I'm having the kind of day...

I'm having the kind of day where your dog poops and has a dirty butt, but she is being chill and lets you wipe it without a fuss.

😂😂😂

Can't complain!

For my out of state friends:

For my out of state friends:  Check out this email from the state government of Alabama. I found it disgusting and disturbing. And despite our "invisible enemy" they're trying to "reopen our economy" on May 1. 

"Our nation is under attack from an invisible enemy. We are at war with the coronavirus. It has brought our powerful economy to a halt and millions have lost their jobs. It has closed our schools and forced almost every American to live under state government mandated stay at home orders. Worse it has taken the lives of tens of thousands of our loved ones and sickened many more.

In this war, the front lines are all around us. Our warriors are our healthcare workers, doctors and nurses. Our grocery store clerks, truck drivers, delivery staff, farmers and producers, first responders and law enforcement. And so many, many more that strive to keep our lives as normal as possible.

Make no mistake: Our nation will come back from this fight stronger than ever. And we must learn the tough lessons from it.

First and foremost, China is America’s enemy of the 21st Century – either we win or they win. There is something deeply suspicious about China’s role in the coronavirus pandemic. They still have not told the truth about its origins. They continue their disinformation campaign blaming the American military. And on top of that, they are hoarding medical supplies and sending bogus testing kits around the world. We must see China for what they are – a corrupt, immoral Communist dictatorship that is a direct threat to our way of life.

Next, our nation cannot be taken advantage of by international groups like the World Health Organization (WHO). As the sponsor of H.R.204, the American Sovereignty Restoration Act, my bill would terminate America’s participation in the United Nations (UN) and the WHO. That’s why I strongly support President Trump’s decision to cut off American funding to them. We know that the WHO’s leadership is heavily influenced by China. Their actions in the early stages of the pandemic makes me believe it is nothing but a puppet of the Chinese Communist Party.

Finally, our nation must become much more self-sufficient for key healthcare supplies, medicines and critical care equipment. These vital lifesaving goods must be made in the USA. We can never again depend on corrupt foreign nations like China.

As our nation recovers from this terrible pandemic, remember our perseverance is stronger than any challenge, our spirit cannot be conquered and we are one nation under God.

Sincerely,

Mike Rogers

Alabama's Third District"

I know that there is talk of Alabama opening back up...

I know that there is talk of Alabama opening back up, but I'm not into that.  Whether anyone else believes it, *I* know it's not smart and we (me, Shaun, and the kids) will continue to stay in.  As weird as it might sound I'm kind of digging our "new normal."  Obviously there are some things I miss but overall I'm starting to relax into staying home.

I feel rested - and not just my body.  Like, in my mind.  In my bones.  Deep down.  There are no expectations of us - just survive.  I'm not always running, trying to keep up with a million things.  The house is cleaner and more organized than ever.  There are still things to do, but our to-do lists are shrinking and that feels nice.  I have games, coloring books, reading books, and puzzle books at my disposal.  I have hobbies (like nail art and plants).  We have Netflix and Hulu.  We have ani-pals.  The purchase of this big-ass comfy couch couldn't have BEEN more timely.  Not gonna lie - I could get used to having monthly supplies shipped to my house and curbside pickup for groceries.  Now that my initial panic has worn off I'm starting to feel at peace.

The only thing that bothers me is we don't see the kids a ton.  They are being good and staying in, as are we.  They do come over to do laundry, though.  I'd rather them do that than go to a laundromat (if those are even open - I don't know).  But we have fun with our time together and watch movies and hang out.  Kira baked a cake for Easter.  It was really good.  She made some yummy cookies for today.  Sometimes I paint her nails.  Today I trimmed her bangs and let her cut my hair. Shaun and Shadow talk games.  We just spend time being with each other.  It feels nice to take care of each other.

I don't know... I guess I'm just rambling.  But I feel ok for the moment.  I know these are really bad times for some of my friends and I hate that, but just know that my little family is doing everything it can to make sure we are staying out of the way and not spreading this disease.  I hope that you all are staying as safe as you can.  Please be well.  Much love.

Schedule is still jacked.

Schedule is still jacked.  Working on that.  Haven't done much physically in several days.  Not depression hiding, but straight up chilling in my bed reading or on the couch playing games and snuggling animals.  The most intense thing I've done was beat like, 200 games on the Microsoft Solitaire Collection while watching Netflix (I know... but ACHIEVEMENTS!), paint my toes, and prioritize my to-do list.

I guess I am *finally* rested enough that I'll do some physical work tomorrow (or later today when I wake up - whatever).  I've got some training scheduled for next week that will hopefully get me working soon.  I feel sort of optimistic, given... well, everything.  For the moment I'm ok and we're ok.  I hope you all are, too.  ❤

Shaun's been cleaning his room all night.

Haha.  Shaun's been cleaning his room all night.  I've been playing games and watching Netflix.  He just came into the living room with stuff he's found.  There was a lid to a box that I've been looking for for over a year!  I might be too excited to sleep now.  😂😂😂

Also, good morning.  😳

I just finished doing my toes.

I just finished doing my toes. They needed to be done months ago but I never felt like it. This is better. 😊 Maybe Shaun's are next. 😃

I would like to do some nail art but I'm not feeling creative. Anyone up for challenging me? Post pics of nail art in the comments and I'll pick something to recreate. (Not length or shape-wise - just the look.)

I went to Wal-Mart to curbside pickup our groceries.

I went to Wal-Mart to curbside pickup our groceries.  My anxiety has been through the roof since.  Coincidence?  I doubt it.

Over the last 5 years school has kept me busy enough that I barely had a social life.  But me and Shaun like to go out for food.  That has kind of always been our thing.  That's how we started dating - taking lunch breaks together at work.  So it's been a big change to stay home all the time.  It really sucked at first, but I've gotten pretty used to it and that's ok.

But leaving the house is NOT ok for me yet.  Seeing people in masks is really off-putting... I guess because that's not "normal."  Seeing how many of the workers didn't have masks bothered me just as much, though, because I felt worried about them.  Seeing things as busy as they are during a pandemic got to me a lot.  Seeing all of these workers out here doing their jobs despite how dangerous it is makes my heart hurt.  It was really all I could do to not cry on the way home because these people likely don't have a choice whether to work or not - it's work despite the danger or lose everything.  What an awful position to be in.  My heart hurts.  I feel guilty for us being fortunate enough to not be on the front lines.  I don't know what to do with that emotion.

Anyway, I hope you all are doing well and staying safe.