I got this in the mail today.

I got this in the mail today.  Because I ordered it.  BECAUSE IT'S HOLOGRAPHIC AND OLIVE GREEN.  AT THE SAME TIME!!!!!  😳

I know that I have not been talking to you people.  And I miss you.  Most of you.  😉  But I have been working SO HARD trying to get ready for OxfordFest.  I know it's over a month away, but I don't want to show up there without a whole ton of stuff to sell.  I need to make some money.  And I really like it when people like my stuff and give me money for it.  It's kind of like... totally awesome.  😃

Anyway.  I'm so sleepy.  I'm still working my day job.  Then I come home and either paint, clean, or stress out over what jewelry parts to buy.  I'm having fun, but I'm also nervous and a little stressed.  And I have orders that I need to make but I am so crazy that my brain just can't finish a thing (I'm looking at you, Katie!  So sorry about myself!)  So, I'm heading to bed.  I didn't get much done today except for a large parts order, but that's ok.  It was causing me anxiety, so it's good to have that out of the way.

There is like, so much to think about.  I am doing the Square thing now thanks to Keith.  I just got the email that it shipped so I can take cards at the Farmer's Market and OxfordFest and where ever I go now, I guess.  Yay for doing things!  Everything except for my nails.  🙁  Who knows when I'll even have time to stop and wear this beautiful polish I just got.  /lament

https://elevationpolish.bigcartel.com/product/epidote

Shadow's first day was good.

Shadow's first day was good.  No major complaints from him, so yay for that.  🙂

I, however, have one.  What in the bloody hell would possess any school to send home a supply list with a kid ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL?  Why not give that out at orientation - at the very latest?  We just spent an hour in Wal-Mart searching through picked-over and jumbled school supplies - trying desperately to get everything on his list.

Saks High School:  This had better not be an example of the shenanigans I can expect the rest of the year.  This does not work for me.  This is a great example of why I'm so ready for my kid to be graduated already.  😳

My Freshman just got on the bus...

My Freshman just got on the bus, heading to his first day of High School.  😃  I hope he has an awesome day.  ❤

And yep - I got a photo, though he asked me not to post it.  He's good-lookin' and we don't have to prove it.  😉

And nope, I'm not sad.  Only 4 more years of this school crap.  Woohoo!

*** To my teacher friends:  Let me say that I appreciate you. I really do and I have nothing against you. You do a job that I most definitely could not. But having a kid in school is work for the parent, too, and I am so over it. All the rules, and having to be places, and do things, and pay for stuff? I don't think I'll miss ANY of that when he's done.

Don't say these things, but...

Don't say these things, but DO say SOMETHING if someone you know seems off.  It wasn't until someone said to me "You are NOT ok.  You haven't been yourself in a long time." that I realized they were right and got help.

Having never experienced anything like that before in my life I didn't recognize it for what it was.  So take note and SPEAK UP.  Help is available, but you have to realize that something is wrong before you can fix it.

https://www.buzzfeed.com/laraparker/things-you-shouldnt-say-to-someone-struggling-with-depress

I went to bed before 10 pm last night.

I went to bed before 10 pm last night.  That usually doesn't happen unless I'm sick, but after all weekend + Monday of not being able to sleep I just CRASHED OUT.  I woke up because my dogs needed to go out, but I am debating on going back to bed.  There are a ton of things I could be doing this morning, not to mention that I could get to work early, so I have reasons to not do that.  But I still feel kind of drowsy.  But I also REALLY don't want to end up with a sleep hangover.

Decisions are hard.

Shadow is officially orientated.

Shadow is officially orientated. Ninth grade starts Thursday. Man, he's old!

I am trying to sleep, but...

I am trying to sleep, but I don't think it's happening.  I've felt totally crappy all weekend.  I've had a headache that I can't seem to shake since I woke up Saturday.  I tried to nap earlier, but could not... which is weird because I'm usually GREAT at sleeping.  I was a Grumpasaurus ALL WEEKEND - thank you PMS.    I am not a happy camper right now.  🙁

Also, I unleashed some of the PMS FEELS on Shaun earlier.  He told Shadow to use the wrong sponge on my dishes and I had a complete and total meltdown.  Look... to be fair I would have been upset about that ANY day because I'm weird about my sponges, sink, and dishes, and he knows that.  He didn't maliciously tell Shadow to use the wrong sponge, so I forgive him.  LOL  But today was an especially bad day for that to happen.  I think I cried for half an hour about that, and then almost immediately felt completely stupid and utterly ridiculous about it as soon as it was over.  I can sort of laugh at it now, but at the time I was devastated.

This is not new for me.  Those of you who have only known me during the past 6 years or so got to know the "level-hormoned Mirena Blu" who never had PMS... well, up until that stopped working out last year, and then you all met Depressed Blu.  But you can ask my mother and she would be happy to tell you (while laughing the whole time) a million stories about how I've come home after school crying because someone spoke to me with bad breath or because the cat ignored me.  I am a very emotional person in general, so when my hormones are all out of whack... oof.  I will cry at anything and you can't stop me.  I can't stop me.  It just has to run its course.

Anyway.  That's been my weekend.  On the bright side I did get a bunch of jewelry started, and it's not just flakies this time.

Well, I'm heading back to bed, so wish me luck.  I'm sure some sleep would do me good.  ❤