I have regrets. 🙁

I have regrets.  🙁

I haven't seen Dad basically since this semester started last month.  We usually talk or text at least every Sunday if I can't make it out there, though.  Well since I haven't been out there it would follow that I didn't see the pups or kitten, either.  🙁  I mean, look.  Every time we would visit, Annie (one of the dogs) would scream her head off because she was so excited to see us.  LOL  Shadow would play with PP (the other dog) and the kitten.  It was just really nice and it was family.  And we haven't been there in a month and now they are gone and everything is different.  😢

So the house burns and the animals don't make it and I STILL don't go out there.  I keep calling and texting Dad, but every time I hear from him he seems dazed and distant and busy.  I'm sure he's got approximately a billionty things going on right now so I'm trying not to make myself into a problem, but I want to help.  Every time we communicate he tells me not to come down there because there is nothing I can do.  I feel like he's doing this in part to protect me.  I guess any parent probably would.  But I know if the situation were reversed he'd be here with me in a heartbeat.

I am planning to go out there this weekend no matter what he says.  I have some clothes and money from some of you awesome people that I need to take to them.  I know that many of you are still working on things for them and that's ok.  I'll take what I have this weekend and more the next trip.  Tests and studying be damned - I'll be heading to Munford on the weekends just as I was before.  Life is too short for all this "working too hard to see the important ones in your life" kind of crap.  Seriously.

Btw, in two days of asking what Dad needs I finally got ONE thing out of him:  Long Johns.  He's a little thin guy and he's a carpenter and works out in the cold so things that can keep him warm are appreciated.  ❤

Today's Biology lesson:

Today's Biology lesson:  The Laws of Thermodynamics.

Seriously.

OMG - I just found chocolate in my panties. 😂😂😂

OMG - I just found chocolate in my panties.  😂😂😂

I just woke up - late, of course.  I feel like crap.  I'm tired, nauseated, and already fighting a headache.  My face is swollen from crying for like 5 days straight.  I was thinking, "How am I supposed to do this day?  I just want to go back to bed and hide."

So I was getting dressed and I found one of the chocolates that Shaun had hidden.  It was in my underwear drawer.  And you know what?  I cried again.  But they were happier tears, at least.  I can't think of a single better thing for me right now than to be reminded when I least expect it that I am loved and most importantly - not alone.

Kind of the same as when I checked the GoFundMe for my dad.  I've gotten several more donations since I checked last night.  Thank you all.  I will get to the personal "Thank you's" when I'm not about to be late to class.  Everyone please keep sharing and if you have any clothing, etc, anyone at work can accept it for me if I'm not there yet.  Thanks again.  It means a lot to me that so many people are trying to help.  I really appreciate it.  ❤

I hate the way my life feels right now.

I hate the way my life feels right now. It hurts. It sucks. I feel really sad, sick, and stressed. 🙁

For anyone who missed it this morning, my dad's house burned down.

For anyone who missed it this morning, my dad's house burned down.  It's my worst nightmare come true:  Their pets were still inside and did not make it.  I am so sad that I don't even know how to process this.

If you can donate any money, please do.  They have nothing but their vehicles and the clothes they were wearing.

Dad didn't want me to come out there today, but I will be making a delivery of donations in the next couple of days.  He and Lisa are staying with another relative right now.

• Men's Clothes: Dad wears 32x32 in pants, and medium shirts.
• Women's Clothes: Lisa wears large shirts and size 14 LONG pants.
• Size 8.5 shoes for both
• Cash, Gift Cards, Toiletries
• GoFundMe link: gofundme.com/mcp3bvac
• They have one large outside dog left, so dog food would also be appreciated.

Thank you.

My Dad's house just burned down.

Updated to add a list:

My Dad's house just burned down. There is nothing left. Their two dogs and kitten did not survive.  It is my worst nightmare come true.  I'm not even sure how to process this.

Dad and Lisa have their vehicles and the clothes they were wearing - that's it.  If you have anything to donate, please keep us in mind. They are staying with another relative for now.

I don't know what do, but please keep an eye on my page for updates. I'll let you all know how you can help as we figure it out.

Thank you.

• Men's Clothes:  Dad wears 32x32 in pants, and medium shirts.
• Women's Clothes:  Lisa wears large shirts and size 14 LONG pants.
• Size 8.5 shoes for both
• Cash, Gift Cards, Toiletries
• GoFundMe link:  gofundme.com/mcp3bvac
• Can now accept donations directly through Facebook Messenger
• They have one large outside dog left, so dog food would also be appreciated.

Donations can be dropped off at work at 500 Main Street in Oxford until 5, Monday - Friday, or message me and I can try to meet you.  I work from noon until 5 on Tuesday - Friday, but other employees are usually there by 10.

Just woke up coughing...

Just woke up coughing and as I was getting comfy again I found a chocolate under my pillow. 😂😍 It's so unexpected and perfect. Thank you, love, for making my life better. You're the best. ❤