Walked Win just a few minutes ago.

Walked Win just a few minutes ago.  MUCH easier with that long lead already on him.  He hesitated when coming out of his crate, but no growling this time.  🙂  He actually walked around for a bit longer outside.  He usually acts as though he doesn't want to move at all so that is a bit of good news.  🙂

He peed a bunch and pooped.  Poor boy DEFINITELY has worms.  I was planning to take him to the vet today, but they are always crammed on the weekends.  Didn't feel that it was a great idea to take him into a noisy vet's office crammed with people and other animals with him being as scared as he is.  🙁  I will plan on taking him this week and being there when they open so we can get in and get out fast.  I think that is a MUCH better idea.  Maybe in that time he'll get more used to me and see that I don't plan to hurt him so he'll be less nervous.  I can hope!  🙂

So it appears that one of my family members...

So it appears that one of my family members who I'm angry about over the dog situation has deleted and blocked me.  She said she was tired of being bitched at for not being perfect.  And also thinks I'm wrong for being more concerned over the dog than my niece's feelings about giving the dog up to a good home.  Well, you know what?  Children need to learn how to handle disappointment and loss.  You can't protect them from it forever.  And you shouldn't - especially at the expense of the quality of life of someone else - even a dog.  ANIMALS ARE NOT TOYS.  THEY ARE ALSO NOT DISPOSABLE.

She says that the dog will be well-cared for by another family member.  We'll see.  I do drive through Munford on occasion.  First time I see her in the road she comes back here and she'll disappear so fast no one will be able to track her down.  I will do what I should have done the first time I saw her in the street.  That's a promise.

For any of you family members still reading I know you all haven't deleted and blocked me so I know you can see this.  I'm not EVEN trying to hide my feelings.  I can't believe how you all lied to me and let me down.  I am so disappointed in you all.  I will NEVER put another living being in your care again.  EVER.

Other than that, there's Dumplin'.

Other than that, there's Dumplin'.  And guess what's up with him.  Go ahead.  Any ideas?  Little baby has diarrhea.  🙁  EVERYTHING that was in his cage is in the washing machine right now.  He's getting old enough that he wants to nibble grown-up food, but I've been careful about what he gets.  He's got a piece of squirrel block in with him, I gave him a tiny bit of apple, a piece of carrot, some broccoli... once in a while he even gets a little piece of pecan.  From watching him it looks like he just grinds all this stuff up with his teeth and spits it out.  I haven't seen him EAT any of it that I can tell.  I thought all of those foods were ok, but something isn't right with him.  Thankfully, he still seems to feel great, but his butt is leaking nasty so poor baby has been in his cage all day.  🙁  I will pick some brains when I wake up to see if I can fix that for him.  🙂

In other news:

In other news:  Little Mama hasn't pooped again since her shit storm the other night.  I didn't give her a whole lot of banana, but something seems to have stopped up her back end.  I don't know... I guess it could be normal for her to not poop every day.  If she goes too much longer I'll get worried, but I'm not yet.

When I was feeding her a little bit ago I want you to know that she looked right up at me with her big beady eyes and chattered her teeth.  Didn't look like a warning to me.  It looked more like "Hey, you, with the food and the cleaning... I'm a little bit chilly out here!"  So of course I went and got her some blankets.  I put a t-shirt in the dryer and let it get a little warm (because WHO DOESN'T LOVE THAT?!), then put that over her and the babies.  Then I took a big blanket and put over most of the cage just because.  I hope she and the babies are all nice and cozy!  🙂

Is it bedtime yet? 😳

Is it bedtime yet?  😳

So I had my dog trainer friend come over and help me with Win.  I am just not very comfortable with a dog who's growling at me.  She tricked him into her slip lead with some chopped up weenies and now we've got a long leash on him that will not be removed before his transport.  It's hanging out of his crate so that I can open the door and urge him out with it.  I hope that makes things easier on us both.

I told her how things went this morning with me reaching in and him ducking to the back and hiding his head.  That is avoidance - him telling me to leave him alone.  When I didn't listen and persisted - he growled.  He was just telling me to back off the only way he knew how.  So.  I do appreciate the warnings.  Better than him just snapping on me.  I do wish he wasn't so scared, though.

OH, I can't fucking EVEN right now.

OH, I can't fucking EVEN right now.  Wow.  Next time I have a gut feeling I'm going with it - consequences be damned.  It couldn't have turned out any worse.

Part of my family found a sick puppy last year. I treated her for parvo (they paid the $100 for the shots, I did the work) and she survived. They decided that they wanted her after she was well. I wasn't too keen on giving her to them, but I did. I felt obligated because they paid for her treatment. Saw her outside of their house one day covered in ticks and wandering in and out of the road. I'm kicking my own ass right now for not picking her up and taking her then. She's had puppies and now they don't want her. I should have gone with my gut. I'm so angry. It's just really upsetting. They promised they'd take good care of her AND GET HER SPAYED. Didn't happen and now they can't be bothered with her anymore.

From the way it all sounded a lot of good intentions were floating around, but no action came into play. And here we are. My aunt did get the pups into rescue, but I still feel really betrayed and hurt. I will never give animals away like that again. Everyone will go through a rescue, or just have to fuck the fuck off. Seriously. I can't even trust my own family to do the right thing, it seems.

In other animal news:

In other animal news:  Win does not want to come out of his crate.  The one time he did willingly I'm guessing he did so because he had to pee so bad.  I have not had that kind of luck since then.  In fact he growled at me this morning for trying to take him out.  I'm thinking I'll just let him hold it until I get home and then maybe he'll be more willing to cooperate.  I feel really bad doing that, but I don't know him that well.  I don't really want to be bitten.  He still seems really nervous.  Still jumps every time I touch him.  😐