Me lately. 🙁

Me lately.  🙁  I can't even muster the energy to go places I kind of want to.  Shaun and Shadow are trying to make plans for this summer, and I'm just like, "I don't care what you do.  Just leave me on the couch."

I'm so sad that classes start back Tuesday.  I only have to physically go to one class a week (the rest is online), but dang.  That feels like too much right now.

I think that I am not in a great place.  🙁

I've been out of school for almost 3 weeks.

I've been out of school for almost 3 weeks.  I had major plans to do crazy things to my nails, but as you might have noticed from the lack of posts, I have not.  To be honest I haven't really been feeling it.  😕

My nails were long and bothersome by the time school was out, so I shortened them and then shortened them again.  Then I tried this nail oil (Bliss Kiss Simply Pure Cuticle and Nail Oil, if you're interested) and it said to go a few days with naked nails while applying the oil many times a day to get moisturized.  So, I did that.  But I was also cleaning a lot (without gloves because I'm bad), so it took a little longer to get my nails to be in better shape.

I'm probably about to sound like a commercial, but that oil is the first one I've tried that ACTUALLY made any kind of difference in my nails.  My nails have no problem growing longer, but they will peel like crazy.  They are also naturally brittle, so will just snap off if I bump them on something.  Well, somehow, the oil stopped the peelies.  Even places that were already peeling up it seemed to seal back down somehow.  And they are little more flexible, so when I bump them I might get a new peelie spot (when un-polished), but they aren't snapping off.  So that is pretty cool.

I have no idea how things will go when I start painting again, but with as many layers of polish as I tend to use I've always felt that my nails were protected by it.  I am hoping that with them being in better shape AND polished that they will look really nice, as well as be stronger.  We'll see.

Anyway, if you're into nails and / or cuticles I would have no problem recommending Bliss Kiss oil.  I am not exactly a connoisseur of nail oil, but I did buy CND's Solar Oil a while back because it was highly recommended, but Bliss Kiss is better, in my opinion.  You can find it on their website or Amazon, whichever you prefer.

BONUS:  It smells faintly like an orange dreamsicle, which is surprisingly pleasant.  I think they have an unscented version if you're not into smells, though.

Check it out:  https://www.myblisskiss.com/simply-pure-hydrating-oil-pen

Compassion Fatigue is real, and it's a killer.

Compassion Fatigue is real, and it's a killer.  You may not agree with every decision that someone in rescue, law enforcement, healthcare, etc., makes, but please be kind and understanding to them.  They really don't need harsh words from anyone on top of the terrible realities they face every day.  The worst part is that most of the people who will shit-talk us won't lift a finger to improve whatever they are complaining about.  It's much easier to sit back and let someone else do the real work.  I've seen that firsthand a thousand times.

Compassion Fatigue is the sole reason I am not in school to become a vet.  It would be the end of me.  I NEED to be able to step back, and rescuing /  rehabbing animals on a volunteer basis allows for that.  Thankfully, I am still here, but a few years ago I reached hopelessness and that was a scary place to be.  The problems that we as individuals face when we try to help are so much bigger than us.  Try as we might, we will never fix it alone.  It is an up-hill battle and lives are at stake.  But often, no one else cares.  That is terrifying and depressing.  It can definitely make you not want to live.

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/peoplesdaily/article-3604719/Director-Taiwanese-animal-shelter-commits-suicide-feeling-distraught-having-euthanise-dogs.html

Well, she made it and she's resting in her skull hide.

Well, she made it and she's resting in her skull hide. These are her last three molts.

Unfortunately I don't have her first one. Or if I do I'm not sure where it is at the moment. I guess I never thought about shaping them before they hardened (which is why the last two look so wonky), but in my defense when she would shed before she was always hidden and I never knew she was doing it until after the fact. This is the first time I've seen it in action. I might be a terrible tarantula mommy!

Anyway. As you can tell - she is growing up on us! ❤❤❤

Someone is molting! Anansi is getting big! ❤

Someone is molting! Anansi is getting big! ❤

Turns out that I am off all of the jobs today.

Turns out that I am off all of the jobs today. Woo!  Basically I got a freebie 3-day weekend that I wasn't expecting.  I'm not complaining!  🙂

I am legit probably doing nothing again today.  😃

Getting ready for bed.

Getting ready for bed.  I know it's late, but I'm just now crashing out.  I woke up at 10 this morning, but only because I had to pee so bad it hurt.  😂  Then I went back to bed until 2.  No regrets.

Over the last 2-ish weeks I've kicked ass on getting the house back in shape.  I'm not gross and I didn't lose all of my standards when things got hard last semester, but I did let some things slide.  I still have some cluttered areas to deal with, but seriously - I am starting to feel relaxed here again.  For the first time in ages not everywhere I look in this house is stressing me out.  I just can't even deal when things are not in order so this is MUCH better.

My guys went to a pool party today and I sat home and enjoyed my clean house and my ani-pals.  I LITERALLY sat on the couch all day unless I was hungry or had to pee.  I know that must sound so lame in comparison to a pool party, but I'm really not a "group of people person" and I DESPERATELY needed some time to myself.  It was amazing and magical.  The dogs didn't even ask me to let them out once until the guys came home.  ❤

I hate to admit that I am really bummed that classes start back on the 31st.  I've got about a week to finish anything I want to do and / or relax.  It just hasn't felt like a vacation because I'm working so much.  If not one place, then another.  And I need to.  I just wish I didn't have to work myself so hard that I feel like a grumpy nub of a person who's only major joy in life at the moment is getting 4 hours alone in a clean house.  It's not a great place to be in life.  Thankfully, 4th of July is coming so I will have some time off of work then.  I fully intend to take a whole week off of every job - if not two.

Anyway.  It's 2 in the morning so it's already Monday.  Guess I'd better sleep so I can work some more.  Woo.  I hope everyone had a nice weekend!  ❤