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I had errands yesterday so took a pre-planned hiatus from schoolwork...

I had errands yesterday so took a pre-planned hiatus from schoolwork because it just wasn't in the cards.  Today I also got nothing done, but I should have.  I feel like my mental health is slipping.  I'm napping when I shouldn't and I'm still tired.  That is a red flag for me.

Shaun's been spending a lot of time working at the other house.  I've basically just asked him to babysit me for a few days.  The anxiety of school plus how weird it feels with him being gone so much is not working out too great for me at the moment.  I am generally pretty independent, but right now I feel super vulnerable and tense and the tension is sapping my energy and I'm trying not to spiral.  I need help and he will help me, but damn if it wasn't very un-sexy to me to have to ask that of him.

And on that note - despite my 3-hour afternoon nap - I am heading to bed.  I hope you all are doing well.  If not, reach out to someone.  Hang in there.  Goodnight.  ❤

Just a single sleeping kitty...

Just a single sleeping kitty. Nothing to see here. 😂😂😂

Legit.

Legit. Speaking of, I gotta feed Anansi. Wanna keep my girl THICC. 😂😂😂

I've been having stress dreams for the last few days.

I've been having stress dreams for the last few days. I feel my shoulders creeping up to my ears nearly constantly. Of course that triggers headaches which make it more difficult to get things done. I cannot wait to be done with school. I've never had anxiety about anything like I have about college. I know that getting certifications and jobs and all of that will bring a whole different set of worries, but graduating college feels like the biggest hurdle to really changing our lives.

I keep telling myself:  Worst case is that I fail this semester and finish next semester. That's not the end of the world. We're ok and that's ok. It's just hard to accept that when I'm so ready to be done. Also, the sooner I get a job the sooner we can get health insurance and that is a thing we really, really need. ASAP.

Anyway. I'm off to take the kiddo to an appointment and then I'm settling in with cats and math for the rest of the day. Wish me headachelessness. 😂😭❤️

It's 26° F / -3.3° C here right now.

It's 26° F / -3.3° C here right now. Thank goodness for snuggle buddies. This is absolutely frigid for Alabama!

I'm studying, but this thing doesn't make it easy.

I'm studying, but this thing doesn't make it easy.

At some point during the time since he decided that he was my cat, he's gotten REDONKULOUSLY spoiled. Rather than coming to chill with me when I'm in the living room, he now screams outside of my bedroom door until I come out in the morning. Then it escalated to me simply coming out not being enough; I must pick him up and hug and nuzzle him, or he bites my big toes when I try to walk by. He makes sure that I know he wants to be picked up by standing on his back feet and reaching for me. He's a brat, but a heart-melting one. 😍

When I sit down to have my tea in the morning, my lap belongs to him. And when I finish my drink, he gets the last few drops from my cup. The remainder of the day is me fighting to get him to accept a place on my lower legs so that I can study. He knows what it means when I get the Lappy out, so he does his best to get between me and it. Sometimes, I'll get him to snuggle like in the photo. Other times, he ends up with more than a cord on top of him. 😂😂😂

I really don't know how he got so rotten, but I guess it's ok. He's my little buddy, for better or worse.