It's been a weird day.

It's been a weird day.  Scoot's been gone a week and it feels so recent and so far away at the same time.  I am still unbelievably sad, and I think that's why I'm keeping myself busy.  I worked this morning, then came home and cleaned the house.  I keep trying to psych myself up to do something fun, like nails, but I'm super not interested in much of anything.  I'm just in a weird, sad place, and it sucks.

This is also not a great way to cope with things, but I've immersed myself in some retail therapy.  I've done a lot of research on gel nails and the different kinds of gels and how they cure, and since I was basically ALL IN at "chrome" I went ahead and bought a UV lamp.  I did not get one of the crazy expensive ones, but it was a best-seller with great reviews on Amazon.  So, there's that.  Unfortunately, my lamp will be here before my chrome powders, but that's ok.  I really don't need too many distractions before my Biology final.

Lame as it sounds it's barely after 8, but I'm heading to bed.  Most likely I will end up awake in a few hours; that is, if I can even manage to sleep.  Thankfully, it's the weekend, so it doesn't matter too much.

Later, friends.

I don't usually like stormy or rainy weather, but today:

I don't usually like stormy or rainy weather, but today: Bring it on.

Just found a tuft of Scooter in my room.

Just found a tuft of Scooter in my room. I can't move it yet. Even when I do I'm gonna keep it forever.

Glad it's the weekend.

Glad it's the weekend. I went ahead over the last couple of days and completed the remainder of the assignments in my online Ethics class. Now I just have to worry about Biology for a couple more weeks, then I'm free until Fall semester starts. Gotta say it's really interesting, but those Biology classes have been brutal and I will be glad to have them behind me.

I think my biggest worry for my last 3 semesters at GSCC will be the Calculus classes. I can't even remember if I posted this before, but as long as the classes get enough students I'll be taking Cal I in the Fall, Cal II in the Spring, and Cal III next Summer, then it's off to JSU, FINALLY. It's taking a little longer than I wanted, but my adviser thought it would be best for my GPA if I take fewer classes. I'm really not up for being overloaded, so that works for me.

Anyway. Random thoughts for the night I guess because I'm almost done with another semester. I wonder if it's coincidental that the 2 years I've been in college have been the worst of my life. Last year, my health was horrible and I felt bad most of the time, both physically and mentally, and this year, disastrous, hard, bad, heartbreaking things keep happening. Maybe if I wasn't in school I would have more time and energy to deal with stuff and it would all seem less horrible. Or maybe I would have nothing to distract me and I would dwell on the bad. I have no idea. But at least I'm accomplishing things, I guess.

Anyway. I'm exhausted, so I'm off. Catch you later, Internet. Happy Weekend.

Shadow had to open it for me.

Shadow had to open it for me. I wasn't ready yet. /cue the water works

This day. My gosh.

This day. My gosh.

I didn't even make it to work until 5, and I worked for about 2 hours. I felt like crap, woke up late, got my period early, and my lizard had diarrhea.

I tried to find a doctor to see because clearly something is going wrong inside me, was on hold with Medicaid for about 30 minutes, and then the woman who spoke to me was a total bitch and hell-bent on misunderstanding me, going so far as to speak about my pregnancy (I'm not pregnant and never said that word once). I just wanted to know what doctors accept Medicaid so that I can get a yearly vagina checkup. She FINALLY gave me the names and numbers of 3 and said that she would mail a list of the rest. 

I went to Munford for the evening after work because the guys had dinner plans and I just wasn't that people-y; however, I did not want to be alone. It was nice hanging with the fam for a bit.

Haven't been home long. The house smells a lot better, so I guess it's about dried out - thank goodness. Now the dehumidifier is in the garage because it got flooded, too. I keep looking for Scooter and that's really damn sad.

Now what? I'm sitting here feeling grumpy and tired and I don't know what will make me feel better. I don't want to do anything or be around anyone. It's no good. Maybe I'll shower soon and try to relax.

I made a 74 on my Lab Practicum...

I made a 74 on my Lab Practicum and a disappointing 90 on my take-home test, somehow.  I really feel like I should have aced that one.  Oh well.

So, I have an 87 in Biology.  I REALLY want an A.  Thankfully, that is not too far from it.  Maybe I can do it.