I have survived another day without Scooter.

I have survived another day without Scooter.  I am still super sad, though.  We went to Wal-Mart this evening and bringing the bags in without him poking his nose in to see what we brought him really sucked.  🙁

In other news, both of the guys are playing Pokemon Go now, so I guess that means exercise, which would probably help me to feel better in general, but also help get me out of this funk.  While I have no interest in catching Pokemans I'm up for walking my remaining dogs.  It would be good for their health, too, so no complaints here.

Shaun took us to Gadsden today to get me out of the house and try to cheer me up, and also because we both thought that Shadow would like the store Five Below.  I think Shaun is getting tired of my sadness, but I feel like it would be more comfortable if my heart stopped, so I don't really care how anyone else feels right now.  I will be ok when I am ok and not a minute before, I suppose.

We also went to Sally's, which got my attention for a few minutes.  I was kind of tricked by the sales lady into buying more nail polish than I meant to, but I can't really complain.  I got an Ever Glaze color by China Glaze and its topcoat.  They are supposed to be gel-like in that they can last 7 - 10 days, but they don't require a light.  We'll see.  And I also got a Finger Paints One-Step gel which does require a light, but my lamp was delivered today (on a Sunday, what?!), so that's ok.

Found out that the sales lady has a daughter that goes to school with Shadow.  She's a grade ahead.  Seemed weirdly like she was trying to hook them up.  She even showed him a bikini beach pic of her (a guy was also in the photo, but she made sure to tell us that he was only a friend.)  I thought everyone was supposed to be crazy protective of the female children, but maybe Shadow just radiates goodness.  Who knows?

Anyway, I guess this day was as good as could be expected.  Tutoring tomorrow, then meeting Shadow and mom at the Cheaha Creative Arts sign-up.  Shadow's going to be doing some after-school stuff.  Voice, for sure, and maybe trumpet or something else.  I think he enjoyed playing trumpet in band, just not the yelling and super-strictness of his band teacher.  That's definitely not his style, so it makes me happy if he's found a way to get back into that.  I'm thankful that there's a program around that will allow him to explore and develop his musical interests.  Could just be because I'm his mom that I feel this way, but I think he's far too talented to not stretch himself and keep growing.

So... that's it.  I'm off to go... I don't know.  Sit around having feelings.  Or possibly even try out my new stuff.  I have no idea.  I guess I'll let y'all know if I do anything of interest.  ❤

Well, I'm awake. AWAKE awake.

Well, I'm awake.  AWAKE awake.  I wish I could feel this awake and ok about it on the nights I get this little sleep before having something to do.  Of course, that's never the case.

Shaun's coming to see me.  I'm gonna see what Shadow is doing, too.  He was so sleepy earlier that he might have napped and already be back awake, too.  LOL  We're all great.

It's been a weird day.

It's been a weird day.  Scoot's been gone a week and it feels so recent and so far away at the same time.  I am still unbelievably sad, and I think that's why I'm keeping myself busy.  I worked this morning, then came home and cleaned the house.  I keep trying to psych myself up to do something fun, like nails, but I'm super not interested in much of anything.  I'm just in a weird, sad place, and it sucks.

This is also not a great way to cope with things, but I've immersed myself in some retail therapy.  I've done a lot of research on gel nails and the different kinds of gels and how they cure, and since I was basically ALL IN at "chrome" I went ahead and bought a UV lamp.  I did not get one of the crazy expensive ones, but it was a best-seller with great reviews on Amazon.  So, there's that.  Unfortunately, my lamp will be here before my chrome powders, but that's ok.  I really don't need too many distractions before my Biology final.

Lame as it sounds it's barely after 8, but I'm heading to bed.  Most likely I will end up awake in a few hours; that is, if I can even manage to sleep.  Thankfully, it's the weekend, so it doesn't matter too much.

Later, friends.

I don't usually like stormy or rainy weather, but today:

I don't usually like stormy or rainy weather, but today: Bring it on.

Just found a tuft of Scooter in my room.

Just found a tuft of Scooter in my room. I can't move it yet. Even when I do I'm gonna keep it forever.

Glad it's the weekend.

Glad it's the weekend. I went ahead over the last couple of days and completed the remainder of the assignments in my online Ethics class. Now I just have to worry about Biology for a couple more weeks, then I'm free until Fall semester starts. Gotta say it's really interesting, but those Biology classes have been brutal and I will be glad to have them behind me.

I think my biggest worry for my last 3 semesters at GSCC will be the Calculus classes. I can't even remember if I posted this before, but as long as the classes get enough students I'll be taking Cal I in the Fall, Cal II in the Spring, and Cal III next Summer, then it's off to JSU, FINALLY. It's taking a little longer than I wanted, but my adviser thought it would be best for my GPA if I take fewer classes. I'm really not up for being overloaded, so that works for me.

Anyway. Random thoughts for the night I guess because I'm almost done with another semester. I wonder if it's coincidental that the 2 years I've been in college have been the worst of my life. Last year, my health was horrible and I felt bad most of the time, both physically and mentally, and this year, disastrous, hard, bad, heartbreaking things keep happening. Maybe if I wasn't in school I would have more time and energy to deal with stuff and it would all seem less horrible. Or maybe I would have nothing to distract me and I would dwell on the bad. I have no idea. But at least I'm accomplishing things, I guess.

Anyway. I'm exhausted, so I'm off. Catch you later, Internet. Happy Weekend.

Shadow had to open it for me.

Shadow had to open it for me. I wasn't ready yet. /cue the water works