After watching...

After watching this reel, we bought a baby wrap. So far at least Balthazar is fine with it.

Pardon my looks. I'm fresh out of the shower with my hair pulled back. I'm not trying to impress anyone but THESE CATS. 😂😂😂

We had a little date the other day...

We had a little date the other day. Those are the nails I tested on Shaun.

Why is my husbang so cute, even when he's chewing? 😂 I love this human being so much. ❤️

I tested out using gel polish to make stones for jewelry.

I tested out using gel polish to make stones for jewelry. I'd say it worked. 😁

The stone on the left is just the holographic chrome powder Lust by JReine over black. I definitely need to make sure my sticky coat goes down smooth. You can see some brush strokes in that one. It was the first one I made so the second one came out smoother. 

The stone on the right was made using the same method as my dandelion nails, except that I didn't put the dandelions on it because it was just an experiment. It turned out so well that I kind of wish I had, but I'll know better next time.

Now that I know this works I will probably make some jewelry using these methods. I'm excited to have more to paint than just my nails. 😂 I am slowly but surely working towards re-opening my Etsy and I'm really excited about that. I definitely need a creative outlet in my life.

#TheresNoSuchThingAsTooMuchNailPolish #PolishAllTheThings

For the most part...

For the most part my anxiety and depression have been well-controlled with Buspirone and Duloxetine for the past few years, but I have felt myself slipping over the last few weeks.  It's so dumb because this is the least stressed I've ever been in my life.  Maybe the fact that I haven't been able to exercise like I would like to due to my ankle is affecting me.  I don't know.  Me and Shaun took a little walk yesterday evening.  It was nice, but obviously not enough to get me out of my slump.

I just booked an appointment for therapy to see if that will help.  It's something I've been meaning to do since I got back from Cincinnati, but I am only just now doing it.  It took a while to settle in, honestly, and I'm not even sure that I'm done settling.

I do have a few stressors, but I feel like I should be able to handle them without sinking this low.  I'm sleeping far more than I need to and also eating like shit.  Since my diet sucks, so does my skin which is just another fun layer of discomfort on top of everything.

I don't know.  I'm not in a dire position... yet.  I am enjoying doing nail art and having a creative outlet again.  I'm making major progress on my nail polish database.  I just don't want to wait until I'm in a terrible situation before I get help or take action, so I'm really hoping that therapy can help me get a handle on things.

I hope you all are doing well.  I'm not having the best time, but it'll be ok.  ❤

Shaun said...

Shaun said we needed to go to Lowe's. I thought we were looking at flooring. He thought we were looking for a table-top bird bath. We came home with plants. 😂😂😂

Back Left:  Sago Palm

Back Right:  Ponytail Palm

Middle:  a nice, toothy agave

To the right of the middle:  Golden Barrel Cactus

The other 3:  Too cute and plump to be left behind. Front left is blooming! ❤️

Shaun...

Shaun just hugged me goodnight with wet hands and I...

Those were fighting words, I swear. 😂😂😂

Me and Shaun...

Me and Shaun had planned to go see the Dresden Dolls at Meow Wolf Santa Fe tonight, but we're not going. I'm almost as excited about canceling our plans as I was about making them. 😂😂😂

I was up at 4 this morning because I hadn't seen Adrian since I got off work yesterday evening.  Normally, she comes to bother me while I brush my teeth before bed and she's very cuddly when we sleep, so that was pretty different. Logically I know that cats hide and do weird shit sometimes, but I woke up in the middle of the night searching for her because I was sure she was dead somehow.  My brain was GOING OFF. I was like "A snake ate her. She got outside when I wasn't looking and is coyote food. Something fell and squashed her." 

So at 4 this morning I turned the lights on and started searching the room. Finally, I started climbing the ladder to my loft bed. It was then that she came to the edge of the loft bed with eyes squinting and a cringing face like "Why the fuck is the light on?  What's happening?" She looked SO disgruntled. 😂😂😂

Anyway, I didn't get much sleep after that and I've been tired all day. As for the concert, doors aren't until 10 pm and I'm like "That's crazy." I'm crashing out by 10 on a good day. 😂 Thankfully, the tickets weren't expensive and Shaun is happy to support the artists whether we go or not. I've seen Amanda Palmer live a few times, but never the Dresden Dolls together. And yes, I would like to, but also, that feels like effort and sensory overload and a sold-out show in a small venue with a virus still around. So I'm content to stay in tonight and be an old fogey with my best friend and my ani-pals. 😊❤️ I have a dentist appointment in the morning, anyway. 😂