Sunday, January 31, 2021

It's been a bad day.

It's been a bad day.

I woke up around 8 this morning which was fine.  I stayed in bed reading for a while, then got up and hung out with Shaun on the couch.  I had my tea, we half-ass watched TV, and napped for a bit.  We got up around noon to get on with our day and found that Rose, our beige female dog with blue eyes, was not in the fence.  Then we discovered the gate open.  After looking at our security cameras the last time we know that she was home was at 9:42 this morning and we didn't find out she was missing until a few hours after that.

Cubba has been leaving the fence and we're not shocked that we've had trouble containing him - this isn't the first time.  However, he doesn't go far, comes when called, and doesn't seem to make himself a nuisance (I've let everyone nearby that I can get in touch with know to let me know if he's a bother).  Since we're not in the city anymore he has acres of land to sniff and while I'm not a fan of him roaming I have accepted that it's not something we can easily fight at the moment without tying him out and we don't want to do that.  We are pretty far away from the road and he gets along well from what we've seen with the neighboring dogs.  This is ok for him - at least temporarily.

Rose, on the other hand, has never left home before.  She's not well-socialized which I take responsibility for.  I got her as a puppy at a time that I knew I wouldn't be able to spend much time with her; as terrible as this sounds, she needed a home at the same time I needed a companion for Cubba (because I also wasn't able to spend time with him).  I'd tried several times to find him a new home or a rescue commitment before getting him a friend but was unsuccessful; rescues avoid bully-looking breeds and most people won't adopt black animals, (despite the fact that he was trained and frankly, pretty bomb-proof).  He's not the worst dog to be "stuck" with, but he's not the star of this story.  The point I was trying to make is that Rose was attached to Cubba at the hip.  She's been with him since she was 6 weeks old and he's the only dog she's ever known.  She wouldn't have willingly separated from him.

I also don't think it would be easy for anyone to have taken her.  As I said before we weren't able to spend much time with them during her formative years and she looks to Cubba for everything, including if it's ok to come to us.  She is skittish even with us.  I can't imagine that she'd let a stranger get their hands on her unless she followed Cubba somewhere and met a stranger he liked.  She is unusual-looking with her light coat and blue eyes.  She is thin and VERY athletic.  I could see someone thinking she was underfed (she wasn't - there is always food for them) or just thinking she was pretty and taking her.  Worse case (which I hope did not happen), is that she's younger and dumber than Cub and harassed someone's livestock and paid the ultimate price.

To make this a perfect shitstorm she wasn't wearing identification.  We just bought new collars for them (some with reflective streaks for added safety) and new tags with updated address info.  The collars are on; the tags should arrive this week.  Her old one was chewed off and since she never leaves we didn't bother putting it back on only to have to change it out.  So our Rosie Posie is out there somewhere with no one knowing where she belongs.  I have failed this dog in every way and I am upset at myself and worried about her.

I have posted her in my group, Happy Tails Lost & Found Pets of Calhoun County.  I have sent photos and messages to neighbors.  We spent hours walking and driving around looking for her.  I'm about to print some flyers for us to put in mailboxes and around the area in the morning.  I will find out if there is a shelter in Talladega because I honestly don't know.  She has blankets and Cubba outside so if she's near hopefully those smells will attract her.  I don't know what else to do.  But if you're in the Talladega area and inclined to help, please share the post found at this link:  [redacted].

We found our gate open this morning with Rose missing.

We found our gate open this morning with Rose missing. She's never left home before and she's pretty skittish around new people. She is spayed, just a couple of years old. We're in Talladega in the Providence area. If you see her, please call me at [redacted].



Tuesday, January 26, 2021

I LOATHE the weather in Alabama.

This isn't public because I'm not interested in dealing with the fallout that comes with announcing a possible big change.  But I LOATHE the weather in Alabama.  Like, for real.

We lived in a mobile home when I was a kid.  I can't even count the number of times my brother and I were woken up in the middle of the night by my mom to be rushed out of the house so we could go down the street to a relatives basement.  My dad would never come, nor could we bring our pets, so not only was I terrified of the weather and worried that our house would be blown away; I was also afraid of losing loved ones.

I remember all of the tornado drills / warnings in school.  Get in the hall, put your head against the wall with a book or your hands over it.  Stay in that uncomfortable, awful position and wait.  Wait and worry and fear.  It was so much worse after I had Shadow; I hated being separated from him.  I remember knowing that bad weather was coming so I went to pick him up from school and his principal wouldn't let me take him home.  I lost my shit over that one.  No one comes between me and my kid.

We can just be out here minding our business and next thing we know our whole lives are about to be blown away.  My immediate family and I have been very lucky that it hasn't been us yet, but that could change at any time.  None of this even touches on the fact that it's humid year-round so both the heat and the cold feel miserable.  I am over this.  I don't want it anymore.  I'm finally in the position to have some control over my life so it might be time to consider a big change.  It is not logical to be here and there are plenty of other reasons I'm not into it, either.  Desert, I'm looking at you.

We moved a bunch of stuff today...

We moved a bunch of stuff today and Shaun is currently passed out snoring on the couch.  I swear he just stopped for a moment and said "Woof."  😂😂😂

Monday, January 25, 2021

I wanted to water my plants today.

I wanted to water my plants today. My body had other SUPER FUN plans called being nauseated and headache-y. I had nightmares last night and woke up feeling pretty rough. I took some Tylenol and napped not long after I made it out of bed. Then we ate and watched a couple of shows, and now I'm ready to sleep again. I accomplished nothing today, but Shaun got some stuff done. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

I'm only still sitting here because boyfriend is snoring in my lap. Cats have no business being this cute when they are interfering with my life. 😂😂😂

My boyfriend is too precious. 😍😍😍

Sunday, January 24, 2021

Wow, 1999.

Wow, 1999.

Anyone who didn't know me back then, can you spot the Blu?


Going through old stuff and came across this stash:

Going through old stuff and came across this stash:

Throw back to that time around 2005-ish where I was out here making goody bags of products and info to give to friends or anyone interested.

Travel Mate so anyone can stand while peeing (there have been many innovations on this since then; I now recommend the P-Style if you need a device). Info on The MoonCup and DivaCup (they weren't available in the US at that time, but you could buy from the UK or Canada if you wanted to. And I included some janky printed instructions from the Instead SoftCup website, as well as a SoftCup to try. I don't know if any of my efforts improved life for anyone, but I tried. I'm glad information and products are more widely available these days!

Let me add: If any of my friends stateside would like to try a disposable disc (FlexDisc or SoftDisc), I am more than happy to mail one to you to try (no charge or anything). All you gotta do is let me know! ❤️