Having a ramble.
Tl;dr: I am feeling pretty good.
The last few days since I got my app officially into Beta on the sites, I've been feeling like a weight has been lifted. I don't know if it was bogging me down carrying it in my head this whole time, but I just FEEL better. So far, the only feedback has been small visual tweaks (like how things display on different sized screens), not like anything is majorly malfunctioning. I am very happy with that.
I think getting it mostly out of my head has been good for my burnout recovery. I've done laundry, I've been doing self-care (like showering more, wearing clean clothes every day, etc.), and taking care of my plants - even when it was daunting. I am feeling more on top of things than I have in a great long while. It's nice.
Before I came home from Houston, I had decided that I was done with retail therapy. I love to buy plants and nail polish, but those small hits of dopamine were basically being canceled out later by the work they created. For example, swatching a polish and adding it to my database, or potting a plant. Those small tasks were adding up and keeping me feeling perpetually behind.
My plants are mostly settled... I have a few in the house that I'd like to move to the greenhouse, and a couple left to repot. I have probably 16 drawers of unswatched nail polish. They aren't alive, so they can wait. But the point is that now I feel like I am not drowning in my tasks. I can do things, and it's not a battle.
It was good timing on my part that I had decided to be done with retail therapy, because when I got back from my trip, Shaun was like "Hey, we're getting down to the wire financially." That sucks, but it was nice to be on the same page. So, I haven't shopped in about 3 weeks. We haven't even eaten out anywhere or ordered DoorDash. And for whatever reason, I feel zen about it. I don't know why, but when I make a decision, it's easy to stick to it. Getting myself to that point of "Decision Made" is the hard part. 😅
I think I'm gonna go clean off my desk before office hours tonight. That's the next thing that has been bothering me.
I think I'm also going to list some clothes on Depop. Have any of you done that? The kids have been buying clothes for cheap from there and it seems like it's worth a shot to try to offload some of the things I have that I won't likely be wearing again. I've also seen ThredUp, but I probably don't have much that's worth doing consignment for. But it feels like a good time to clean out the closet. And maybe the garage. And in general just purge what is unused.
