Today started out ok, but things got shittier as the day progressed.

Today started out ok, but things got shittier as the day progressed.

On the drive home from work I got enough sun to make me sick.  Woo.  I currently feel like a pile of turds.  I am nauseated and I'm sure the only reason I don't have a migraine yet is because of the ass-ton of Tylenol I took in an effort to head it off.

Then once I was home I found that my stupid natural inclination be helpful might have backfired on me in a big way (to the tune of almost $200).  The resolution of this situation remains to be seen, so hopefully it will be amicable.  If not, screw humans forevermore.  Hopefully, I can get more information tomorrow.

And finally, I didn't do as well as I wanted to on either of my Calculus tests.  On the re-take of the first one I actually scored a point LOWER than on the first round.  Thankfully, the first test score stands so it didn't hurt me, but damn.  I don't feel happy about that.

On the big new test... damn.  I made an 87, but I am SO DISAPPOINTED with that.  First of all I missed the first question, which was worth 8 points.  On the sheet with the stuff I had to memorize it was formatted in a way that I didn't see all of the stuff I needed to memorize.  There was a bit of smaller text at the top, which I thought were directions.  So... when that question popped up on the test I had ZERO CLUE.  😳

Then, I also didn't finish a problem.  I was so mentally exhausted from tutoring on Monday I didn't even realize that I didn't finish it.  I basically didn't even work it!  So.  That happened.  Thankfully, I still have an A average in the class (just barely; it's a freaking 91), but I'm allowed to re-take that test with the final, so I probably will.  Hopefully, I don't mess up any more major than that.

Looks like it might be time to cut back on work so I can focus on school more.   I'm too frazzled and I'm always rushing around.  I feel like I'm pushing myself too hard right now.  I want to study a lot more than I have actual time to do.  I feel like I'm spending too many of my good, awake, "able to do things" hours at work and not directing that time and energy where it needs to go.  😕

Anyway.  That will be fun to figure out.  But for now I'm gonna try to get my mind off the stress and just rest for this evening.  I'm too exhausted to attempt studying, cleaning, or really anything else.

Goodnight, friends.  I hope your day went better!  ❤

I accidentally left the house without sunscreen on my face this morning.

I accidentally left the house without sunscreen on my face this morning. I got burned in the car way home, and now I feel like crap. I hope the migraine doesn't hit while I'm in Gadsden at my Calculus class. 🙁

This has been one busy day! 😳

This has been one busy day!  😳

I took my Psychology test this morning and I hate to say that I neglected studying for it because I was so focused on Calculus... but I did.  Still managed to make an 89, though, so I'm not even upset.

Then I tutored for FOUR HOURS STRAIGHT.  😳  I think my tutoring coordinator has lost her mind this semester.  I am tutoring English 093 (I think), Speech (which I haven't had since 2001), Math 100 (that's actually pretty fun), and get this:  BIOLOGY 103 with Dr. Lee - the class I STRUGGLED to make a B in!  I don't mind the rest of it, but Dr. Lee's BIOLOGY 103?!?!?

I told that student I'd bring my notes to her, so she should just focus on absorbing the information in actual class.  It goes so fast it's like you either copy the notes or pay attention - you legit cannot do both.  Maybe that will help her.  Then I can help her study them during tutoring.

Anyway, when I finally made it home I was so mentally exhausted that I didn't even study in the few minutes I had here.  I snacked and got ready to head to school.  Got there at 5:15.  Took my test, which I feel pretty good about.  Then I re-took the first one.  Was REALLY thrown off because the numbers were different (which makes a lot of sense not to give the EXACT same test twice), but I think I did ok.  Even if I didn't I still have a 92 from the first time.  So the only major anxiety will come from finding out how I fared on the main test today.

I got home at almost 9 pm and I am exhausted.  I've been up and running since 6:30 this morning.  I think I'm about to throw on some comfy clothes and sit my butt on the couch for a few.

I hope your Monday went well, friends!  ❤

I'm calling it a night. I'm exhausted and I have 3 tests tomorrow.

I'm calling it a night.  I'm exhausted and I have 3 tests tomorrow.  THREE.

I did work on Calculus - the actual math of it.  Maybe I'll be ok.  I feel fine about it, mostly.  I will probably go over it another time or two before the actual test, but I think I'm fine.  I also finished a homework sheet for the class, which aided my studying.

I'm trying my hardest in that class.  I am enjoying it so far, but it is not going to be something I can get lax on and do well with, it seems.  I guess I'd better get used to it since I will be taking a Cal class for the next two semesters.  LOL

Anyway, crashing out.  My brain is tired!

Am I the only parent who thinks...

Am I the only parent who thinks that my kid is lucky as hell that I don't only know him by smell? I think I would be one of those animals that are like "Nah, that one's not mine." 😂😂😂

When he spends the night somewhere and comes home smelling different I have to make him shower or at least change clothes. It's super disconcerting when he smells "wrong."

Shadow's not the only one. I do this crap to Shaun, too. I dislike it when he smells too much like other people, or places I haven't been. Or beer or sunscreen. I'm like, "You have to go away from me until you smell right."

I can deal with their body odor better than I can deal with them smelling wrong. I don't know what that's about, but my nose keeps an eye on these boys! LMAO

I just caught myself stuffing my daily half a Celexa into a pill pocket. 😳

I just caught myself stuffing my daily half a Celexa into a pill pocket. 😳

So I USUALLY do this thing every morning (I have been doing this for years) where I don't pee until the animals pee and I don't eat until the animals eat (except for extenuating circumstances, of course). How's that for motivation? If they are uncomfortable, so am I. I am no more deserving of comfort than they are, so we feel it together and I am good with that.

Today after I got everyone fed I was about to grab a bowl of cereal and take my Celexa. Booka came into the kitchen kind of snort-grunting at me and showing me his butt (above his tail where he itches), so I was like "Oh, you need your Prednisone, right? We'll take our meds together." (Yes, I baby-talk my animals, but we do have serious conversations, too.)

So I'd just cut my Celexa and it was on the counter. Then I grabbed the bottle of Prednisone and there was a previously cut one in the bottle, so I grabbed it and put it on the counter so I could get the pill pockets.

Wouldn't you know that those pills are the same color? LOL I got the pill pocket and stuffed a pill in there and was just about to close it up when I saw that the inside of the pill was white. Thankfully, I noticed that wasn't right and switched the pills, but I came closer than I am comfortable with to giving that to my Boo Bear. 😕

I am sure that happened because he hasn't been taking Prednisone daily for quite a while now, but his skin has been bothering him lately so he's back on it until we get it under control again. Now I will know to watch out for that. Hopefully I'll be sure to stick to my system and medicate him first from now on!

I feel ok about maybe 75% of my upcoming Calculus test.

I feel ok about maybe 75% of my upcoming Calculus test.  I haven't even done any math yet today, but I did kick the ass of the last definitions.  It is literally a whole front and back of a sheet of notebook paper's worth of stuff to know.  WORD. FOR. WORD.  😳

This is it.  (You've probably already seen part of it, but repeating helps me.)  (Feel free to skip this post if you don't care, but my freaking hand is SO TIRED of writing and I'm running low on paper; unfortunately, that is what sticks it in my brain.)

•  Five Things Osborn Wants me to Know About Calculus:

1)  Calculus is a way of measuring change, including change in time and and space.

2)  Calculus can help address counterintuitive notions in physics and economics.

3)  Calculus is effective in "managing infinity."

4)  Calculus problems tend to lead to algebra and / or basic math problems.

5)  Calculus is a set of procedures which convert any function or combination of functions into a derivative, which describes the relationship between the variable at a particular point.

-  The two fundamental idea of Calculus are:

1)  The derivative.  This is a way of measuring instantaneous change.

2)  The integral.  This is a sum of numerous pieces.

-  A tangent is a straight line that touches a curve at a specific point.

-  A derivative, as it relates to the tangent, is the slope of a line that is tangent to a curve.

-  The three main purposes of Differential Calculus are:  1)  precision, 2)  approximation, 3)  maximum and minimum. 

-  Differential Calculus is the arithmetic of infinitely small differences of variable quantities. 

-  Integral Calculus is the deduction of magnitudes from the ratio of small changes of other magnitudes. 

Examples I also have to know:

1)  "Speed of Car."  Differential Calculus deals with finding speed of a car based on position.  Integral Calculus deals with determining the distance traveled when only the speed was known.

2)  "Road."  Differential Calculus is concerned with changes in elevation of the road, slope / steepness, and with guessing or determining what happened between measurements.  Integral Calculus is concerned not with the road itself, but with the area under it and how the area changes.

3)  "Vase."  Differential Calculus is about the rate at which a liquid is poured into the vase.  Integral Calculus is about how high the level of the liquid rises at a point, and how high this level will get over a time interval.

So yeah.  I did it.  I just went back and checked myself before posting and I had an "a" where there was supposed to be a "the" one time.  I'd say that's not bad.  I feel accomplished.  I think I am gonna take a dinner break and then see if my brain is awake enough for some actual math.  Woo!  LOL