OMG - I just found chocolate in my panties. 😂😂😂

OMG - I just found chocolate in my panties.  😂😂😂

I just woke up - late, of course.  I feel like crap.  I'm tired, nauseated, and already fighting a headache.  My face is swollen from crying for like 5 days straight.  I was thinking, "How am I supposed to do this day?  I just want to go back to bed and hide."

So I was getting dressed and I found one of the chocolates that Shaun had hidden.  It was in my underwear drawer.  And you know what?  I cried again.  But they were happier tears, at least.  I can't think of a single better thing for me right now than to be reminded when I least expect it that I am loved and most importantly - not alone.

Kind of the same as when I checked the GoFundMe for my dad.  I've gotten several more donations since I checked last night.  Thank you all.  I will get to the personal "Thank you's" when I'm not about to be late to class.  Everyone please keep sharing and if you have any clothing, etc, anyone at work can accept it for me if I'm not there yet.  Thanks again.  It means a lot to me that so many people are trying to help.  I really appreciate it.  ❤

I hate the way my life feels right now.

I hate the way my life feels right now. It hurts. It sucks. I feel really sad, sick, and stressed. 🙁

For anyone who missed it this morning, my dad's house burned down.

For anyone who missed it this morning, my dad's house burned down.  It's my worst nightmare come true:  Their pets were still inside and did not make it.  I am so sad that I don't even know how to process this.

If you can donate any money, please do.  They have nothing but their vehicles and the clothes they were wearing.

Dad didn't want me to come out there today, but I will be making a delivery of donations in the next couple of days.  He and Lisa are staying with another relative right now.

• Men's Clothes: Dad wears 32x32 in pants, and medium shirts.
• Women's Clothes: Lisa wears large shirts and size 14 LONG pants.
• Size 8.5 shoes for both
• Cash, Gift Cards, Toiletries
• GoFundMe link: gofundme.com/mcp3bvac
• They have one large outside dog left, so dog food would also be appreciated.

Thank you.

My Dad's house just burned down.

Updated to add a list:

My Dad's house just burned down. There is nothing left. Their two dogs and kitten did not survive.  It is my worst nightmare come true.  I'm not even sure how to process this.

Dad and Lisa have their vehicles and the clothes they were wearing - that's it.  If you have anything to donate, please keep us in mind. They are staying with another relative for now.

I don't know what do, but please keep an eye on my page for updates. I'll let you all know how you can help as we figure it out.

Thank you.

• Men's Clothes:  Dad wears 32x32 in pants, and medium shirts.
• Women's Clothes:  Lisa wears large shirts and size 14 LONG pants.
• Size 8.5 shoes for both
• Cash, Gift Cards, Toiletries
• GoFundMe link:  gofundme.com/mcp3bvac
• Can now accept donations directly through Facebook Messenger
• They have one large outside dog left, so dog food would also be appreciated.

Donations can be dropped off at work at 500 Main Street in Oxford until 5, Monday - Friday, or message me and I can try to meet you.  I work from noon until 5 on Tuesday - Friday, but other employees are usually there by 10.

Just woke up coughing...

Just woke up coughing and as I was getting comfy again I found a chocolate under my pillow. 😂😍 It's so unexpected and perfect. Thank you, love, for making my life better. You're the best. ❤

I don't really do Valentine's Day or many holidays, but...

I don't really do Valentine's Day or many holidays, but I'm almost always up for dark chocolate.  Made it home from this craptacular day to find that Shaun had bought some heart-shaped Dove dark chocolates (probably clearance V-Day stuff because that's how we roll) and had hidden them in places I frequent around the house.  That was an awesome way to cheer me up.  I have yet to not smile upon finding one.  🙂

I feel so thankful for all of my friends right about now.  Even if you can't be here hiding chocolate in my house the encouragement and good vibes sent through the Internet helps more than you think.  I feel this past year has just sucked - and the one before it, too... and this one isn't off to a great start, either.  So I know I've been WAYYY more whiny and complain-y than ever before, but hopefully I'll survive and come out even better on the other side.

I appreciate you all and I'm sorry if I'm a bad friend in return.  I'm trying so hard to change my life and it's sucking up my life force, but I hope that one day I can be awesome to you, too.  ❤  Thank you x1000.  Sincerely.  ❤

Made it to class despite needing windshield wipers on my eyes...

Made it to class despite needing windshield wipers on my eyes about as bad as on the outside of my car. Nothing sucks like being alone with your thoughts sometimes. One of my classmates is not here due to a death in the family. If only society could understand how much a part of my family that my animals are. 🙁

I honestly have no clue how that test went. I could have failed for all I know. I legit can't even bring myself to care right now. I just want to go home, but we have a lesson now. 🙁