*Spiders, snakes, anyone who is feared based on looks and stereotypes.

*Spiders, snakes, anyone who is feared based on looks and stereotypes.

I have been so "off" all day.

I have been so "off" all day. 🙁 It's really uncomfortable. And my bones hurt.

I am such a ridiculous human.

I am such a ridiculous human.  I have been trying to study all day but I desperately don't want to so I've been sitting in my room looking at Facebook, looking at my plants, looking at my fish, checking my email... anything to not study.

I just asked Shaun to bribe me.  Baja later if I accomplish a geometry goal.

I am treat-motivated.  😂😂😂

I am SHOCKED.

I am SHOCKED. I made a 100 on my last Geometry test. When I saw the grade online I thought "That has to be a mistake." But no. 😮

I'm hanging in there, friends.

I'm hanging in there, friends. I'm not having an easy time, though. Monday was really good, but yesterday and today were harder. I'm taking my medication as prescribed, but I feel like I'm yo-yo - ing between ok and not ok. Maybe it just takes time to level out.

I know it's all exacerbated by end of semester stress. Also not helping is a couple of people who I thought were friends being super insensitive. I'm too fragile for that shit right now so I've removed myself from their presence. I just can't deal with it right now.

On a happier note Shaun saw how down I was today and got me my favorite food. Also, Emily surprised me with a super cute Groot planter. I'll post pictures of him once I decide what his hair is going to be.

And with that, I'm off. I have no energy. Getting through this day used up all of my life force. I'm done.

I was productive today.

I was productive today. I went to school, did a presentation, came home and cleaned, did some homework, got organized / made a list of things to do for school, and went grocery shopping with Shaun. I'm super exhausted. Considering that I've napped and done not much of anything else pretty much every day for about the last 3 weeks - this was a huge day. I'm so thankful I'm finally getting back to myself. I really hate feeling so incapacitated and helpless.

Today I studied...

Today I studied, spent time with the kids and Shaun, swept some of the floors, and then showered (for the first time in like a week - yikes, I know!)  I'm about to brush my teeth (who have also sadly been neglected) and pick out clothes for tomorrow.  I am planning to go to school and at least go through the motions of being a productive human.

Even though I'm behind on my whole life which is not a good feeling I feel like I'm finally getting the energy and motivation back to catch up.  I sure hope I can do it in time to pass all of my classes.

Goodnight, friends.  🧡