Tryna' be like "Woo, holidays!" over here, so...

Tryna' be like "Woo, holidays!" over here, so this is what I did to my nails.

Don't get me wrong...

Don't get me wrong - I am thankful for all that I have even though life is not perfect.  I've got some amazing friends and family, a roof over my head, and I'm able to work.  But I'm not gonna pretend this isn't a bad day for someone else.  Everyone should keep in mind that others are mourning what we are celebrating.  We wouldn't have what we have in this country (for better or worse) if our ancestors hadn't done a terrible thing to someone else.

Thank goodness!

TRIGGER WARNING:  Animal Abuse

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In Munford at the old high school...

In Munford at the old high school. Selling my wares. Nice to be back! 🙂

THEY GOT HIM! 😃

TRIGGER WARNING:  Animal Abuse
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THEY GOT HIM!  😃

Got to Dr. Hamer's office at 10:15...

Got to Dr. Hamer's office at 10:15.  Got a room at 4:20.  Saw the doctor from 6:something until 7:45.

He was worth the wait.  That was the most intense doctor visit I've ever had.

P. S.  I have psoriatic arthritis.

EDITED TO ADD:  He said that the steroids were a BAD idea.  He said it could clear me temporarily (which it did), but that it usually comes with a really bad rebound.  My hands have been stiff lately, which is part of that.  NO MORE steroids for this.

I think all of the "excitement" of the day has gotten to me...

I think all of the "excitement" of the day has gotten to me.  I'm not really a people person and for the last 4 hours of work I had to be around people.  I was stressed and exhausted well before I made it home.  Now I feel fever-ish and my face is red.  Un-related, as this started happening days ago:  My skin is on fire in places.  Pants hurt.  Shirts hurt.  Woo.

Good thing I'm going to the doctor in the morning.  I REALLY hope he's not out sick again.  I will be so sad.

'Night, Internet.  Also, see my previous post if you haven't.  I feel like that one is pretty important.  Confirmed Animal Abuser in Anniston.  Let's put that jackass out of business and run him out of town.

Animal Abuser in Anniston!

I am posting this with the disclaimer that I am not sure how true this is, but the dude has a shit reputation around town.  I wouldn't be surprised.

Animal Abuser in Anniston!  How about you boycott his business and run him out of town?  I've never been in there and it's lucky for him I didn't see that today.  I LITERALLY lose control when I see an animal in trouble.

From a reliable source:  "APD verified that witnesses saw his beating dog on outside deck.  Either he threw it or it jumped to concrete below.  Blood was coming from its mouth.  They will not say what vet has it, but that it is okay.  Many think it is dead.  I am hopeful that arrest for felony animal cruelty will follow.  He is a psychopath."

It's been a LONG day and...

It's been a LONG day and I didn't see that many people I know (shame on all of you except Brittany!).  BUT, it was nice seeing the S.A.V.E ladies again and we did raise money for a good cause, so it was worth it.  😃

Go ahead and mark your calendars for next year - we usually do it on the Thursday before Thanksgiving.  No excuses!

As of this morning...

As of this morning the car is no longer there.  There is a mini-fence up and they are doing construction-y stuff out back.

Tired, cold, and sore, so...

Tired, cold, and sore, so I guess I'm heading to bed.  But first!  Here is an update for anyone who was curious:

I had an appointment with Dr. Hamer today.  I went to 1700 Christine Avenue, which is the address Blue Cross had online, but he was not there.  He's now at 1820 Leighton Avenue if anyone needs to know that.

I went in and the receptionist guy was on the phone.  I'd left my cell in the car; otherwise, I would have known he was calling me to say that Dr. Hamer was out sick.  I stayed and did all of the new patient paperwork and all that (might as well get it out of the way), and rescheduled my appointment for Friday morning.  So, we'll try that again Friday.  LOL  I hope that the doctor is feeling better by then.

I am doing mostly ok.  My joints and bones aren't hurting, so that's nice - especially in this kind of cold we're having.  My skin is already breaking back out, though.  I guess it was fun having nice skin while it lasted.  LOL  It's not painful yet - which is my main concern, but I know it'll be getting there - and soon.  I've read that while steroid use can ease psoriasis in the short term it can also trigger massive breakouts when you're done with the meds.  I'm really hoping that doesn't happen in my case, but I guess we'll find out!

I know I mentioned that I am sore, but that's just muscle sore from exercise.  It's no fun, but at least it's not a bad thing.  🙂

I am also fighting a sinus infection.  It hasn't hit me hard yet.  I keep rinsing my nose out trying to head it off, so maybe that will work.

Other than that I think I gained 10 lbs from the steroids - as I ate like a hog while I was on them.  Trying REALLY hard to start eating normally again, but it's not easy.  I've still got a big appetite, but that could just be all in my head or what I got used to doing.  Either way, trying to get that in check.  If my joints are bad the last thing I need to be is unnecessarily heavier.

And I guess that's all for now.  ❤

Steampunk-ish nails!

Steampunk-ish nails! I've been wanting to use the gear stamping plate and this glitter polish from Loaded Lacquer for a long time and I finally got around to doing it. Woo!

Just so you all know: I have the best pack of mutts. For serious.

Just so you all know:  I have the best pack of mutts. For serious.  They are all so neat and different and awesome and they are all my favorite. ❤

I gotta say I just saw Emma problem-solve and it made my night. She was on dish duty pre-washing a bowl and it kept sliding away from her. She picked it up and moved it back once, but it kept sliding. So she picked it up a 2nd time and put it against the dryer. BOOM. Problem solved.

I'm sure dogs do smarter stuff than that all the time, but I thought it was pretty cool. I'm proud of my baby!

So... this weirdness is happening around the corner from my house.

So... this weirdness is happening around the corner from my house.

That is a car, turned on its side, spray painted with the words "Stay Away."

It's been there since yesterday morning and this is all I know about it.

Yay Anniston?!

Clearly not back on top of my nail art game, but...

Clearly not back on top of my nail art game, but this was fun, fast, and cute. Best of all, it makes me smile when I look down and see the little hippo. 😃

I am happy to report that...

I am happy to report that I have felt actually, really good today!  😃  It's bittersweet because it's been ages since I've felt this way and I'm kind of dreading it ending... BUT I'm not letting that ruin it.  🙂

One thing I've noticed since the shot / pills is that I am not freezing to death.  I was cleaning in my room last night and spotted my hat drawer and was thinking "Surely I'm usually wearing my hats by mid-November."  I mean, I'm wearing snow pants because DUH.  I'm still me.  But I'm not wearing two shirts plus a heavy jacket AND hat AND boots - and I'm just ok.  I'm ok!  😃  It's so weird, but really nice.  It's not unseasonably warm, is it?

I actually used to love the cold and my plan as a teen was to move to Alaska, but after I had Shadow all of the heat left my body.  It's like I've never been able to warm back up.  I've actually read something about the thing that gives you psoriasis is the thing that also keeps you from fighting your fetus and that it can cause problems after you have a baby, so I'm kind of wondering if all of that is related.

Anyway, I've tried with no luck to get an appointment with Dr. Hamer.  There are a thousand phone numbers listed, but none of them seem to be working.  My BCBS account gave me one that worked, but it said "For appointments, press 1" and when I did it was a recording about prescriptions.  So I will try again in the morning.

One way or another I'm gonna stay on top of this "health" business because I REALLY LIKE feeling ok.  It has honestly been the worst year for me health-wise and I think I had probably been on a downward slide for a longer time than that without realizing it and / or having any way to change it.  I am so thankful that I have insurance now.  Y'all have no idea!

I have the best guy ever.

I have the best guy ever.  For my birthday he got me a super nice printer and for Christmas he got me a little pop-up photo-takey kit.  I've had my printer for a while and I got the photo kit today.  With all of the Etsy and everything I've been doing I really needed both of those things.  Like, BAD.  LOL

I'm ok with most of my photos, but I was having to take them outside - in certain weather, at certain times of day, in certain places, and if I missed out... well, I had to use photos that weren't great, or that looked wayyy different than the others, and blegh.  With my bones hurting and winter coming I was NOT looking forward to having to deal with outdoors if I didn't want to.

These are my first photos using the kit.  I'm still trying to figure it out, but I think this is gonna be awesome.  I took these while sitting in a chair in my bedroom - not huddled outside in the dirt fighting the bugs and trying to get a decent shot.

The only thing I'm not a fan of is how clinical and white they look.  I know that most product photography is done on clean backgrounds, but this is boring as shit to me and SO NOT MY STYLE.  I think I need to use some props or something.  I will be digging around in my room to see if I can come up with anything super cool.  😃

If anyone has tips for me feel free to leave them here.  I see my bedroom lights reflecting in the rings, so I guess next time I will need to turn them off.  I know that the focus is off a little, but I usually photograph one thing at a time, so ignore that.  Other than that, I don't know why the backgrounds aren't PERFECTLY white (or if they even are supposed to be without shooping), so if I'm doing something wrong, tell me.

P. S.  Dinosaur rings.  I can do necklaces and earrings, too.  😃

Bittersweet day.

Bittersweet day.  Cookie Monster just found his home through Etsy.  This was from when I very first started making things.  I hope his new owner loves him!  😃❤

Polish All the Things was featured on another Etsy Treasury!

Polish All the Things was featured on another Etsy Treasury!  Woohoo!

winter is coming by NewKarakoalRain on Etsy

So here's a question:

So here's a question:

I found that a doctor who two of my friends recommended is eligible to be my primary care guy.

Should I change now or go back to the same place I went before for testing and a referral?  I was a little uncomfortable with the fact that there wasn't much testing done at the previous place before I was shot up with / prescribed meds, but then again I don't know what is normal for doctors these days.

So, give first doc another chance or just go ahead and make a clean break?

I blogged the left photo a thousand years ago on MySpace...

I blogged the left photo a thousand years ago on MySpace.  It might be up on another blog somewhere else, too, but  I doubt that most of you have seen it.

The left photo was taken fresh out of the shower sometime in 2007.  Hopefully the Internet won't flag it as too much nudity.  It's like, shoulders and jacked-up face.  Might be scary to some, but I wouldn't think super offensive.

The left photo was taken at a point when I didn't have insurance or a lot of other options for dealing with my health issues.  I don't know why, but my psoriasis hasn't been shy about getting on my face.  A lot of people who have this condition don't seem to have that problem, but I almost always have.  Face and scalp have always been terrible for me.  That's one major reason I used to keep my head shaved.  It was just easier to deal with head flakes when there was no hair in the way.

I remember back when I used to try to hide my face with makeup.  That only made things worse, and then one day I had the experience of someone asking me if I was trying to hide scabs from a skate-boarding accident.  It was at that point that I realized I was fooling no one, and just let it show after that.  It FELT better, at the very least - even if I wasn't like, proud of my face.

I've had it to varying degrees on the rest of my body.  It's not usually intolerable, though, unless I'm under a lot of stress, my diet sucks, or it's winter.  There are definitely some things that make it much worse.

For anyone who's curious, psoriasis is not contagious.  Yes, it hurts and itches, and I've been like a lizard in shed for most of my life.  Woo.  There is also an arthritis that comes with it sometimes, which is my current major worry.  But I'm working on that.

The photo on the right is my face right now.  Fresh out of the shower, no make-up, not shooped.

I wish I could just tell you all how I feel about it, but I'm just gonna cry instead.  I have real skin!  There is really real skin on my face.  And it's soft.  And it's not coming off.  And it doesn't hurt.  I think that after all this time I had forgotten that was even a possibility.  I feel really emotional right now.  ❤

Nails I did the other day when I was hurting so bad and couldn't sleep.

Nails I did the other day when I was hurting so bad and couldn't sleep. Happy Nails to me! LOL It was a nice distraction. Not super fancy, but that's because I used whatever was in arm's reach.

Ok, I know that my last like, 12 posts have been me whining...

Ok, I know that my last like, 12 posts have been me whining about boring health stuff and I apologize, but this one isn't gonna be much different.

I have a question, though.

Is it possible that I've been in a small amount of pain for a long time without realizing it?  I always thought I had a pretty high threshold, but it sounds crazy to me that I wouldn't even notice / acknowledge it.

Twice this weekend I've gone to places where I had to walk on hard floors.  Once, the mall (crazy, I know!) and twice I've been in Wal-Mart.  I don't think that either time I was grumpy or angry that I was there.  Granted, I was at the mall seeing an awesome girl I never really get to see, but there is usually no reason for me to not be angry that I'm in a Wal-Mart.  LOL

I don't think I'd realized it, but standing around in places had begun to bother me.  I'm not a shopping kind of girl (unless it's the rare occasion I'm looking at nail polish outside of the internet), but for the last few years I've HATED to go anywhere that I might have to stand around (such as Wal-Mart or Best Buy.  Shaun is a shopper, while I, on the other hand, usually know exactly what I'm there for and run through to get it.)  I also noticed when thinking back that if I DID have to wait on him I'd become one of those people who sat on shelves or in the floors.  I'm not lazy.  It's not like I can't freaking stand up.  But I think I was in some sort of discomfort that maybe wasn't registering as pain.

Does that happen?  Because when I went to Wal-Mart last night it's not like I was super excited to be there, but I felt ok.  Like, weirdly, surprisingly, physically ok.  There have been a few other instances the last couple of days where I felt the same.  It's like the absence of discomfort has made me realize that it was there in the first place.  Can discomfort / pain come on so gradually that it's just there without you knowing?

I feel so baffled right now.  Y'all don't even know.  I always thought I was so in tune with myself.  😳

So far I'm a little riled today from the steroids, but not majorly.  Still hungry like a horse.  Shaun is taking me to a buffet.  I will try not to bite his head off for him being so nice to me.  LOL  I did sleep last night - a lot.  I feel rested, but I am majorly lacking motivation to do anything, though I feel sort of energetic.  Not sure if that's the pills or if my body needs to rest.  So much to figure out!  😕

Later, peeps.  Food time!  😃

It has been a weird day.

It has been a weird day.  My body and my brain are not in sync.  There have been times I felt like exercising, yet I would fall asleep. There was a time I was so drowsy on the couch, but I couldn't sleep because my arms and legs felt buck wild. I'm not a super fan of this weirdness. 😕

My biggest accomplishment today had to have been the amount of food I've eaten. It was a ridiculous amount and I could still eat more. I'm sure I will regret that soon.

I'm in my bed in hopes that I can sleep. I feel drowsy with no super wild body parts at the moment. Wish me luck. ❤

I feel crazy cranky wild.

I feel crazy cranky wild. Physically mostly ok-ish, but I think these pills are making me mentally or emotionally JACKED UP.  I'm an unpleasant beast right now. 😳

What happens when I'm done with the pills?  I don't think they intend to keep me on them. Just wondering what the next step is...

It's been a weird day.

It's been a weird day.  Not really bad, but definitely weird.

I slept for about 8 hours last night.  It was lovely.   Dogs woke me up around 9:30, so I took care of all the kids, ate, and then took my first two pills.  Sat on the couch like a knot on a log - watching Andy Griffith and messaging my besties.  Was super pleasantly surprised that I haven't felt like barfing, though my stomach has felt a little off.  I guess that's normal and ok.

Don't know if my body just needed the rest or if it was the pills or what, but I fell asleep for a few more hours.  Woke up about 30 minutes ago.  Usually that much sleep gives me a sleep hangover, but not today.

I feel weird.  Body isn't TOO sore, skin is still nice like "Whoa."  A little jeebly in my guts.  Still having random shooty pains, but those aren't so bad.  Better than constant pain.  At least these are like little surprises.  LOL

About to eat and get the 2nd pair of pills down me.  Maybe after that I can stay awake for a while.

Heard from the doctor's office today.

Heard from the doctor's office today. They want me to come back either Thursday or Monday after I finish my steroid pills. They said we could talk and run some tests to see about doing a referral for me. So, I guess that is my plan for now.

Today I have felt ok. My lower back and thigh pain have mostly faded. My knees and hips are better than they've been in a long time. Even though it's chilly this evening my whole body isn't seized up and sore. That's amazing. 

The only complaint I have is slight back soreness and some random occasional shooty pains. I can live with that.

I have been freaking myself out all day with my skin. It is SO SOFT. My hair, too. I can't stop petting myself. When you've lived with sore, flaky, rough skin for so long - feeling like you have fresh soft baby skin suddenly is mind - blowing. Like, in a big way. I wish you could all touch my face right now, but that would gross me out. LOL

Anyway. Will start my steroid pills tomorrow and hope that goes ok.

So far today I have taken a nice hot shower.

Well, my dogs woke me up earlier than I'm used to and I couldn't get back to sleep.  I did sleep most of the night, though, so yay for that.  I needed it.

So far today I have taken a nice hot shower.  I used my medicated shampoo, even though my head wasn't really itchy or anything.  With the cold weather upon us I don't want to take any chances.  My psoriasis always worsens in the winter, so I figured I should stay on top of it.

This is probably super gross, but while I was in the shower I think I washed off 20 layers of face.  I try not to scratch my face even when it itches, but I often fail.  After the shot the other day either it stopped bothering me or I was too busy hurting to care about it, so (since psoriasis basically just causes you to produce extra skin all the time) I had A LOT of extra skin just hanging out on my face.

Yeah, also probably super gross to most of you - I hadn't washed my face since Wednesday.  I felt too bad, and it wasn't a priority, and over-washing with a skin condition often worsens things.  ON THE BRIGHT SIDE my face looks pretty much like a regular face today.  🙂  There was a patch of psoriasis on my chin that was so inflamed two weeks ago at the craft show in Alpine that a lady thought I was bleeding.  You can barely see it now - so that's something!

After my shower I put some of the medicated crème on some of my other spots.  Didn't do all of them because I want to see if it does anything or not.  Also wanted to make sure it doesn't like, chemical burn me or anything like that.  I've had that happen before, so I started small this time.

So, skin is feeling a lot better.  Yay for that!  Bones and muscles... not 100% (I'm still sore), but MUCH improved from yesterday so far.  I don't hate life yet today, so that's a really nice feeling.  LOL  Probably doesn't hurt that it's Friday, either.  I'm excited about getting paid and excited to have the weekend off.

I have decided that I will start my steroid pills tomorrow in case they do make me sick.  My boss is setting up for Winter Market (which starts later today), so she won't be in the office much if at all and I have some things that need to be done TODAY.  If I'm not functional that will be a problem, so I'll just wait.  I don't think it will hurt much to give it another day.  Doc didn't even tell me I was getting pills or that I should start them immediately, so it doesn't feel like a big deal.  If I'm doing it wrong, well, that's on him for being non-communicate-y.  I'm not going to worry about it.

So, Happy Friday, people.  I hope it's a good one for all of us!  ❤

CAN. NOT. WIN.

Sat on the couch with Shaun.  Starting dozing.  Realized I might be able to sleep tonight, so I got up and took care of the furkids.  Now I've got a killer headache.

CAN. NOT. WIN.

Got my meds from the pharmacy today.

Got my meds from the pharmacy today.  Dr. Keel said that he was prescribing me an ointment for my psoriasis... what he failed to tell me is that I had 4 other prescriptions waiting.  😳

He prescribed me some Selsun Blue shampoo with an active ingredient of 3% Salicylic Acid, which is the same active ingredient in the Dermarest Shampoo that I told him I was using, (and yes, I told him also what the active ingredient was).  He also prescribed some Scalpicin for my head itch. I guess that's ok, but I could have gotten both of those products at Wal-Mart had I wanted them.

For the rest of my body he prescribed a hydrocortisone for itch (I don't really feel that I needed that, either - I'm not a fan of treating symptoms. I want to treat my problems.) He also gave me a steroid cream to TREAT my psoriasis - which I will use.

He also prescribed Methylpred - some steroid pills. I am scared to take them, but I will start them in the morning.

That steroid shot from yesterday has made me so sore in the muscles in the lower half of my body - as if sore joints weren't bad enough. I took Ibuprofen this morning, but it didn't do a thing.  I have been pretty damn miserable all day due to the pain and not being to sleep last night. So you can probably see why the thought of taking more steroids terrifies me. Not only that, but they are pills with nausea and dizziness as a side effect, like, in big red warning letters on the package.  🙁  I am super not happy about that.

It would be one thing if I didn't have to work or take care of my animals, but I do, and I really need to be functional.  My guys are being great and picking up extra things around the house and Shaun has been a big help, but damn.  I don't feel like myself.  This morning it took every bit of effort I had to drag myself out of bed and get ready for work.  I fed all the animals, but I didn't scoop litter boxes or anything like that.  It was just too much.  I WILL do all of that before I go to bed tonight, though.

I also called the doctor twice... once because of the muscle pain from the shot and once to get a referral.  I had to leave messages both times and no one called me back.  So yay for that crap.  I'm not super pleased with that place right now - I don't think he did tests or anything, then he just prescribed me a bunch of crap - half of which I don't need or want and one thing that I basically already have.  Not cool.

I am sorry if I'm coming off all whiny.  If I am it's because that's how I am IRL at the moment.  I am such a sad person right now.  I know that lots of people have it worse than me and that just makes me even sadder.  It maybe wouldn't be so bad if I had a knowledgeable doc on hand to explain shit to me, but I don't and I really like to know things.

Anyway, probably goes without saying that I'm not doing any shows this weekend, which sucks because I need money kind of a lot right now, but I just can't.  I am planning to take it easy until I feel better - however long that takes.

Later, friends.  I have work here to do.  😕

I was feeling too sore to sleep, so...

I was feeling too sore to sleep, so I stayed up and painted my nails as a get-well present.  It kind of made me feel better and took my mind off of how sore I am.  I feel as though I've been beaten from the waist down.  Kind of afraid to take anything for the pain.  I don't like to have a lot of medication in me all at once.  😕

About to climb up in my bed and try to get comfy.  Thanks for all the well-wishes.  ❤

Had a very hard time sleeping last night.

Had a very hard time sleeping last night.  It was well after 4 when I finally fell asleep.  I turned off my alarm because I figured I'd need the rest.  Well the doggies woke me up around 9:45 and I couldn't get back to sleep.  I have a headache, so I'm having some unsweet tea and Ibuprofen for breakfast.

Physically, I'm still not good by any stretch, BUT, my knees and hips aren't AS SORE as they were.  A lot of the general pain from last night has faded, but my thigh muscles and lower back still hurt in a not so insignificant way.  That didn't start until the injection, so here's hoping that fades soon or that the Ibuprofen at least kicks it down a notch.

Slowly but surely getting ready for work.  If I can't rest I don't see why not.  Wish me luck.  ❤

Blegh. Went to the doctor today.

Blegh.  Went to the doctor today.  Because I know nothing I didn't get a referral to a specialist.  I think I thought he was allowed to experiment on me, then decide he couldn't fix me before giving me a referral.  I have been told repeatedly that I am wrong, so I will call them by next week.  I really feel like I need to do my own research right now.

So he came in and asked how long I'd had my "rash" and I told him that I was diagnosed with Psoriasis like, 15 years ago.  He said that often arthritis comes with that (psoriatic arthritis), so I guess he thinks that's what I have.  They took 3 vials of my blood, but as far as I know they only tested it for infection.  No x-rays or anything like that were done.  I did find out that my blood pressure is good and that I weigh 120 lbs.  I would be happier if I was back at 110 (and it might be easier on my joints from what I've read), but the doc said nothing about that.  (Before any of you jump on me for saying that's a low weight - please remember that I am not even technically adult sized.)

Anyway, they gave me a steroid shot in the ass called Celestone.  He said it would help with the inflammation in my skin and joints.  The shot hurt, but not terribly (I am no wimp), but I almost passed out shortly after receiving it.  Meds affect me a little more than they do the average person, I think.  So they gave me a Dum-Dum sucker and let me sit until I felt better.  It was a pretty good sucker.  Since I felt all jeebly I asked Shaun to come and get me.  I really didn't want to drive at the point.

We had lunch and that was ok.  But off and on all afternoon I have felt as though I am being pinched in random places, I've had pain in other joints that weren't bothering me before, I've had crying spells, and my lower back and thighs are now killing me - in addition to my bones and skin hurting.  🙁  All in all, this is worse and I hope it gets better.

I asked what the side effects of the shot would be and the nurse said my face might flush for a day.  I asked how long the shot would last and they didn't know.  No one knows anything, not even me.  Like I said - I have research to do.  I'm not super thrilled with how the day went, but I'm probably not the best patient, as I don't have experience with doctors.  I didn't know that it was appropriate to ask for a referral - and especially not on the first visit.  Popular consensus seems to be that I need to see a Rheumatologist, so I will check around Anniston to see who's available.  If anyone has recommendations, let me know.  I am new to this and need all the help I can get.

I'm off to put on something soft and warm.  I'm curling up on the couch until my Shaun arrives to bake me comfort cookies.  Not the best for my skin, I'm sure, but I've been super careful with my diet lately and if cookies will at least make me feel emotionally better, then I'll take it.

Later, peeps.  ❤

Heading to bed.

Heading to bed.  I'm up a little more than an hour past my self-prescribed bedtime of midnight tonight.  😕  I was productive, though, so I'm not in trouble.  LOL

I updated my Etsy... mostly my small earrings, so now they can come in clip, post, or dangle.  I also edited some wording and keywords, so woohoo for all that bizness.  I still have tons more to do, but I'm saving that for another day.

I'm for sure going to the doctor tomorrow.  I'm not feeling any worse off, but I have my car, I have the money, so I have no excuse not to.  I just have to do it.  I'm nervous, but I'm doing it.

Discovered last night that my bed stays warmer in the winter now that it's almost to the ceiling.  That's nice for my bones.  Maybe the climbing up and down isn't that great, but I don't care.  I love my bed and whatever is wrong with me isn't gonna take that from me.  I will have to be in a walker before I give up my high bed.

Anyway, goodnight peoples.  ❤

All of my friends, if it's not too personal, what is wrong with you?

All of my friends, if it's not too personal, what is wrong with you?  Physically, I mean?

I haven't had a very good health year.  Like, AT ALL.  The IUD / depression thing earlier this year was bad enough.  But now, my psoriasis is flaring up big time.  It hurts to wear clothes.  TMI Alert:  I haven't worn a bra in months because the band hurts my skin so bad.  Good thing I have teensy tatas.  If you've seen me out in public in what appears to be pajamas it's because my skin was too sore to wear anything tighter or with a coarser fabric.  I have got the homeless hobo look DOWN.

As if the skin isn't bad enough my bones are killing me.  Like, for the last few years in the winter they have been sore, but not unbearably so.  But this year... oh man.  It's only been cold for like, 2 days, and I already know that I can't go all winter this way.  I am going to the doctor either tomorrow or Wednesday.  My hips and knees are quite painful.

I had a little mini meltdown over the weekend.  I have thankfully been healthy for most of my life, but at 31 years old I feel like I am starting to fall apart.  It is so scary.  I have no idea how my health measures up to other people my age.  I keep thinking that I am too young for this, but then again I know that some people are born in worse shape, so then I just feel like a big old douchebag for having such thoughts.

So... anyone out there care to tell me all the ways in which they are falling apart?  If you are ailing, at what age did that start?  I just feel like talking about it.  I am curious.  It makes me feel better to talk about things.  ❤

Aaand... Shaun just gave Shadow his Christmas present.

Aaand... Shaun just gave Shadow his Christmas present.

We do what we do. LOL

My night just turned awesome.

My night just turned awesome. Tim Minchin (something about with an orchestra) is on Hulu. 😃

One of my favorite creatures ever.

One of my favorite creatures ever.  So misunderstood - much like snakes.

Knowledge will set you free of your fears.  ❤