I feel really down...

I feel really down and like I've been beaten up. It's just an emotional thing. I'm sad about Tamari and every time I do anything with my left hand I'm reminded of her because my thumb hurts. I'm not usually very sensitive about Shadow's birthday, either, but we did a paper in English where I told the story of having him so I've got the feels today - for better or worse. 

It's the kind of day where I just want to go to Shaun's couch and get snuggled. My own couch wouldn't even suffice today. But I have to go to work so no snuggles for me. 🙁

Also, my nails are ugly and I'm super nauseated. The two are not related. 

Later, friends. I hope that Monday is going easy on you. ❤

Tamari didn't make it.

Tamari didn't make it. We are so sad. Rest in Peace, sweet girl. I'm so sorry I didn't move you sooner. 🙁❤

She's nibbling her carrot...

She's nibbling her carrot. But she falls asleep on it. She's so pitiful. 🙁

We're going to check her wounds / medicate her shortly.

Big, fat...

Big, fat "Happy Birthday" to Shadow!  My "little" boy (who's been bigger than me for years!) is 15 today.  All of you who knew him when he was just a baby... commence with the feeling old!  😂😂😂

My goodness.

My goodness.  I have never had a group of gerbils that didn't get along before, but officially all of the girls now live separately.  Melon made it clear when I bought Whitey and Tamari for her that she didn't want friends and I guess that's understandable since she'd lived alone for so long by the time she came to me.  But Whitey and Tamari have lived together since the pet store... and we've had them for (I'm guessing) about a year now.  Things have been fine all of this time - there have been some small scuffles and play-fighting, but that's normal. Today when we checked on them, though, Tamari's back end was bloody and chewed up.  She is not looking good.  🙁

Since she was so bloody I thought I should wash her wounds.  I did that and she bit the hell out of my thumb.  I haven't been bitten like that since I bought Testiclees (my first gerbil who I chose because he bit me and dangled).  Poor Tamari was also dangling from my thumb over the sink and it hurt.  But she clearly doesn't feel well and I know that bathing them is stressful so I understand.  I'm not mad at her.

Right now she's resting in her own home - where no one can hurt her.  I Googled what to do for an injured gerbil and there is not a lot of information out there, unfortunately.  I know that they are pretty resilient so I'm hoping we got to her before she was hurt too badly.  I'll post an update tomorrow.  I'm REALLY hoping that she hangs in there.  She's Shadow's gerbil and it would SUPER SUCK to have her die on his birthday.  I mean, obviously I don't want her to die at all, but the timing could make it harder on my son.  🙁

I left my house tonight and what did I get?

I left my house tonight and what did I get?  Tea. Coming out of my nose.

I came THISCLOSE to spitting it out in Dawn's purse.  She got lucky.  😂😂😂

Thanks a lot, Jonathon, for trying to kill me.  😛

I've had a hard time writing today.

I've had a hard time writing today.  I finished my rough draft for English (finally!), but it took hours.  I think it's because I am home and it's all cluttery and in need of cleaning and my brain doesn't work as well when things are like that.  Maybe I should have done housework before homework.  😂

For realz, though, I started on about 5 different topics, but then scrapped it usually at a page or so in.  I just couldn't.  I don't know.  It just wasn't working.  Also, I feel kind of barfy.  I took Zofran for that earlier, but I think I'll have to take another soon.  This is the kind of day I'm having.

Anyway.  I've got dinner plans so I'm gonna put on a new pair of sweat pants and leave.  Be jealous of how fancy I am.  😂😃