I have my Abstract final today.

I have my Abstract final today. Looks like Alabama set a new 'Rona record with 2283 cases today. I am not feeling 100%.

Good times. /sarcasm

My hormones are out of whack.

My hormones are out of whack.  Two days ago I felt like watering plants but crapped out before I could.  So I napped, then woke up to it raining and was SO FURIOUS about that rain.  Like, I seethed and bitched for hours.  I had nothing planned outside and my plants live indoors.  It didn't affect me, logically.  But emotionally - that was a WHOLE different story.

Yesterday, I did water some plants and moved some babies around.  That went ok, but my body hurts from being in the floor for most of the day.  My sleep schedule is WHACK so I didn't fall asleep until almost 7 this morning.  When I got up I watched my last 4 abstract algebra lectures.  I thought I had a quiz today, but it was cancelled.  My final is on Thursday.  I hope I pass this class because it has NOT been fun.

I miss my family and with the COVID numbers increasing in our counties I'm scared for them.  I'm not having a good time, mental-health wise.  I don't know when I ever am lately, but this pandemic isn't helping.  I hope everyone is staying safe and masking up.  It's a small thing to do to save lives.

I had a little bit of energy yesterday...

Bastian ❤️

Since I'm still running on E I'm budgeting my energy.

Since I'm still running on E I'm budgeting my energy. I feel a bit better today emotionally, but I haven't been sleeping well. I have finals next week and my anxiety is high, so that's probably why. I continue to have nightmares that I won't graduate and they don't seem to ease up the closer I get to finishing school. In fact, it feels like the opposite is happening.

Also, Adrian (cat) doesn't seem to be doing well and was being picked on by two of the other cats. We've moved her to Nom's (tortoise) room so she can get some rest. We took her to the vet last week and she got a shot and an eye cream prescription. I hope she feels better soon. If not, I guess we'll have to take her back.

I'm sorry to anyone I haven't replied to, and I'm really sorry that I haven't been able to say that I would be there for my friends, as well, if they need me / need to talk. It's not that I don't want to be, but I just can't right now. I have to use what energy I have to finish out this semester and take care of myself and my family, (animals included, of course).

Take care and be well. ❤️

Shaun just made popcorn.

I find myself budgeting my energy the last couple of days.

I find myself budgeting my energy the last couple of days.  Today I woke up at 11.  It took me until 5:30 to finally make myself some food.  It then took encouragement from Shaun for me to feed my animals and clean my litter boxes (my only two daily chores).  After I did those things (which take all of 15 minutes, tops), I was then so exhausted that I went to bed and slept for 4 hours.  I've been up for a little while.  The kids came by again and it was nice to see them.  Now it's time for math.

There was a recent post of mine that someone commented on in a failed attempt to make me see their view.  I didn't have the energy to participate in that as much as I felt I should have, so I just wanted to thank my friends for showing up.  To all of you who had my back, thank you and I appreciate you.  I'm really sorry that I didn't have more to say, but as I am in the throws of depression a Facebook post just couldn't be a priority.  I know you understand.

On that note:  I have to go and watch some lectures before I crap out again.  I have an exam on Thursday, I believe.  Until my depression lifts I'll be budgeting my energy and hanging in there.  I hope you all are well.  And just in case you forgot, Black Lives Matter.