I had lunch with Shaun, and then...

I had lunch with Shaun, and then I spent the rest of the day with my plants. I needed that.

I put some of my thirstier aloes in water with no dirt. I'll leave them there until they plump back up, but they might stay indefinitely if they do ok. Since things have been so rough for me lately, I've neglected them a bit. I hate that it happened, but they are getting attention now.

I also potted up some baby leaf propagations, so I have trays of babies maturing. AND (I feel super accomplished about this part) I made a tray for my next batch of leaf propagations. I wanted to try water propagation rather than laying them on top of dirt and misting them, so I used seedling trays to make a container. I cut holes in the clear tray that the leaves are on and I'm hoping they'll reach their roots down into the water below. We'll see.

Ok, so I saved the best part for last: Michelle has the best timing. She sent me a beautiful box of succulents that arrived today. I. AM. SMITTEN. 😍😍😍 These are all new to me and she nailed the colors:  I'd mentioned I didn't have any orange / peach babies, but now I have 3!!! Look at these gorgeous plants! And this green broccoli baby is giving me life! I love a little weirdy, always!

Friends, I know I have messages and comments to respond to. If all goes well, I will get to it tonight. I love you and thank you for the outpouring of love. I really needed it. I'm still not 100%, though, so I'm trying to practice some self - care today. Thank you for your understanding and patience with me. ❤️

Water therapy on thirsty aloes.

Make-shift water propagation tray.

Babies from Michelle!

And Shaun's painted toenail (top left), and Faith, of course. 😂

Michelle, this color is so gorgeous. The photo doesn't do it justice.

I'm in love!

This crazy thing is precious. It is making me so happy!

Michelle, look how chubby! 😍😍😍 Thank you for all of these babies. Your timing is impeccable and I appreciate you so much! 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️

Since several people feel that my depression (or not) is up for debate today...

Since several people feel that my depression (or not) is up for debate today I'll just leave it at this:

I feel dead inside.

It's after 3 pm and I still haven't made it out of bed.

I'm feeling "down" and it's not a good time.

I could use some help.

I'm sorry for disappearing.

I'm sorry for disappearing. I received a lot of birthday wishes, which I greatly appreciate and will respond to shortly. I've spent the last few days (birthday included) dealing with another depressive slump, but today feels better.

I spent most of my birthday on the couch being a lump with my dogs. Shaun scraped me up and took me to Olive Garden. We had a big dinner and I got a free piece of Tiramisu, which was delicious. The kids got me a card that they heavily customized and it is perfect. Spending time with my family was the highlight of my day.

I'm not sure why I've felt so down recently. Probably stress. I feel kind of like a failure for doing so poorly in school this semester. I'm just so damn tired. I'll be grateful for the time in my life when I no longer have homework.

Anyway, love to all of my friends. I hope you're all doing well. 🧡

One more day of class next week and that's it before finals.

One more day of class next week and that's it before finals.  I'm 99% sure I'm only going to make it through 2 classes (dropped Abstract Algebra and currently have a 50-something in Networking), but I'm happy about the two classes I'm passing.

Senior Seminar in Mathematics has been fun and interesting, but I will NOT miss writing those 10-page papers, which I'm pretty sure was a large cause of my crippling anxiety this semester.  Disaster Response and Recovery is my online class and it bored me out of my mind.  It is nothing I'm interested in or care about.  So if I don't have to repeat these two classes (and I don't think I will), then I'm happy.

For next semester I've already signed up for Networking again.  I'm also taking Human-Computer Interaction.  Those will be my last two CS classes and I guess I could graduate next semester if I decided to get only one degree.  But I'm also taking Differential Equations next semester and then planning for Abstract Algebra in the summer.  One extra semester for two degrees is ok, but if I can't pass Abstract on the second go around, I'll have to reconsider.

Overall, I'm EXTREMELY ready to put this semester behind me.  I'm looking forward to spring because I don't think it will be bad.  I already know what to expect from Networking and DE so Human-Computer Interaction will be the only new class, but I'm sure it will be fun.

Anyway, I'm off to paint my nails.  I just finished all of the homework I'm doing for the day, so it's time to treat myself.  🙂

8:30 last night: Went to bed

8:30 last night:  Went to bed

Midnight:  Woke up to some pretty serious PMS cramps (never had that happen before)

1 am:  Went back to bed

7:30:  Woke up for appointment and errands

11 am - 12:20 pm:  napped

12:45:  Another appointment

3:30 - 6:45:  napped

I can't seem to get enough sleep the last couple of days. I'm only awake to do some homework and then I'm heading back to bed.

This is wack.

I didn't sleep well and all I want to do is nap with my doggies, but...

I didn't sleep well and all I want to do is nap with my doggies, but I have class today.  Only one more class day this week after today, then next week off, then finals!  I can survive this day.  Probably.  😂😂😂

Lazy Sunday. Chillin' with my homies.

Lazy Sunday. Chillin' with my homies.