At least Balthazar...

At least Balthazar doesn't make life hard by insisting he be held 24/7. He's happy to be next to me. He's crashed out under my notebook without a care in the world. 😂

I'm taking a little break before I get back to work.

I'm taking a little break before I get back to work.  The last few days that Shaun has been here for me have been really productive, studying-wise.  I'm fairly certain that I can solve a system of differential equations on the exam now.  I'm also good on MOST of the Laplace transform stuff.  Both of those things make up about 50% of the final.  The other 50% is older stuff from earlier this semester.

I made an 87 on the first exam so hopefully all I need on that material is a little refreshment.  The 2nd exam was in the midst of everything going wrong so I hadn't studied or done homework like I should have before the test, although I did eventually catch up (unfortunately not in time for it to affect my grade in a positive manner).  I'll be looking over that stuff during the next two days and hopefully I'll be all set.

I am feeling pretty good at the moment; a little stressed, but not panicked and not feeling like doom is hanging over me.  Since classes ended I've lost maybe 4 days of studying due to mental health and busy days (counting Thanksgiving), but other than that I can honestly say that I have put in some serious work.  I know that I've said it a few times by now, but I absolutely know that I can do this stuff.  The question at this point is whether I can do well enough on the final exam to raise my grade to passing.  We will be finding that out very soon.

Well, I hope you all are having a good evening.  There is one more thing I want to cover tonight before my brain tires out, so I'm off to study it.  Have a good night, friends.  ❤

Honestly out here making my life hard.

Honestly out here making my life hard. Just look at him. How am I supposed to move him off my lap while he's lookin' like this!?

I got some studying done today.

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I had errands yesterday so took a pre-planned hiatus from schoolwork...

I had errands yesterday so took a pre-planned hiatus from schoolwork because it just wasn't in the cards.  Today I also got nothing done, but I should have.  I feel like my mental health is slipping.  I'm napping when I shouldn't and I'm still tired.  That is a red flag for me.

Shaun's been spending a lot of time working at the other house.  I've basically just asked him to babysit me for a few days.  The anxiety of school plus how weird it feels with him being gone so much is not working out too great for me at the moment.  I am generally pretty independent, but right now I feel super vulnerable and tense and the tension is sapping my energy and I'm trying not to spiral.  I need help and he will help me, but damn if it wasn't very un-sexy to me to have to ask that of him.

And on that note - despite my 3-hour afternoon nap - I am heading to bed.  I hope you all are doing well.  If not, reach out to someone.  Hang in there.  Goodnight.  ❤

Just a single sleeping kitty...

Just a single sleeping kitty. Nothing to see here. 😂😂😂