Tl;dr: I feel better.
Yesterday was pretty good. I turned in the big assignment that has been hanging over my head for weeks. That's a relief. I got some appointments scheduled and also found out that there is a relatively easy solution to something that's been bothering me for a while. The worst part of yesterday was going out in the cold repeatedly to show the dogs their house and worrying that they would freeze to death. They didn't, but I know they must be uncomfortable. I really hope they'll start using their house, but at least we're back into 30s°F for now.
I just saw my therapist and he said that I seem a lot better. I definitely feel it. I'm back to fasting on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. That's not something I've really spoken about publicly, but I don't eat on those days. Counting sleep, it comes out to about a 36-hour fast each time. I do this to keep my psoriasis and psoriatic arthritis in check. It works for me. I get tons of energy with this eating pattern. In fact, even though I felt tired last night I had trouble sleeping, so that tells me I need to hit the gym to burn off some excess energy.
I was pretty depressed for most of October and like I said before - I tend to abuse and / or comfort myself with food so I ate every day, often in excess. My bones have been a bit achy and my skin broke out again, but after fasting on Friday and Monday, there's already been a noticeable improvement in my skin and bones. Anyway, this post wasn't meant to be about fasting, but there you go. If you have questions about it, feel free to ask.
Other than that we have classes next week. The week after that, Thanksgiving holiday. Then the week after that, final exams. So I'm thisclose to putting another semester behind me. I may not pass Networking, but if that's the case I'm not mad. I'll take it again next semester. 🤷🏻♂️ I will have still gotten through two classes, neither of which I would want to repeat.
Since I'll likely only be part time at school next semester I'm going to try to get a part time job. I will need a certification that I'm planning to try to get next month. I haven't done all of the research yet, but I think it's pricey to do ($1200?) and I don't really know how I'll pay for that, but where there's a will, there's a way. I'll throw myself into researching that over the Thanksgiving holiday. For now I have two exams that I need to put my focus on.
So yeah. I'm feeling a good bit better. I got some major stressors handled and have sort of a game plan for the next few months / next semester. I'm sure my medication has played a large part in that, as well as having supportive friends and family. I'm still on Lexapro for depression and since I started taking half a Buspar for anxiety (instead of a whole), I'm not falling asleep everywhere and I'm not anxious to the point of migraines. That's a definite improvement and I'm grateful.
I hope you all are doing well. If not, hang in there and keep trying. I know that can be exhausting, but it's worth it to come out on the other side. ❤️
