Me and the kid...

Me and the kid are watching Bob Ross paint on Hulu. Everyone needs to watch Episode 2 of Season 23 (Forest Edge). He goes from politely shit-talking a bad driver to nursing a baby raccoon - all while creating a beautiful forest painting. ❤❤❤

I felt like I deserved it, so I treated myself last night. I painted my nails!

I felt like I deserved it, so I treated myself last night.  I painted my nails!  Woohoo!  😃

I didn't go with the whole "butterfly on each finger" thing.  I just can't.  It feels so wrong to try to match my nails.  And when I inevitably fail it will look dumb, too, because they won't be perfect, so... there's that.  LOL

I wish this lighting would have captured the beauty of my base coat, Demure Vixen by Essie.  I know it's not the best match to my skin, but I love the pink / lavender undertone.

I also meant for one of my butterflies to turn out blue (the one on the thumb), but the way I layered the colors, it didn't work out that way.  Oh well.  At least it is somewhat different than the green and purple on the ring finger.

Anyway.  I did it.  And I like it.  But I wish I could take it off already and paint something else now.  LOL  I'm terrible.

Today sucked.

Today sucked.  I fought a migraine all day.  Didn't go to work.  Mostly didn't get anything productive done until about an hour and a half ago.  🙁  And that's really terrible because there is A LOT to do.  I'm finally doing laundry - which is something because everything that got wet will mildew / mold if I don't hurry the hell up.  🙁

I do not feel well.  My head and my brain aren't good.  I think that I have hit a point of "stressed out" from which I'm not having an easy return.  I feel really weird inside my head.  Like, almost kind of head-spinny all the time.  And even when I'm exhausted sleep doesn't come easily and I feel really shitty when I do finally wake up.

I don't know what I need to do to get back to a "normal" kind of feeling, but I wish I did.  Maybe it's just a time thing.  But I haven't really felt ok since Monday.  I've had episodes of my chest being tight... kind of almost suffocate-y at times.  I'm not really used to that.  But between that and my head I'm having a hard time focusing and thinking and doing things.  🙁

I'm glad it's Wednesday.  I'll see my dad this weekend.  He's moving into his new place so that should be awesome.  I will also be seeing a friend and taking her some nail art supplies so I think that will be fun also.  As long as I can survive until then.  😂😂😂😭😭😭

Me, in dragon form. 😂😂😂

Me, in dragon form.  😂😂😂

My Baby Man! 😃

My Baby Man!  😃  Shadow, back when he was small enough for me to carry him around.  😍

Pardon the line through the middle of the photo (if you can see it).  I couldn't get a scan without it, though the original photo doesn't have it.  I'm not up for a lot of shooping tonight.  😕  The fact that I had to scan this in should tell you all that I'm old and tired.  😂

Ok, well, today was better than yesterday.

Ok, well, today was better than yesterday.  I did miss class this morning, but we have water in the house now and I did manage to work for an hour or two.  Biology class for tomorrow is canceled so I'll make up some work hours tomorrow, I guess.

My bedroom (which seems to be the lowest room in the house) is where most of the water flowed to.  I didn't realize until this morning that both of my carpeted closets got wet so I immediately started moving stuff out of there when I found out.  Looks like a minimal amount of stuff was damaged, thank goodness.  However, my bedroom is in such disarray that it took me forever to get myself out of the house.  I needed dry shoes, which were buried under the stuff I removed from the closets.  It felt like the difficultly of every minute task was multiplied by a thousand today.  Blegh.

I've got a ton of laundry to do - partially clean things that got wet, part dirty things that I was going to do anyway, and part was clothing that was donated to my dad that was in a box in my bedroom.  My porch also looks terrible because it's full of stuff I moved out of the house so we could get the water up, so...  I need to go through that and see what survived and what didn't.  But that's going to have to wait until this weekend because I am freaking exhausted.  😳

Anyway.  I don't think Shadow had a bad birthday, thank goodness.  We took him to eat at Waffle House (that's what he chose!), and my mom came to see him and brought him a dessert he likes.  There was not much celebrating today because we all felt like crap.  I didn't get nearly enough sleep because I was up cleaning and despite making Shadow go to bed he didn't sleep well because of all the noise we were making with the wet / dry vac.  Shaun didn't sleep at all - he just stayed up a few more hours and then went to work.  So we haven't been a very lively crew, but maybe by this weekend we can relax and do something fun.  I hope!

Well, I'm about to check on all the animals and call it a night.  I don't think I could stay awake for much longer even if I tried.  Goodnight, friends!

Me to Shadow this morning...

Me to Shadow this morning after he woke up to get ready for school (both of us sleepy and groggy in the hallway):

"You can't shower and you have to pee outside.  Happy Birthday."

So the Man-Cub is 16 today.  We have no water, but we have a plumber on the way.  I missed class and I'm late for work.  Shadow's home, as well, because me and Shaun were up all night vacuuming and cleaning so I know he didn't sleep well.  Not to mention that I'm pretty sure it's torture to send a 16 year old anywhere without a shower.  😂

Shadow has hung in there with me through 16 years of me never quite having my shit together as much as I'd like.  And he's ALWAYS been a good sport about it.  I knew I was a lucky mom before he was even born.  When he got here he was the happiest, cutest, goofiest baby, and he's still happy, cute, and goofy - just not so little anymore.  He's 100% been the best surprise of my life and from pregnancy through watching him grow up - definitely the most interesting thing to ever happen to me.  Life as a young single mom with a kid hasn't always been easy, but every minute has been WORTH IT.

Thanks for being awesome, kid.  I love you all the way.  ❤