I've been struggling with depression and anxiety the last few days...

I've been struggling with depression and anxiety the last few days... maybe closer to a week and a half by this point.  I've been taking my meds, resting, and just existing through it because there is nothing else to do, really.  I'm grateful that I have medication because without it I'm sure things would be much worse.  Regardless, this sucks and I'm not a fan.

I'm really not enjoying the pandemic.  Some people are just acting like nothing is going on and that drives me crazy.  I know that I'm at the other extreme; when we heard it was coming in March, me, Shaun, and the kids went into hermit mode.  "Better safe than sorry" is the way we feel about it, and while the down-time was nice in some ways, it's also getting pretty lonely for me.  But with case numbers spiking in Alabama right now I just don't feel like it's the time for us to start letting our guard down.

I think I do better when I have something to put my focus on, like school.  I've been trying to study for my CSA, but it's hard to focus or find motivation once I'm already in a slump, so I'm not making a lot of progress and that sucks, too.  My father in law was hospitalized with heart problems over the weekend, so I'm sad and stressed about that.  I'm sure he's safer at the hospital as far as his heart condition goes, but I worry about him catching COVID there.

It's just a bad time.  I know it is for a lot of us.  I really hope things ease up soon.

I don't have the 'Rona.

Tfw you've just woken up and...

Tfw you've just woken up and your husbang is like "Your roaches escaped." and you're like "What? No! How?!" and he blamed the cats but really me by saying that I left the container in the floor and then I go to the shelf where I left my roaches and they are where they are supposed to be, just chilling, so then I make them breakfast.

That is FAR too much range of emotion for me first thing after I wake up. 😬😳😒

Student loans won't cover just one class...

Student loans won't cover just one class (I have to go at least half-time for that) and we can't pay out of pocket right now.  So... I signed up for another class - Intro to Spanish!  😁  I'm pretty excited about that.  Shaun has been asking me to learn Spanish with him and Kira wants to know it, as well, so I think it'll be really fun and hopefully pretty helpful.  I am so excited for this semester!

We're so mean to these cats.

We're so mean to these cats. Sindar was so happy, purring and snuggling Shaun - until he started laughing which shook her. I started recording, but she was already over it. Look at that angry face! 😂😂😂

I received a COVID test kit...

I am 100% just over human beings right now.

I am 100% just over human beings right now.  I am disappointed in so many people.  I've dealt with a couple of hurtful Facebook comments in the past two days.  Shaun went back to work last week and I miss him.  The pandemic is finally closing in around us in my area and that is... well, that's a WHOLE thing.  I'm so excited for my last semester of college; I've been waiting for this for so long.  But I don't want to be forced to go into a classroom.  It does not feel safe or smart.  I don't know.

I know that every day isn't going to be sunshine and rainbows, but today has just felt plain bad.  I didn't sleep enough, my chest feels tight, and all else I feel is an impending sense of doom.  I might shower and brush my teeth and call it a night.  I'm not good for anything else right now.  Except holding cats.  I am pretty good at that, but it's pretty pathetic that I don't even have the energy to sit here and be a lap.  Ah, well, tomorrow is a new day.