Today was a bit of a rollercoaster.

Today was a bit of a rollercoaster.

This morning I had a dentist appointment.  I now have a temporary crown on one of my teeth.  I usually love going to the dentist and today was no different, but I had a new experience there:  The dental assistant triggered my gag reflex which was pretty awful to have happen while laying on your back with your mouth propped wide open.  I have a fear of choking to death on vomit so I didn't much care for that.  She kept propping the green sucky thing on the back of my throat and it nearly happened a couple of times.  Other than that, things went well.

So anyway, I was fine and I went home and had a notification that I had gotten my paycheck.  When I logged in to see it I thought "That can't be right."  So I let HR know that there was a bonus on my check that I didn't think was meant for me.  Turns out that I won a LFG award for May and that big-ass bonus WAS mine.  It was announced later in the day at a meeting.  So that was pretty nice.

The last week or so I've been really stressed about some things.  We've had a few sick cats and that's not only very sad and stressful since they are all getting up there in age, but also tough financially.  I have a very sick friend that I'm worried about.  My depression has resurfaced a bit.  So I haven't felt that I was at the top of my game, not even at work, but one of my managers assured me that I was doing great at our meeting this week and the award really hit that home.  I feel like I needed it not only financially, but emotionally, too, as weird as that might sound.  The timing couldn't have been better.

So that was my day.  A couple of things that I wasn't expecting; one bad and one good.  No complaints here!

Happy weekend, friends.  ❤

I think...

I think someone missed me while I was at work today. I just sat down and he's not having NOT being the center of attention. 😂😂😂 Balthazar and Cub are also chilling with me, but Scar is being a ham.

(His belly is shaved because he had some imaging done this week. He's had diarrhea for about a month now and nothing that us or the vet have tried is helping him. We're waiting for results.)

I can't tell...

I can't tell who's kneading my butt right now. Sindar is usually the butt-sleeper, but Adrian is the kneady one.

Oh well. Goodnight. 😂

After watching...

After watching this reel, we bought a baby wrap. So far at least Balthazar is fine with it.

Pardon my looks. I'm fresh out of the shower with my hair pulled back. I'm not trying to impress anyone but THESE CATS. 😂😂😂

We had a little date the other day...

We had a little date the other day. Those are the nails I tested on Shaun.

Why is my husbang so cute, even when he's chewing? 😂 I love this human being so much. ❤️

I tested out using gel polish to make stones for jewelry.

I tested out using gel polish to make stones for jewelry. I'd say it worked. 😁

The stone on the left is just the holographic chrome powder Lust by JReine over black. I definitely need to make sure my sticky coat goes down smooth. You can see some brush strokes in that one. It was the first one I made so the second one came out smoother. 

The stone on the right was made using the same method as my dandelion nails, except that I didn't put the dandelions on it because it was just an experiment. It turned out so well that I kind of wish I had, but I'll know better next time.

Now that I know this works I will probably make some jewelry using these methods. I'm excited to have more to paint than just my nails. 😂 I am slowly but surely working towards re-opening my Etsy and I'm really excited about that. I definitely need a creative outlet in my life.

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For the most part...

For the most part my anxiety and depression have been well-controlled with Buspirone and Duloxetine for the past few years, but I have felt myself slipping over the last few weeks.  It's so dumb because this is the least stressed I've ever been in my life.  Maybe the fact that I haven't been able to exercise like I would like to due to my ankle is affecting me.  I don't know.  Me and Shaun took a little walk yesterday evening.  It was nice, but obviously not enough to get me out of my slump.

I just booked an appointment for therapy to see if that will help.  It's something I've been meaning to do since I got back from Cincinnati, but I am only just now doing it.  It took a while to settle in, honestly, and I'm not even sure that I'm done settling.

I do have a few stressors, but I feel like I should be able to handle them without sinking this low.  I'm sleeping far more than I need to and also eating like shit.  Since my diet sucks, so does my skin which is just another fun layer of discomfort on top of everything.

I don't know.  I'm not in a dire position... yet.  I am enjoying doing nail art and having a creative outlet again.  I'm making major progress on my nail polish database.  I just don't want to wait until I'm in a terrible situation before I get help or take action, so I'm really hoping that therapy can help me get a handle on things.

I hope you all are doing well.  I'm not having the best time, but it'll be ok.  ❤