Sunday, March 1, 2026

I got my business plan finished. That's a relief!

I got my business plan finished. That's a relief!

The only other thing on my agenda today is watering my plants. I'm gonna start that shortly.
I was talking to Shaun earlier about his Executive Dysfunction and why he never said anything before. He said he's here to support me, not burden me.

Bruh. Love. Motherfucker. That is not how this works. 😂

He's got a list of things (in his head) that he wants/needs to do and that he is not always able to work on. (Relatable). And having this list prevents him from relaxing and doing other things he needs or wants to do. (Also relatable).

Sometimes I need a "Jumpstart", like "Help me do this", but really all I need is for him to be right there while I start and then I'm good. Sometimes I need a body double. But in either case, I've been expressing my needs for years and he's always showed up.

I was like "Let me do that for you." Because really, it's not a problem for me to to help anyone... Except myself. 😂😂😂 Need me to walk you to the yard to trim the bushes? Got you. Need me to direct you because you're overwhelmed and don't know where to start? I can do it. (This is not the same as him not carrying his share of the mental load around here, btw. He definitely does that.)

He says he doesn't forget his tasks and that's why he doesn't write them down, but he's going to try it and see if it does anything. It always makes me feel less anxious to clear my head.

Meanwhile, we have made it sort of a goal to boost each other's productivity and see how we can shrink our to-do lists by the end of May. Not at an overwhelming, burn-out pace, but by steadily boosting each other with Jumpstarts or whatever is needed.
I hope it works like we think it will.

Saturday, February 28, 2026

It's been a day.

It's been a day.

I had UI/UX class this morning. I was planning to meet my group partner at the library, but I felt rough when I woke up and have a cough and scratchy throat, so we decided to stick to online today. I'm not sharing the germs.

I left class early and also canceled other plans. Then I temporarily got stressed and got hit by a migraine. I took Tylenol and went to my room, but woke up sweating and feeling worse, so I finally took a migraine pill. I've been in a haze all day from that. Very drowsy and I want to sleep, but I want milk more, I guess. Shadow will bring some when he gets off work. I can wait 45 minutes. 😂

I didn't really get anything done today. I have a few things to do tomorrow, like watering my plants. Hopefully, I feel up to it.

The teacher of the class I'm in is neurodivergent, and she's so flexible and helpful. She spent some time talking to me the other day (outside of class), and it sounds like she does a lot of work to manage herself. And I think that's going to end up being me, too. I mean, if I want things to be different going forward, and I do.

One thing I really love about her is that she's kind of open about it, but not in an unprofessional way. I struggle so hard not to overshare. 😂 But she's like "I need written or verbal confirmation before I move on" and stuff like that. I find her very easy to talk to and understand. Hopefully, I can be like her one day.

The deeper into the neurospicy stuff we get, the more Shaun is identifying with it, too. I didn't realize that he ever struggled with Executive Dysfunction, but apparently, he does. He's like "It's definitely easier for me to do things if someone helps me or gets me started." He's always been MY helper, so I'm going to start helping him, too. It's not that I ever would NOT have, but he literally never told me that or indicated that there was a problem. ☝🏻 But now I know.

I'm pretty sure I'm struggling with ADHD, as well, but he doesn't seem to have that issue, thank goodness. He's the calm and regular and reliable one, and I'm the storm that comes through with energy and then disappears into nothing for a bit.

Anyway. I also have to do my business plan paperwork because I have a meeting on Monday. I had to give myself a deadline (by scheduling that follow up) or I wouldn't do it. I was going to do it today, but didn't have the brain for it on these migraine meds. But I'll try again tomorrow.

Goodnight, friends. ❤️

Friday, February 27, 2026

I have finally got up the energy to work on my calendar...

I have finally got up the energy to work on my calendar. I feel a little relieved to see how my To Do List is going to shrink over the next few weeks due to me checking things off.

I've tried very hard to to not overload myself. I've also put in quality time with Shaun, as well as 2 free skate days each week in the park.

Much of it is un-timed, which feels nice. More like I have a few specific daily goals, rather than rigid structured times to do things.

It feels like I have a plan to get my shit together. 😂 I have said that 100 times before, but I feel like this is actually is very do-able because I'm not relying on bursts of energy this time that will end in another crash and getting behind... rinse and repeat; rather, I'm pacing myself and seeing what consistent, steady progress I can make. I have only ever tried this strategy with getting on top of my finances and it worked, so I'm feeling optimistic (again). 😂

Anyway. I'm off to see if I can hit my goals for the day!

Thursday, February 26, 2026

It's late, but class update:

It's late, but class update:

It was a 2 hour class. Zoom cut us off every 40 minutes. I had trouble bringing up my ServiceNow window even though I could see it minimized in my taskbar, so I feel like I looked really incompetent. No matter how much I prepared before, I still felt fumbly and like I had no idea what I was doing.

HOWEVER, the previous teacher was there with me and backed me up and helped out and answered questions that I couldn't. He told me I did great. The class was patient with me. And overall, it definitely could have been worse.

I don't know if we have an exceptionally talky group of students or what, but I felt really happy that everyone replied to me and asked questions and participated. I hate it when I'm a student and I'm the only one who speaks. So I'm really excited to see how this semester goes.

❤️❤️❤️

I teach my first class tonight...

I teach my first class tonight. I have NERVES. Wish me luck!

Also, I have just shy of 250 users on my app, and I got another subscriber recently.

I'm planning to get back to work on it next week.

Shaun was sent an evaluation...

Shaun was sent an evaluation from the place that's doing my assessment next month.

As he was working through it, he was like "Damn, if you have Autism, then I do, too." 😂😂😂

Like, buddy... I've had my suspicions. 😅 It's probably why we get along so well. 🤣

Shaun isn't feeling well...

Shaun isn't feeling well, so yesterday he didn't hug or kiss me so he wouldn't get me sick.

Because I'm ridiculous, of course I had nightmares last night that he divorced me. 😂

In general, I'm not a person who likes to be touched, but apparently he's not only my exception, but my necessity.