Rooting this tiny piece of plant in water.

Rooting this tiny piece of plant in water. I took this photo over a week ago, and little plant is currently doing well.

Shaun seems to think that baby / small succulents in teensy vials of water is a marketable idea. I admit that they are cute, but this is obviously not a long-term setup. 

I had just done my nails when this was taken. They didn't fare as well because I've been playing in my plants a lot lately. But doing them is half the fun, so that's ok. (Sorry about my dry cuticles. Blegh.)

Just made a 27 on my Networking exam.

Just made a 27 on my Networking exam. Brought my average from 59 to 52. Currently treating myself to a Boba, then a haircut. My thoughts on that for the day: I failed, but I survived.

A sentence I never thought I would say:

I went to bed at 11 pm...

I went to bed at 11 pm on Thursday and slept / laid in bed until 5 pm on Friday. When I finally got up I still wasn't feeling too good, so me and Shaun ordered pizza and watched funny shows. It was nice.

I went back to sleep at 1 this morning and woke up around 11. We went to visit Shaun's dad and I didn't have a bad day. We went out for dinner and Shaun ordered a cup of chili as a side (at a restaurant where we were dining in) and this is what he got. 😂😂😂 It's so bizarre!

Anyway, today I wasn't dead inside or crying, so that was nice. It's been a pretty chill day, but I feel myself crashing out now. I'm gonna sit up for a little bit and then call it a night. I'm trying to do self - care by listening to my body.

I hope you all are doing well. If not, know that you are not alone. ❤️

I've been having nightmares about losing my dogs...

I've been having nightmares about losing my dogs who already passed away. Lowrider, Scooter, Emma, and Nappy. It's not a big comfort to wake up and remember that they have died, except for the fact that I was with them all until the end rather than them being lost out in the world with who knows what happening to them.

I've been crying a lot lately. I don't think Lexapro is working for me anymore. The emotional blunting of antidepressants has been a lifesaver over the last few years, and that seems to be fading away. I've felt either dead inside or weepy lately, and that's not productive or fun.

Today was a relief; I got my biggest final exam out of the way. I'm no longer sure I'll pass that class, so I legitimately might fail 3/4 of my classes. I've never had a semester like this before in my life. Considering that I've only made 3 Cs in the almost 5 years I've been in college, this is a big change. I'm not a fan. I don't really know what to do besides to keep trying, though.

Dinorah came over this afternoon and I got tears when I heard her voice. I have tears now. I wish school didn't kill us both and that we had more time to act like people. She brought me a Gooey Butter Bar and took me for food. Then we watched videos of our wife and it was so good. I desperately needed that.

I'm sorry if I end up unresponsive for the next while. I don't know what is happening.

Of course I get a migraine the day before the biggest final of the semester is due.

Of course I get a migraine the day before the biggest final of the semester is due. Definitely needed to spend a few hours incapacitated. Go me.

Yesterday was a fluke.