Seriously.

Seriously.  I have been a hostile, weepy mess all evening.  I hate hormones.  I don't understand why I feel the way I feel.  I just feel it, and it's crappy, and it's not good, and then I'm mean and I'm crying and it's stupid.  WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF THIS?

Tomorrow I go back to Dr. Daniels for him to try to get my IUD out.  This time, with drugs.  🙁  He'd better try hard because if he can't get it out this time it means surgery... and I don't have the insurance or cash for all of that.

I'm nervous.  I'm nervous about the pills jacking me up.  I'm nervous because I hate to feel nauseated more than anything ever.  And I'm nervous because I'm worried that he won't be able to get it out.

Jonathon and Leslie - I'm really sorry I wasn't great company tonight.  That is exactly why I've been avoiding everyone.  LOL  Lucky for you, you missed the uncontrollable sobbing on the way home.  There was snot and everything.  It wasn't pretty.  Poor Shaun.

I'm REALLY hoping that getting a new Mirena will level me out.  If not, I don't know what I'll do.  I can't live like this.  Actually - I can, but I refuse to.  It sucks.  🙁

Mystery Tadpole is near the top of his pile of rocks...

Mystery Tadpole is near the top of his pile of rocks with his nose out of the water.  Aww!  ❤

Yesterday was great. It was JUST WHAT I NEEDED. 😃

Yesterday was great.  It was JUST WHAT I NEEDED.  😃

My friends Laurel and Emily came and spent the day.  They are animal people, too, so it was really nice to be with people who GET ME on that level.  Unfortunately, it is so rare for me these days.  🙁  Y U NO LIVE CLOSE TO ME???!!!

We did lunch at Panera, and later went to Petco, and finished the night with some IHOP.  At Petco I got some plants and an albino bristlenose pleco for my betta tank.  I wanted one of those because they stay small.  My tank is right by a window, so I'm growing crazy amounts of algae.  😳  He will have plenty to eat.  🙂  Also, Laurel brought me a little tadpole.  We're not sure what kind he is.  He was shipped in with the goldfish where she works so she took him out.  I guess we'll see how he turns out.  That should be interesting.  He has arms, legs and a tail right now.  SO CUTE!

We hung out with the fur-kids, obviously, and Laurel brought her tortoise Clover - who is a FUCKING TRIP.  Such personality.  Just wow.  That girl is FUNNY.  😃  She definitely has to come back again.  I will just have to make sure I vacuum first.  She was all, "This dog hair and fuzz is MINE.  You can't have it.  I will put my head in my shell so you can't take it.  I WILL EAT ALL THE THINGS."  😂😂😂  Since my vacuum wasn't working I had to call Shaun and borrow his.  To keep the tortoise from being bad.  😃

Of course we did nails, and hung out, and talked, and watched movies... regular girl stuff, I guess.  But with animals so that made it x1000 better.  Ladies, we HAVE to do this again.  Come back anytime!  ❤

I just sneezed and I think I killed my uterus.

I just sneezed and I think I killed my uterus.

BOO!  🙁

Gotta run.  Eating pizza for tigers.  And bears!  ❤

Oh my gosh.

Oh my gosh. So nauseated this morning. 🙁

Dang. I wish I could go back to bed.

Just got a voicemail...

Just got a voicemail from Saks Middle School.  The high school will be serving breakfast (6:30 am) and lunch (noon) on Monday - Thursday for the month of June and part of July - FREE for people under the age of 18.  I think that is super nice and a really great thing to do, but I wonder what sparked it and how it's being provided.  Can't help but feel a little skeptical about freebies and nice things.  Gotta wonder what the catch is...

Internet, I feel like crap. 🙁

Internet, I feel like crap.  🙁  I'm on antibiotics for my guts infection.  I'm often nauseated due to the meds.  I'm crampy.  I'm sad.  I'm drained.

I have not been a happy camper for almost two weeks, and at this rate, I don't see it getting any better until after Monday.  If my shizz is still all jacked up by then, I'm starting to get worried that I won't be able to get a new IUD for a while.  🙁  Maybe my organs need a break.

I told Shaun that I was gonna mope this evening.  I think I shall.  Later, y'all.