Thursday, December 3, 2020
Wednesday, December 2, 2020
I had errands yesterday so took a pre-planned hiatus from schoolwork...
I had errands yesterday so took a pre-planned hiatus from schoolwork because it just wasn't in the cards. Today I also got nothing done, but I should have. I feel like my mental health is slipping. I'm napping when I shouldn't and I'm still tired. That is a red flag for me.
Shaun's been spending a lot of time working at the other house. I've basically just asked him to babysit me for a few days. The anxiety of school plus how weird it feels with him being gone so much is not working out too great for me at the moment. I am generally pretty independent, but right now I feel super vulnerable and tense and the tension is sapping my energy and I'm trying not to spiral. I need help and he will help me, but damn if it wasn't very un-sexy to me to have to ask that of him.
And on that note - despite my 3-hour afternoon nap - I am heading to bed. I hope you all are doing well. If not, reach out to someone. Hang in there. Goodnight. ❤
I've been having stress dreams for the last few days.
I've been having stress dreams for the last few days. I feel my shoulders creeping up to my ears nearly constantly. Of course that triggers headaches which make it more difficult to get things done. I cannot wait to be done with school. I've never had anxiety about anything like I have about college. I know that getting certifications and jobs and all of that will bring a whole different set of worries, but graduating college feels like the biggest hurdle to really changing our lives.
I keep telling myself: Worst case is that I fail this semester and finish next semester. That's not the end of the world. We're ok and that's ok. It's just hard to accept that when I'm so ready to be done. Also, the sooner I get a job the sooner we can get health insurance and that is a thing we really, really need. ASAP.
Anyway. I'm off to take the kiddo to an appointment and then I'm settling in with cats and math for the rest of the day. Wish me headachelessness. 😂😭❤️
Tuesday, December 1, 2020
It's 26° F / -3.3° C here right now.
It's 26° F / -3.3° C here right now. Thank goodness for snuggle buddies. This is absolutely frigid for Alabama!
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