We did nails last night for graduation.

We did nails last night for graduation.  Shaun brought us food and touched up Kira's hair.  It was a good time!

I've never really done falsies before, but I got these put on, cut, shaped, and painted. Not too bad considering that I haven't done nail art in ages!

I am so ridiculously excited.

I am so ridiculously excited.  The kids graduate tonight at 8. 😁😁😁 I am so proud of Shadow and Kira and all of the other seniors.  I can't wait to see how all of these amazing kids go out and change the world.  💙💙💙

This beautiful girl got her license today!

This beautiful girl got her license today!  I am so proud!  I LITERALLY threw my arms up and jumped and exclaimed some, uh, celebratory profanities upon receiving the text that she passed her driver's test.  Good thing I'd already left class.  😛

Shoutout to Shaun for teaching this girl how to drive.  We are so excited!  ❤❤❤

TFW...

TFW you've secured all of the cat treats and litter boxes in your house and it's almost midnight and your little bad dog is throwing a tantrum.

This morning is better.

This morning is better.  No diarrhea in the floor and Midna pooped in her box and it looked soft rather than puddle-y.  That is a nice change of pace.

You're welcome for that delightful morning image.  😝  It legit started my day out 100 times better, though.  😀

I guess I am a lump on the weekend...

I guess I am a lump on the weekend so I can go hard during the week - I don't know.  But I'm thankful that I had the energy and motivation to do things today.

I came home from school and got a ton of stuff done.  I don't know if I did it to avoid homework or because I finally had energy, but either way the house is pretty clean and my list of random things that need doing has shrunk a little.

Booka and Leon went to the vet and got medicated.  The doctor also sent home some things for Faith and Midna since they are both still doing the same.  So far no diarrhea puddles in the house since this morning.  We'll see how things are once I wake up tomorrow.

A nice end to the day was seeing my good friend Meia for a girl date.  We had dinner and talked for like 2 hours and I SO needed that.  My self-care has been horrible lately and I should know by now that I can't pour from an empty cup.  I have got to do better for myself or I am no good to anyone.

I'm about to check out my homework (which is thankfully not due tonight) and wind down.  I'm on the couch with my Faithy and this is probably where I'm going to stay until I call it a night.

This Monday started out rough, but has ended ok so far.  I hope you all had a good day, too!  ❤

I woke up to another diarrhea mess...

I woke up to another diarrhea mess (understandable because if they are sick they can't help it), but this time marked with pee from Faith.  Found Booka eating a GIANT box of cat treats - knocked off the counter by Leon, I'm sure.  I took them to the vet and told them they were lucky if I came back for them.

How's your Monday going?

Scruffy seems to be on a mission to stay sick.

Scruffy seems to be on a mission to stay sick.  He got into Midna's litter box yesterday... neither me or Shaun knows how that happened because it's locked away.  He's getting quite devious and mischievous in his old age.  😕

Also, Faith has diarrhea now so things are really, really great.

Haha. What is wrong with me?

Haha. What is wrong with me? I told Shaun that I was going to bed and for whatever reason thought I could pull it off without incident. Silly me.

I opened the hall door and was heading to my bedroom and noticed that Midna looked like she needed to poop. (We're pretty sure at this point the she's got some IBD or IBS or something going on.) She almost never makes it to her box without assistance despite her best efforts so whoever is closest usually carries her. I picked her up and it was then that she let out the guttural meow that we all know means "IT'S COMING!" She leaked a stream of diarrhea for a few steps before I stopped and put her down. Of course her first reaction was to run, but Faith doesn't like it when the other animals don't proceed in an orderly and calm fashion so she chased Midna behind the couch.

THANKFULLY, Midna didn't poop back there. I cleaned up our easily-accessible poop mess, then shook the treat container and she came out. (Of course I gave her treats - she gets an A for effort.) That really could have gone much worse, but it was plenty of excitement for us. And on that note - I bid you all a goodnight. Sweet dreams!

Shaun helped me take care of the animals, but...

Shaun helped me take care of the animals, but other than that I haven't done a single thing today besides sit here like a lump.  I'm not upset about it, though, so I guess that's something.

I hate days that start like this.

I hate days that start like this.  I woke up several hours ago but simply did not have the energy / motivation to take care of all of the animals (because I have to take care of them first before anything else) so I fell back asleep for some hours.  I had to pee really bad the first time I woke up, but I slept through the pain to avoid responsibility.  Now I'm up, but fighting to gather my will to move.

It's not so bad when everyone isn't sick, but when they are... I have to be honest:  It scares me.  I have to remember who needs medication, I have to get it in them (whether it's easy or hard), and sick animals usually mean more messes to clean up.  Of course they are all hungry in the morning so everyone is gathered around bouncing, making noise, and pawing me reminding me not to forget to feed them (because that is something that has ever happened.  😂)

Sometimes the messes (puke or diarrhea, usually) are in what seem to be well-thought out strategic locations to make my life harder.  Like right in the path of where a door opens so I can unknowingly smear said mess everywhere before cleaning it.  Of course while cleaning everyone likes to gather around me to see what interesting thing I'm messing with... while bouncing, making noise, and pawing me because it's obvious that I've forgotten to feed them somehow.

I don't have school today so I have a list of things I wanted to get done around the house.  But here I sit - having accomplished only taking myself to the bathroom to pee.  The kids are texting with requests and I'm here replying that they can handle things themselves because I am great.  I am already hours behind on everything - even some really important stuff - and I just CAN'T with all that.

This is why I've not been taking in more animals.  I do have one foster dog; I've had him since about October.  He's a great guy and we were planning to keep him, but I see more and more that it is not going to work.  He deserves better than the life we can offer him right now.  On my list of things to do today was to get some nice photos of him and begin my search for a rescue.  I am just tapped out.  I am scraping the bottom of the barrel on what I have left to give.

I try not to speak for Shaun, but I can tell that he is struggling, too.  We both need more time and space for self-care.  He's barely able to drag himself to work.  Honestly, I don't even know when he last went to trivia with his friends - which used to be a weekly thing.  This is not ok.  Along that vein we need time and space to be a couple.  We went to dinner at Ruby Tuesday the other night because we just had to.  It was really nice to sit across from him and just SEE his face.  We needed it.

Y'all, I have been a mom for more than half of my life now.  I have kept a hoard of forever animals for the last 13-ish years, and I have fostered animals and volunteered in rescue for about 11 years.  The kids are grown and my animals are dying off.  I'm happy about the kids, heartsick about my animals, and basically tapped out.  I need some major "me" time.  I want to focus on school and my future career.  I want more time for my HUSBANG.  I wish I knew how to make any of this happen, but I don't.

Anyway.  The animals are calling.  Guess I'm off to stop "neglecting" them.

I called the vet and got meds for these fur-kids.

I called the vet and got meds for these fur-kids.  Unfortunately, the doctor won't be in tomorrow so I really hope they help.  My gramson feels so bad he keeps laying on me and he doesn't normally do that.  The vet's office told me that if Leon and Boo weren't any better by Monday to go ahead and bring them in.  At least I'll have the weekend to keep an eye on them and baby them.

Class went ok this week.  I'm nervous about getting to the programming part of the course, but what we're learning now is stuff I've wondered about for a long time.  It's what all the different types of memory do in the computer, and how it boots up, and all of that stuff.  It's pretty cool.  I still doubt my ability to do well in the class.  I don't know why I'm like that.  It still feels like I have so far to go and I never really expected to even get this far so every time I succeed more I am shocked and the scared about what comes next.  I wish I could stop being that way.  Anxiety to the max.  Woohoo.

Things feel hectic. Blegh.

Things feel hectic.  Blegh.

I started my new class today.  It's me and 8 guys, but they all seem really nice so far and I recognize most of them from previous classes so at least I don't feel alone.

I've got a few sick animals.  😥😥😥  Booka's little bad self found a way to get into Leon's litter box and ate A TON of poopy cat litter.  Leon also knocked a peanut shell bowl over and I'm pretty sure Boo ate some of those shells.  He's having diarrhea pretty bad... sometimes red, sometimes green.  🙁  He seems otherwise fine, but if it goes on past tomorrow we've gotta get him to the doctor.

Leon has always been a little sneezy, but he's started coughing.  He did spit up a hairball, but he's still coughing and we're getting a little worried about him.  Sindar was coughing and the vet said she had stomatitis last week so he medicated her with Prednisone for the inflammation.  I also asked him to give her a de-worming pill and we got her a Seresto collar.  She's not coughing now, but is having diarrhea, too.

Needless to say we're going to try to get everyone to the vet on Friday.  I hate that things are like this.  It seems like when it rains, it pours.  But on the bright side it seems like my class is going to be super interesting.  It is all about operating systems.  Hopefully I will do ok.  The syllabus says I need to know Java and while I do NOT feel confident with Java - hopefully I know enough to comprehend what is going on.

Anyway, I'm off to shape and polish my nails (nothing fancy).  They have been terribly neglected and are snagging on things and the polish is chipped.  It's such a distraction.  Then I'm heading to bed so I can be nice and alert for class in the morning.  Goodnight, all!  ❤

Reminder to friends:

Reminder to friends: Shadow's last choir concert is tonight. It's at Edgewood Church in Anniston, 6:30 pm, free admission.

Sitting here wondering...

Go me.

I didn't have to take any decongestants or allergy meds...

I didn't have to take any decongestants or allergy meds all day yesterday so I was thinking I'd be about back to normal today.  I mean... in a sense, I guess I was.  Too bad normal happens to be barfing with a migraine sometimes.  😣

I've about got it shaken off, thank goodness.  Hopefully I will be up for tackling my ever-growing to-do list tomorrow.  I never thought I could get so behind on things when I'm not even in school, but I guess life has to remind me that I'm not in charge.  😂😂😂

I hope you all are doing well.  If not, we can try again tomorrow!  ❤

We had plans to visit family today, but...

We had plans to visit family today, but Shaun has been sick for two weeks and with me feeling bad as well there was just no way we were going anywhere.  It is really unfortunate because I miss everyone when I'm so busy with school so I always look forward to the end of the semester and being able to catch up without being rushed or stressed.  Hopefully, we will all be fine by next weekend.  I have time to sit at home and rest now, but Shaun is still going to work despite how bad he feels.  I really hate that and wish there was something I could do to lighten his load, but that is not how jobs work, unfortunately.  😕

I am feeling so weird right now.  I am drowsy, but I've slept off and on all day and don't want to go to bed... feeling a bit social, but my throat hurts so I don't want to talk... supposed to be trying to relax, but wishing school was back in... I'm cold, but I'm hot and sweating because yay fever...  I just don't know what to do with myself.  I hate days like this because it seems like literally nothing can make it better.  😕  I guess I'm off to do whatever.  Most likely watch Netflix here on the couch with my ani-pals.  I hope you are all doing well.  ❤

I am irritable to death.

I am still sick and for whatever reason today I am irritable to death. It is awful. I have been a Grumpasaurus to everyone; even the animals. I hope it passes soon.

I just checked to see if my transcript updated and all that...

I just checked to see if my transcript updated and all that.  I'm glad I did because one of my grades was incorrect so the instructor is going to fix it.  Also, I'm officially a senior now!  😃

My body is forcing me to rest.

My body is forcing me to rest. I'm so sick right now. Don't know if I was around smoke too much or if I have what Shaun had, but this feels awful. 🙁 At least I'm not in school right now. I hope I get over this fast.

I made...

Today, I'm home catching up on things.

I ran a ton of errands yesterday.  Today, I'm home catching up on things.

Leon has been a butthole lately; he's been messing with our parakeet so now CeeLo Green is going to live in my bedroom.  We're listening to a parakeet-calming mix of music on YouTube right now.  He looks very thoughtful and interested; I've even got my blinds open so he can have some sun.  Hoping my new little roomie adjusts to sharing my space soon.  😊

I'm off to make a list of things to do so I can start checking it off.  I hope you all are having a nice Wednesday!  ❤