I've been struggling with depression and anxiety the last few days... maybe closer to a week and a half by this point. I've been taking my meds, resting, and just existing through it because there is nothing else to do, really. I'm grateful that I have medication because without it I'm sure things would be much worse. Regardless, this sucks and I'm not a fan.
I'm really not enjoying the pandemic. Some people are just acting like nothing is going on and that drives me crazy. I know that I'm at the other extreme; when we heard it was coming in March, me, Shaun, and the kids went into hermit mode. "Better safe than sorry" is the way we feel about it, and while the down-time was nice in some ways, it's also getting pretty lonely for me. But with case numbers spiking in Alabama right now I just don't feel like it's the time for us to start letting our guard down.
I think I do better when I have something to put my focus on, like school. I've been trying to study for my CSA, but it's hard to focus or find motivation once I'm already in a slump, so I'm not making a lot of progress and that sucks, too. My father in law was hospitalized with heart problems over the weekend, so I'm sad and stressed about that. I'm sure he's safer at the hospital as far as his heart condition goes, but I worry about him catching COVID there.
It's just a bad time. I know it is for a lot of us. I really hope things ease up soon.