Ugh. It's almost GO TIME. As in GO MY ASS TO CLASS time. 🙁

Ugh.  It's almost GO TIME.  As in GO MY ASS TO CLASS time.  🙁

I've studied and I've made a little progress, but not as much as I'd have liked.  I honestly don't know if I'm consistently making the same mistakes repeatedly, or just little ones here and there that throw the whole problem off (since these problems are long and very detailed.)

I'm honestly kind of freaking out a little, but hopefully I can chill down.  I bet the fact that I've had coffee isn't going to help me do that, though.  I just wanted my brain to be alert for studying and I was feeling pretty drowsy after I woke up.

Fortunately / Unfortunately, my friends from Cal class seem to feel about the same as I do.  I'm glad I'm not alone in feeling like "Oh shit!" but I hate that they are feeling this way, too.

Anyway, I'm off.  Wish us all the luck.  We need it!

Well. I don't feel great about that psychology test.

Well.  I don't feel great about that psychology test.

Trying my best to get ready for Cal now.  Wish me luck.

I think I'm going to bed. My brain is exhausted. 🙁

I think I'm going to bed.  My brain is exhausted.  🙁

I've got a psychology test in the morning and then a Calculus test in the evening.  I'm not feeling super about either.  I'm actually pretty afraid of the Cal test.  🙁

We are finding derivatives and I just seem to really suck at doing it.  I don't know why.  I have practiced and practiced and I still get wrong answers to about half of the ones I try on the first run.  If I look at the answers in the back of of my book I can SOMETIMES find where I went wrong, but not always.  I feel sad and frustrated.  I really hope I have a breakthrough tomorrow.

For now I'm gonna rest.  I watched some videos on YouTube to try to get myself straightened out.  I generally feel like I have a handle on what I'm doing, but then I try to do it and mess it up.  Maybe my brain will work on it in my sleep.  Here's hoping.

I hope the week is going better for y'all.  Once I get tomorrow out of the way it should be a down-hill coast from there.  ❤

Coffee + Calculus.

Coffee + Calculus. Good way to start the day. 🙂

I'm up wayyy too late on a school night, but...

I'm up wayyy too late on a school night, but there are reasons. It's hard enough to stay on a schedule in general, but between a higher dose of Celexa, the feeling of possibly sliding into a dark place, and a neighbor yelling all night, I'm doing the best I can.

In other news:  We worked in the yard a little bit yesterday. Shadow spent the night with a friend after that, so I had dinner at Los Arcos with Shaun and then we hung out together. It was nice to have some "us" time. My schedule is busy and I feel like I mostly only see Shaun in passing these days. 😕

Other than that I did some Calculus homework. I will just say this:  I'm really glad that the test is not tomorrow. I haven't done nearly as much as I should have, unfortunately, but at least I know where I need some work. We are finding derivatives and I'm ok with some of it, but some of it - not so much.

Anyway. I'm getting ready for bed. I don't feel ready for Monday yet, but it's coming regardless. Guess I'd better try to sleep so I can be effective. Later, friends. ❤️

I'm on the couch with Midna in my lap...

I'm on the couch with Midna in my lap while the dogs chill and Nom bull-dozes the room. I don't think I'm moving anytime soon.

My bones are really starting to hurt. I've been lucky because even though I was unmedicated for PsA this year, I've been mostly fine. But now I'm feeling not good at all. I guess I need to try to see a doctor, but I can only probably get on methotrexate again without seeing a specialist. I don't really want to take that again. 🙁

On a related note, I think I'm about to start taking the full dose of Celexa this weekend. Pain doesn't exactly make it easy to not feel bad emotionally / mentally. I feel like I'm slipping. 🙁

Anyway. My nails are short and ugly, but I need to direct my energy towards studying, if anything at all. I have a Calculus test coming up and I'm not as comfortable with the material as I'd like to be. 

I hope you all have a nice weekend. I'm glad to not have work or class, but that's about all I can say.

I woke up with a teensy spider on my neck

I woke up with a teensy spider on my neck this morning. It tickled.

I touched Beyonce's butt last night. She didn't like it.

I've been ok all day, but I feel headache-y and nauseated now. 🙁

Calculus was fun, though.

How are you??