I'm feeling really hopeful...

I'm feeling really hopeful that my lack of motivation and being nonstop tired are just me badly dealing with being overwhelmed and not signs that I'm falling back into a depression hole.  I'm still taking my medication as prescribed.  Hopefully, I'll be able to tell after this week.  There is entirely too much on my plate for me to know how I feel right now.  😕

Despite how warm it is...

Despite how warm it is I slept under my weighted blanket last night. I folded it over so it was doubled on top of me. Even though I felt tense when I went to bed that's the best I've slept in weeks. No nightmares or anything.

After waking up nauseated and with a stress migraine brewing...

After waking up nauseated and with a stress migraine brewing (and accomplishing very little today because of that) I have decided that whether it's offered or not in the spring (I thought it was for sure but recently found out it might not be), I'm dropping Abstract Algebra.  For the sake of my physical / mental health, my other 3 classes, and my family, it has to happen.

I feel like a failure in a way, but it's honestly the best decision I can make right now.  If it's offered in the Spring I'll take it and still graduate on time.  If it's not, maybe a professor will let me do an independent study.  And if not, worst case:  I'll have all of my CS classes complete, so I find a computer science job and wait until Abstract is offered again to graduate.

That's really ok.  Now to make my brain / body believe that.  😂😂😂😭😭😭

I legit feel so accomplished right now.

I legit feel so accomplished right now. I'm not known for being fast, but I just caught a fly with my hand! Then I took him outside to be free. 😊

I was going to bed and I was like "Ugh, I don't want him to keep me awake." so I reached out and grabbed him. I'm a freaking superhero.

Shaved part of my head and few weeks ago.

I haven't slept much in 2 days.

I haven't slept much in 2 days.  That is not like me and it's messing me up.  My brain is too goofy to do any work and that is super bad.

Also, someone peed on the couch.  That is not like my dogs and I'm wondering if my little Booty Bear had another seizure when I wasn't home.  🙁

I took a break from thinking about school this weekend.

I took a break from thinking about school this weekend. The concert was Saturday, and then I basically spent all day today chilling and napping. I'm about to jump back into some school work, but I feel refreshed. I needed the time off.