY would not leave to anyone else to handle, but I did. If you haven't deduced the conflict was about an animal - one that I care a great deal about. Despite the stress I stopped my crazy wheels from turning and just left it to him. I have never done that with anyone else before. What's even better is that he came through, so I feel closer to him than ever.
All in all one relationship was severely damaged, but a more important one was strengthened. I am still angry and my feelings are hurt and I've got a stress headache like WHOA, but I'm heading to my couch to relax and forget about this. It might have dominated my day yesterday, but it's not going to ruin my weekend.
Later, friends. ❤
Thursday, April 3, 2014
People, I painted my nails.
For the first time in probably two months...
My body feels a little weird, but I have gradually felt my life force return since the removal of my Mirena. I would like to encourage all the ladies who are using hormonal birth control in any form to not overlook the side effects if you are feeling "off." In my case I was on a slow but steady emotional decline. Things got bad enough that I lashed out and stopped doing ANYTHING (even things I liked doing) until some people who care told me I should seek help. I didn't suspect my birth control at first at all because there had been some stress in my life and I thought "Well, feeling this way is probably all part of aging." Turns out it wasn't and I am SO THANKFUL for that.
It could be as simple as trying something new to get you feeling all better again. My personal preference for now is to stay off of hormonal methods which is going to be difficult, but in my personal opinion - WORTH IT. If you are happy with what you are using then more power to you. I'm not trying to push my preferences on anyone - just want to point out that if you aren't so great don't rule it out as the cause. Your happiness and emotional well-being are worth it.
Now, off to work!
Just got an email...
Just got an email... my girly business shipped yesterday from Germany. I shall have it in about 2 weeks. 🙂