For the first time in my entire life...

For the first time in my entire life I totally understand how sometimes people want to do stupid things or hurt themselves.  Wow.  This is a whole new low for me.

Don't worry about me, Internet.  I'm not actually stupid.  And save any kind words you may have.  I'm going off air for an undetermined amount of time.  ❤

I just ate part of a grapefruit.

I just ate part of a grapefruit. It was wonderful. I wish I had more. 😕

My nails REALLY need doing, but...

My nails REALLY need doing, but that can't happen when I'm blowing my nose every few minutes.  DANG.

New stuff will be in at Sally's on Saturday.  I'm doing my nails then NO MATTER WHAT.  Shaun might have to be on snot duty.  LOL  He's good at cleaning his nose.  I see no reason why he'd be less good at cleaning mine.  Except that his fingers are ginormous in comparison to my face...

Let's just hope I'm better by Saturday.  😳

Hot cocoa has made me nauseated.

Hot cocoa has made me nauseated.  I'm going to take a hot shower and just go to bed.  I feel like that canNOT be the wrong thing to do.  Unless I barf in my bed.  Then it would be the really wrong thing to do.  😐

Anyway.  Lovely thought.  You're welcome.  And goodnight.  ❤

Hot cocoa. Blankets. Couch. Netflix.

Hot cocoa. Blankets. Couch. Netflix.

^ That is the rest of my night, hopefully.

Teyla being all big and doing funny legs.

Teyla being all big and doing funny legs. You can barely tell which one was broken! 🙂

Be jealous. This beautiful girl kisses me. ❤

Ugh. I am still not feeling great so I'm heading to bed soon.

Ugh.  I am still not feeling great so I'm heading to bed soon.  My plan was to not do much once I came home today, but that can't usually happen.  Not at my house.  😕

I cleaned up after my scaly girls this afternoon.  They seem to be on the same poop schedule, so that's funny.  😛  And convenient.  Teyla is getting BIG, y'all.  I might put up a new photo of her soon.

Then I went and checked on "unclaimed girl living in Shaun's yard."  I think I'm going to call her Maya for now.  That's shorter.  🙂  She's doing ok.  Seemed VERY happy to see me.  Was thirsty, but I fixed that.  She's not escaping or making a huge fuss so far, so that's good.  REALLY good.  I took her some bones to chew to hopefully keep her from getting too bored.  I still need to get her scanned and get some photos, but I was NOT up for doing extra today.  Maybe one day this week when I hopefully don't feel so cruddy.  I've been keeping an eye on the lost / found pet pages on FB and CraigsList.  No one seems to be missing her so far.  🙁

Also, I drained my fish tank halfway and put fresh water in it and a bunch of chemicals, per PetSmart's advice.  My water is still not good.  I'm about ready to dump the whole thing out and start completely over.  With my same fish, of course.  I will take them some more water to test tomorrow when I go get more bugs for the girls.  Hopefully, it will look a little better.

Other animal news:  I spent most of yesterday getting Emma settled into her new spot in my house.  I have just decided to separate her from the pack.  When she gets stressed she fights Nappy (and gets her ass kicked).  Not good.  Faith keeps her crated (I guess because she's obedient?).  Not good.  I just think she'll be happier and more relaxed away from the other dogs.  It's not like they can't ever hang out and play.  But in general, as a living situation, I think pack life was getting to be too much for her.  She slept in the dining room floor on a pile of blankets last night.  I'm pretty sure she was into that.  🙂  I'm generally opposed to having free-range animals in rooms where I eat, sleep, or keep my toothbrush, but she's the most eager to please dog I've got.  She's always watching me for cues and is very well-behaved so it's not like she's any trouble, anyway.  I'll just have to keep food that I plan on eating off the counters.  I learned that lesson the hard way.  LOL

I am feeling so not great right now.

I am feeling so not great right now.  Progressively worse as the day wears on.  🙁  I'm gonna order some pizza for my kid and try to take it easy this evening.  Blegh.

Ok, it's getting down to like, 28° F tonight.

Ok, it's getting down to like, 28° F tonight.  Is that dog I picked up going to be ok in a dog house with a blanket?  I don't know if I can sleep.  🙁

I have found another dog and this one let me pick her up.

I have found another dog and this one let me pick her up.  She was shy at first, but came around quickly.  Probably had something to do with the leftovers we were carrying with us.  She looks like a possible shepherd mix of some sort.  A little skinny, but not bad.  Kind of young - I'd say a year old or maybe a little less.  Does not appear to have ever had puppies.

The big problem here?  There is no room at my inn!  We are actually a little cramped here.  For the moment she is in Shaun's fence.  I've got her a dog house with a blanket inside, food, and water, but she's still going to be cold and not get enough human interaction.  It's unfortunate, but it's the best I can do and it is meant to be a VERY temporary situation.  I will get her scanned this week for a microchip because of course she had no collar.  I guess I can also get some flyers made and put up.

Please, if you can help me out I'd love you forever.  She is totally sweet.  I guess if I can't do better for them I will have to stop picking them up.  But it really breaks my heart to think like that.  🙁

I had a dream about my MaMaw the other night.

I had a dream about my MaMaw the other night. She is not well. Her birthday is coming up soon.

This is the last good memory I have of her. ❤

http://www.wefeelfine.org/book/

http://www.blu.fyi/2007/06/banana-hammocks-and-mamaw.html

I didn't do my floor today, but...

I didn't do my floor today, but I did spend some time cleaning and organizing my room, so I feel not only productive, but more happy in my space.  Nice gift from me to me!

So I got to go to Baja, but before I went there I went to the next door Sally's.  The girl working heard that it was my birthday and asked me how old I was and when I said "30" she said "Don't you just want to die?!"  It's like, "Um, WTF?  No.  I'm gonna OWN THIS SHIT."  Who feels like their life is over at 30?  Apparently that's a thing, but I'm fucking excited.  I am not holding at 29.  I am goddamned 30 and proud of it!

Anyway, we went on to Baja and I had tasty foods and it was good.  Then they brought me a giant sparkly sombrero and sang what I'm guessing was the Spanish equivalent of "Happy Birthday" to me.  And then proceeded to put whipped cream all over my face and glasses.  I am not sure what that last bit was about, but it was funny.  And I kind of wonder if they would have put it in my eyeballs if I hadn't been wearing glasses...  😳

Later, I went shopping for some shoes and I got a pair.  I desperately needed something between big ass, shit-kicking boots and Vibrams.  LOL  Bad news:  I accidentally left the store with a size too small, but I can exchange them tomorrow.  Good news:  Shaun insisted that I not pay for anything since it's my birthday so he bought them for me.  He's too damn sweet to me.  🙂  And really insistent sometimes.  LOL

I did get a new nail polish from Target plus the ones that Mary Beth surprised me with.  Also, I unexpectedly got a gift from Jonathon... he brought me the "Everyone Poops" book, which is really funny because I don't think it's ever come up between us, but I am not a fan of pooping.  LOL  Mom came and cut my hair, so woohoo for free and awesome haircuts!  😃  And my friend Nancy sent me a gift all the way from Arizona.  It's a really cute hat with what appears to be a zebra-striped koala bear with purple eyes.  I think it sounds weirder than it is, but I like it.  She knows about me.  🙂  And Shaun also bought me a hat.  Now I have doggies ears.  I like to touch them.  I wish I really had doggie ears.  But I guess my fake ones and the ones attached to my dogs will do.  LOL

All in all, no complaints here!  ❤

Mary Beth gifts and runs.

Mary Beth gifts and runs. LOL I love living down the street from her. She's like this wacky fairy that brings random AWESOME things when you aren't looking. 😃

Thank you, MB! I didn't have any of those colors you got, and they are SO COOL! Also, I was starving. That Snicker's hit the spot. ❤

🙁 Shaun hasn't felt good since yesterday...

🙁  Shaun hasn't felt good since yesterday... all sinus-y and snotty and stuff.  And now my tummy doesn't feel great.  (I ate some weird food for lunch.)  I am so going to bed and trying to sleep that off.  Wish me luck.

Sounds like birthday floor plans might have to wait... but I'll be happy regardless as long as I don't spend tomorrow barfing.  ❤

I love how any of my dogs...

I love how any of my dogs would gladly come to "Come here, stupid head!" as long as I said it with a happy voice.  LOL  Dogs are awesome.  😃

Where is the best place...

Where is the best place in Anniston or Oxford to get a haircut?  I have nothing specific in mind - I just have all this hair on my head, doing what it does.  It's grown in from being shaved, so it needs like, trimming or something?  What I look for in a haircut:  low-maintenance and fucking adorable.  If I hate it, I'll just shave it again anyway, so whatever.  I also prefer to not have to pay an arm and a leg.

Now, give me your suggestions!  1, 2, 3, GO!

I'm melting. Leezard kisses! ❤

I'm melting. Leezard kisses! ❤

Teyla just lizard kissed me. LOL I've had a lot of lovvins today. First Teyla, then mom's cats, then mom's GOATS (I have never been loved up like that by a goat before), then dad's little dog, then his cats. And then Shadow! He hugged me, like, twice before I left him, told me he loved me AND blew me a kiss. It's been a good day! 🙂

Yep.

What a day! 😳

What a day!  😳

I work with a lot of people over the phone and the internet and though I don't consider myself a people-person I like what I do.  I feel less awkward and shy when I'm not face-to-face with someone, so that works for me.  I like it when customers call that I've gotten to know - it's almost like hearing from old friends.  The vast majority of my interactions with customers go pretty well, I think.  There are some that always make me smile, and of course, there are those that make me want to pull my hair out - but thankfully, those are few and far between.  There are only a hand-full of people that I just never want to deal with again.  And today, one of them called.  🙁  We had not heard from her in a couple of years, but I recognized her name.  I thought to myself, "I either liked her or I REALLY did not..."  Yeah, I figured out about the time she started yelling at me which category she fell into.

While that part was totally sucktacular, I gotta say, my awesome boss made it better.  I guess she could hear her through the phone from where she was standing because she asked if the customer was yelling at me.  When I said "Yeah, she is totally yelling at me" Sarah took the phone and talked to her and explained the position I was in (why I hadn't done the thing she was yelling at me for not doing).  The lady yelled at her, too, but calmed down eventually.  We both felt kind of "off" the rest of the day.  I think people don't realize that being nasty to someone can really have an affect on them.  Anyway.  I really appreciate that my boss jumped in.  I've been thrown to the wolves before, so to speak, and it's not a good feeling.  At least she had my back.  🙂

P. S.  Beth, this is not public, but if you want me to take it down, I will.  ❤

In ❤ with Shaun.

In ❤ with Shaun.

I guess these might have been better reserved for Valentine's Day or some crap, but no holiday tells me how to feel or when to feel it!  I DO WHAT I WANT!

Anyway, I thought these were cute and I totally impressed myself with that straight-ass stamping.  Practice makes you better, for sure!  🙂

🙁 On the way home from work...

🙁  On the way home from work I saw a white scraggly skinny dog run across the street.  I pulled over and called to him.  He looked at me so I threw him the biscuit I had in my pocket leftover from lunch.  He came and got it and ran on his way.

I don't think I had a good chance of getting him to come near me.  He had that "I'm running, I don't trust you or anyone, and I'm running" look about him... like he was frantic and not going to be easily soothed.  It makes me really sad that I didn't try, though.  But I was at a place on Noble Street that kind of scares me.  And now I have to live with my pansy-ness.  I'm gonna think about that guy all night.  🙁

I hope he's ok.

I have not even had time for nails lately. 🙁

I have not even had time for nails lately.  🙁  So I did this really fast last night.  I thought it looked fine, but I must not have secured my blingy things because they are all gone now.  I guess I have to go and think of something else to wear now.  LOL

Giant dog...

Giant dog that Shaun bought me tonight.  He takes up my whole bed, and is actually a little bit taller than me.  Snuggly and soft, though.  🙂

Bernard's looking all jealous in the background.  Poor Bernard.  Giant Dog can never replace you!  ❤

Shaun bought me the hugest...

Shaun bought me the hugest stuffed dog to EVER EXIST today.  It's my Christmas / Solstice / Whatever present and it's in my bed already.  I'm not sure if there is room left for me...  LOL

I turn 30 on Saturday.

I turn 30 on Saturday.  I guess that's a big one.  LOL  After much deliberation about what I want to do on my birthday I have figured it out:  I want to eat with my love and my kid at one of my favorite places, and I want two desserts, and I want to put my bedroom floor down.

Damn, I know how to party.  😛

But seriously - I'm fucking excited.  😃

I had a cake and gifts in September because Shaun couldn't wait to give me what he bought me, and Nancy moved away, but made me one last red velvet cake before she went.  So I kind of feel like I'm getting two birthdays this year.  I am so spoiled!  Nothing makes life awesome like a wonderful significant other and a great friend.  🙂

I am eating some Reese's Pieces.

I am eating some Reese's Pieces. HELL YES. 😃

For anyone who likes cheapie nail polishes:

For anyone who likes cheapie nail polishes:  Wal-Mart seems to now be stocking Sinful Colors and they also have some new (and really pretty!) Pure Ice polishes.  😃

5:30 am. Bed time? I think so. LOL

5:30 am. Bed time? I think so. LOL

Do I have any friends that don't drink or do drugs?

Do I have any friends that don't drink or do drugs?  Am I seriously the only person EVER who has no desire to do any of those things?  I'm just curious.  Also, if you know anyone who isn't into all that, send them my way.  I'd like to meet them.  🙂

I did have one friend, but we're not friends anymore.  And the only other person I knew and liked is now far, far away.  🙁  So I feel pretty alone when it comes to all that right about now.  😐

ALSO, while I'm on the subject:  If anyone ever needs a designated driver, you know where to find me.  ❤

I am so tired. And achy and cold.

I am so tired. And achy and cold. I am totally going to bed now. LOL

Today was awesome.

Today was awesome.  My rough count shows that we sold a little over $10,000, so that means that $2500+ will be going to S.A.V.E.  😃

Now, I'm tired and sore from running up and down the stairs, and from standing on the concrete floor almost all day.  I'm heading to the couch.  For realz.  I can tell I'm going to be sore tomorrow.

Thanks to everyone who came out and saw me!  ❤

Everyone don't forget...

Everyone don't forget to come and see me at work today! ❤

I've got my chores mostly done.

I've got my chores mostly done.  I just showered.  I think I'm gonna finish up everything and call it a night.  Phew!  I've been busy!  🙂

Nothing like a little wet-dog loving right before work. 😛

Nothing like a little wet-dog loving right before work. 😛

Got all the animals packed up on the spay / neuter truck...

Got all the animals packed up on the spay / neuter truck before it started raining.  🙂  It has been SO NICE out this morning, if a little windy.  But I like windy.  😃

Gonna do a few things around here and then head to work.  We have a big day coming up soon!

I'm going to go and pick up some pecans from my yard...

I'm going to go and pick up some pecans from my yard and then head to my mom's to get help with something I glued to my face.  😃

On the realz, I thought it would be cool to try some eyelash flares. Sally's sometimes has specials where if you buy polish you get lashes for free, so I've had these things in my room for ages (I mean, they were FREE. I couldn't turn that down and thought they might come in handy one day). I guess I was in the mood to try something new, so I busted them out the other day. LOL They are semi-permanent and come with an adhesive remover. While the lashes were totally pretty when I first put them on that wasn't the case after I slept on my face last night and had one or two come off and one now upside down. So I thought, "Well, now that they are janked up, I'll just take them off." Not happening. SO NOT HAPPENING. They are still on there - janked up as they wanna be. My eyelids are sore from tugging and remover in your eye hurts pretty bad. I don't know what I'm gonna do. LOL

My mom went to school for cosmetology and I guess I should have consulted her before gluing anything semi-permanent to my face. But I didn't. But she said those things are about as good as permanent until my lashes fall out. I feel like having an adhesive remover was totally misleading because I thought I could take them off at any time. I guess I know better now. Now that they are on my face for who knows how long. 😛

Just woke up from the BEST NAP EVER.

Just woke up from the BEST NAP EVER.

It was not planned.  Me and Shaun fell asleep on the couch a while ago and I woke with an asleep leg, but otherwise refreshed.  WOOHOO!  😃

Just cleaned and re-arranged the dragon babies' houses.

Just cleaned and re-arranged the dragon babies' houses.  They seem interested and happy.  😃

Also, I have no idea if I used "babies'" correctly there.  I think I did, but I can't just leave that alone in my head.  LOL  Two babies, two different habitats.  English is hard.  😳

I just laughed so hard.

I just laughed so hard.  Me and Shadow were at Shaun's watching TV, and Shadow fell asleep on the couch.  So I woke up him and told him to get ready to go.  So he goes to the door, puts his shoes on, and then picks up a pair of Shaun's shoes, and is just standing there, waiting to leave.  So we had the following conversation:

Me:  Shadow, what are you holding?  (I didn't know at this point what he had.)

Shadow:  What?

Me:  What's in your hand?  (Shaun turns on the lamp, and he's holding shoes.)  Are you wearing your shoes?  (Shadow and Shaun have similar shoes and it was still dark, so I wasn't sure if he had them on or was just going to carry them for some reason.)

Shadow:  No.  (But I touched his foot with my foot and he totally was wearing shoes.)

Me:  What are you doing?  I think you have Shaun's shoes.

Shadow:  Um.

Me:  Put those down.  Those are Shaun's.

So he put them down.  Apparently, he was sleepy enough to steal Shaun's shoes.  What the hell?  He was SO not coherent.  It was fucking hilarious and really bizarre.  That just totally made my night.  😃

I just had fun.

I just had fun. Around people.

Interesting, that. 🙂

I wanted bugs last night. And nature.

I wanted bugs last night.  And nature.  Didn't even consider how springy these would look when I was done.  Now I'm tired of them already.  LOL  I have no other ideas, and I'm too tired to paint tonight, so I guess I'll keep them a few days.  Oh well.  I think they're cute, even if they aren't what I'm in the mood for.  🙂

What a LOOOOONG day. @_@

What a LOOOOONG day.  @_@

I was up wayyy too late with all the election stuff.  Got up wayyy too early to take Shadow to school.  Stayed wayyy too late at work because I rode with Shaun.  (I don't drive when it's wet-ish out.  Bald tires + wet roads = me sliding all over the damn place.)

Now I'm home, but it's not even a relief.  I've had my fish water tested twice this week, and after treating it, it's gotten worse.  My nitrates have gone from 80 to 200 in like, two days, and the junk I put in there was supposed to bring it DOWN.  I don't have a damn clue how to fix that, and I'm worried about my fish - all two of them that are left.  🙁  I'm going to try to change some of the water and see if that helps.  But it is SO not easy to do that by myself.  😕

I was so tired when I got here that I took Shadow to McDonald's to get a burger.  I almost never do that.  The girl at the drive-thru asked me if I wanted a Coke.  I was like, "You just want to give me one?" and she was like, "Yeah."  So I took it.  I've been trying to lay off the sugar and caffeine, but it was FREE.  Really hard to refuse that.  I have eaten so much candy and shit this week.  I'm gonna have to get back on track.  I'm not a garbage disposal.

Also, I could really use some me + Shaun time.  We watched the election stuff last night, but we were both involved in that and doing our nails.  Didn't feel like quality time.  And so far, the rest of this week hasn't provided an opening.  What a BUMMER.  🙁

Sorry - I am NOT a gracious winner.

Sorry - I am NOT a gracious winner.

SUCK IT, ROMNEY SUPPORTERS!

GOBAMA, GOBAMA GO!  GOBAMA, GOBAMA GO!  GOBAMA, GOBAMA GO!

GO!  GO!  GO!  GO!

FOUR MORE YEARS, BITCHES!  😃

Today, I:

Today, I:

Voted.

Broke a nail down into the quick.

I'm only happy about one of these things.  😛

I went to sleep shortly after I got home yesterday.

I went to sleep shortly after I got home yesterday.  And now I'm up earlier than usual.

That's ok.  🙂

I am sleepier than the world.

I am sleepier than the world.  Wow.  I might have to take a nap before I go to bed.  😳

I am wearing a girl shirt today.

I am wearing a girl shirt today.  It's not just a t-shirt, either.

I am fucking fancy tonight!  😃

Took some new photos of foster boy today.

ADOPTED 08/25/13 - Took some new photos of foster boy today. My, he's turning into a handsome young man! Not mangy, not gangly - he's filling out! And he's really learning how to be a good boy. ❤

I don't understand leggings.

I don't understand leggings.  Are they meant to take the place of pants?  Are they pants, kind of?

It feels so wrong...

It feels so wrong to be awake at this hour on a weekend.

I was in the mood for something dark and lacy and feminine.

I was in the mood for something dark and lacy and feminine. I don't have an actual full-nail lace pattern, but I'm really fond of this... well, whatever it is. It reminds me of briars. LOL So I went with it. I figured I'd do a French tip before I cut them all down tomorrow. This is as long as I can stand to have them. They'll be a huge pain in my ass by Monday. 😛

Teyla Report:

Teyla Report:

Earlier this week she was not pooping, not eating much, and just laying in the bottom of the cage under her log.  Then she started throwing up what she did eat.  Me and Shaun cut her bandage off on Thursday (I called the doctor and he said we could! - he thought it might be stressing her out) and then I gave her a nice, long, warm bath.  She hasn't had a bath in two months due to being wrapped, and though I have been giving her water via syringe she's not fond of drinking it that way.  Anyway, after getting the bandage off and having her bath she pooped twice yesterday - pretty big.  I'm sure that after the bath and the poops, she's feeling a good bit better already.

Still had to go to the vet today, though.  He needed to x-ray her leg.  Also, since she's been having tummy troubles, I took him some poop to test.

The good:

Her leg is healed enough that she doesn't need to be wrapped.  I need to remove her log and make sure she doesn't climb around any and re-injure herself for the next month or so.  She should slowly start to use her leg again.  Right now it looks pitiful.  It's all shriveled and skinny, but the vet assures me that it's only temporary.

The bad:

He tested her poop and bacteria levels are high.  He thinks this is why she is pale, not eating much, and throwing up.  He seemed sure that it was brought on by stress - more specifically the stress of having her leg wrapped.  (I knew she hated it.  Bad.)  I also know that when I'm stressed my health goes to hell, and it seems that it's no different for animals.  She's got to be on antibiotics for a while.  🙁  IF that helps, then no more trips to Birmingham, barring any other injuries or sickness.  And if not, well, I have to take him more poop to test and have her checked out again in a few weeks.  So I'm hoping that her meds do the trick!

Anyway, that's what is going on with her.  Poor thing.  I feel like she's been through so much, and she's still only a baby.  And she's so good about everything.  She's really such a doll.  ❤  Y'all don't even know.  🙂

Getting ready to take Teyla to the vet...

Getting ready to take Teyla to the vet - hopefully for the last time.  Poor girl.  She's such a good sport.  Could not ask for a better leezard.  ❤❤❤

Ohhh, my head and my stomach.

Ohhh, my head and my stomach. 🙁 Not cool.