I was feeling too sore to sleep, so...

I was feeling too sore to sleep, so I stayed up and painted my nails as a get-well present.  It kind of made me feel better and took my mind off of how sore I am.  I feel as though I've been beaten from the waist down.  Kind of afraid to take anything for the pain.  I don't like to have a lot of medication in me all at once.  😕

About to climb up in my bed and try to get comfy.  Thanks for all the well-wishes.  ❤

Had a very hard time sleeping last night.

Had a very hard time sleeping last night.  It was well after 4 when I finally fell asleep.  I turned off my alarm because I figured I'd need the rest.  Well the doggies woke me up around 9:45 and I couldn't get back to sleep.  I have a headache, so I'm having some unsweet tea and Ibuprofen for breakfast.

Physically, I'm still not good by any stretch, BUT, my knees and hips aren't AS SORE as they were.  A lot of the general pain from last night has faded, but my thigh muscles and lower back still hurt in a not so insignificant way.  That didn't start until the injection, so here's hoping that fades soon or that the Ibuprofen at least kicks it down a notch.

Slowly but surely getting ready for work.  If I can't rest I don't see why not.  Wish me luck.  ❤

Blegh. Went to the doctor today.

Blegh.  Went to the doctor today.  Because I know nothing I didn't get a referral to a specialist.  I think I thought he was allowed to experiment on me, then decide he couldn't fix me before giving me a referral.  I have been told repeatedly that I am wrong, so I will call them by next week.  I really feel like I need to do my own research right now.

So he came in and asked how long I'd had my "rash" and I told him that I was diagnosed with Psoriasis like, 15 years ago.  He said that often arthritis comes with that (psoriatic arthritis), so I guess he thinks that's what I have.  They took 3 vials of my blood, but as far as I know they only tested it for infection.  No x-rays or anything like that were done.  I did find out that my blood pressure is good and that I weigh 120 lbs.  I would be happier if I was back at 110 (and it might be easier on my joints from what I've read), but the doc said nothing about that.  (Before any of you jump on me for saying that's a low weight - please remember that I am not even technically adult sized.)

Anyway, they gave me a steroid shot in the ass called Celestone.  He said it would help with the inflammation in my skin and joints.  The shot hurt, but not terribly (I am no wimp), but I almost passed out shortly after receiving it.  Meds affect me a little more than they do the average person, I think.  So they gave me a Dum-Dum sucker and let me sit until I felt better.  It was a pretty good sucker.  Since I felt all jeebly I asked Shaun to come and get me.  I really didn't want to drive at the point.

We had lunch and that was ok.  But off and on all afternoon I have felt as though I am being pinched in random places, I've had pain in other joints that weren't bothering me before, I've had crying spells, and my lower back and thighs are now killing me - in addition to my bones and skin hurting.  🙁  All in all, this is worse and I hope it gets better.

I asked what the side effects of the shot would be and the nurse said my face might flush for a day.  I asked how long the shot would last and they didn't know.  No one knows anything, not even me.  Like I said - I have research to do.  I'm not super thrilled with how the day went, but I'm probably not the best patient, as I don't have experience with doctors.  I didn't know that it was appropriate to ask for a referral - and especially not on the first visit.  Popular consensus seems to be that I need to see a Rheumatologist, so I will check around Anniston to see who's available.  If anyone has recommendations, let me know.  I am new to this and need all the help I can get.

I'm off to put on something soft and warm.  I'm curling up on the couch until my Shaun arrives to bake me comfort cookies.  Not the best for my skin, I'm sure, but I've been super careful with my diet lately and if cookies will at least make me feel emotionally better, then I'll take it.

Later, peeps.  ❤

Heading to bed.

Heading to bed.  I'm up a little more than an hour past my self-prescribed bedtime of midnight tonight.  😕  I was productive, though, so I'm not in trouble.  LOL

I updated my Etsy... mostly my small earrings, so now they can come in clip, post, or dangle.  I also edited some wording and keywords, so woohoo for all that bizness.  I still have tons more to do, but I'm saving that for another day.

I'm for sure going to the doctor tomorrow.  I'm not feeling any worse off, but I have my car, I have the money, so I have no excuse not to.  I just have to do it.  I'm nervous, but I'm doing it.

Discovered last night that my bed stays warmer in the winter now that it's almost to the ceiling.  That's nice for my bones.  Maybe the climbing up and down isn't that great, but I don't care.  I love my bed and whatever is wrong with me isn't gonna take that from me.  I will have to be in a walker before I give up my high bed.

Anyway, goodnight peoples.  ❤

All of my friends, if it's not too personal, what is wrong with you?

All of my friends, if it's not too personal, what is wrong with you?  Physically, I mean?

I haven't had a very good health year.  Like, AT ALL.  The IUD / depression thing earlier this year was bad enough.  But now, my psoriasis is flaring up big time.  It hurts to wear clothes.  TMI Alert:  I haven't worn a bra in months because the band hurts my skin so bad.  Good thing I have teensy tatas.  If you've seen me out in public in what appears to be pajamas it's because my skin was too sore to wear anything tighter or with a coarser fabric.  I have got the homeless hobo look DOWN.

As if the skin isn't bad enough my bones are killing me.  Like, for the last few years in the winter they have been sore, but not unbearably so.  But this year... oh man.  It's only been cold for like, 2 days, and I already know that I can't go all winter this way.  I am going to the doctor either tomorrow or Wednesday.  My hips and knees are quite painful.

I had a little mini meltdown over the weekend.  I have thankfully been healthy for most of my life, but at 31 years old I feel like I am starting to fall apart.  It is so scary.  I have no idea how my health measures up to other people my age.  I keep thinking that I am too young for this, but then again I know that some people are born in worse shape, so then I just feel like a big old douchebag for having such thoughts.

So... anyone out there care to tell me all the ways in which they are falling apart?  If you are ailing, at what age did that start?  I just feel like talking about it.  I am curious.  It makes me feel better to talk about things.  ❤

Aaand... Shaun just gave Shadow his Christmas present.

Aaand... Shaun just gave Shadow his Christmas present.

We do what we do. LOL

My night just turned awesome.

My night just turned awesome. Tim Minchin (something about with an orchestra) is on Hulu. 😃