Out of the Blū

Thursday, January 29, 2026

Today has been rough.

I had my yearly boob-smashing and got super sick after. Throw up sick.

I don't know if it was the anxiety because of how much it hurt last time, the pain this time, sensory overload from my skin being stretched (in general, I don't like to be touched or petted or massaged, so PULLING my skin is extra terrible), or what, but my whole body was in revolt afterwards. I was heaving the whole way home.

The technician was super nice and even (in a non-creepy way) complimented my tatas; when going over my medical info she asked if I'd lost weight since my last visit on purpose, and when I said yes, she said I retained my shape well, so that was nice. But overall, it was a terrible experience, again. Possibly exacerbated by being on my period.

I'd still rather have a pap smear or even an IUD inserted. For some reason, those procedures are far more tolerable to me. They may be more painful, but less awful, somehow. Ugh.

Wednesday, January 28, 2026

I've struggled with Executive Dysfunction all day.

I've struggled with Executive Dysfunction all day. I had plans and plenty of things that needed doing. All I've done was go to class, which thankfully had a low barrier to get started since I just had to join a virtual conversation from the comfort of my couch.

That's something, I guess.

I wish I knew how to get a handle on this on my 'Nope.' days.

🤦🏻 Bear.

It's been unusually quiet for the last few hours.

Shaun picked up groceries earlier, and APPARENTLY, Bear slipped into the garage unnoticed while Shaun was bringing them in.

Shaun started looking for him and we JUST found him. He was sleeping by the door. Didn't scratch/knock. Didn't bark. Just got trapped alone and thought "I guess I'll take a nap." 😂😂😂 (Definitely my son in that regard. 😆)

That dog is so unbothered.

☝🏻 UNLESS it's the ice dispenser. Fuck that, always and forever, still. 😂

A little-known hobby of our precious Bear...

A little-known hobby of our precious Bear is that he dabbles in Interior Design. He loves bringing a natural look indoors for that ultimate blend of comfort and cozy. He ethically sources his leaves from the yard by gently kicking and rubbing the bushes, and collecting whatever drops with his tail and buttstache.

He has excellent taste in wood, carrying in only the finest chunks of Piñion Pine. It brings a fabulous, earthy smell to the home and completes the final look.

Pictured: The Art and The Artist.