Learned the hard way, but now I know.

Learned the hard way, but now I know.

Today has been very chill.

Today has been very chill.

I woke up around 9 because Scar was driving me crazy, so I fed him and went back to bed.  I woke up and got up around 2.

I skipped my thyroid meds this morning.  I had messaged my doctor, but not heard back yet.  Likely related, I haven't had any hot flashes or bouts of sweating.  My head also feels less... pressurized?  I don't know.  But I'm thinking that I might not need that medication anymore, or that I may need a lower dose.  I'm going to see how I feel; plus I have a checkup in 2 weeks, so we'll see.

I watched some YouTube videos with Shaun today.  We watched a few things and I didn't even scroll my phone for dopamine hits (nor did I feel the need to), so that is really nice.  I can't remember the last time I was just able to do. one. thing. and it keep my attention.

After I did my office hours, we put on a show and I went through and put 2 more sets of my swatch sticks and locations into my database.  I have considered doing one last ring of sticks to finish an entire helmer.  It's out and sitting by me, so I might.

I didn't touch my app at all today.  That's kind of a big deal because building the PWA is what led to this giant crash that I've been trying to recover from, so it's nice that I'm not going crazy on it.  I do have some homework to do, class tomorrow, and also the class I'm teaching to prepare for.  Maybe I'll get on top of my homework tomorrow.  I dabbled in it a little bit today, but not much.

Anyway, the day is winding down and I'm getting tired, so I'm heading to bed soon.  If I wake up early enough tomorrow, I might repot my indoor plants.  We'll see.  But I definitely needed this chilling out in a big way.  It's weird to see that I can be productive without being stressed and that I can also be productive without pushing myself to the max.  This actually feels sustainable, as long as I protect and budget my energy.

I've done some things today.

I've done some things today.

I went and paid for/picked up my business license, so I'm officially and legally in business now!

I started the application process to be a developer on ios and Android. Turns out, you need a DUNS number to do either of those things, so...

I applied for a DUNS number

And started on developing Polish ALL The Things! Into an APP app, and not just a progressive web application.

I have so many robust features that it's going to take some time to have it the way I want it, but I'm off to a good start! And I don't have to have every feature ready on mobile just to have it in the stores. It can be a work in progress.

I'm off to eat and have a break so that I'm ready for UI/UX class in a bit!

Today we did some errands.

Today we did some errands.

Lately when we go out, I try to wear my nicer clothes now that I have some that fit. But today, I wasn't up for getting changed, so I left the house in my leggings, t-shirt, braless, sloppy jacket, and sandals. Usually, I'd be like "Ugh, I'm such a slob" and feel bad about it...

But today, I thought of it this way:  "I have several things to do and I'm removing barriers to my tasks by taking away the obstacle of changing clothes. This is an accommodation and it's helping me get things done. It's ok."

And just like that, I didn't beat myself up for not looking "presentable" in public spaces. There was therefore no shame spiral, no extra stress. Just me doing the best I can (as usual), but it finally being "enough."

We took the boys out for errands...

We took the boys out for errands, which y'all KNOW is Bear's favorite thing. 😂

Shaun thought his parking break was off, but it wasn't when he tried to drive and the car lurched.

Bear been holding on for dear life since! 😂😂😂

And that face! The distrust! The "WTF was that, Papa!?" 😂

Edit:  He was compensated with a pup cup for his troubles.

I woke up today a little before 9...

I woke up today a little before 9, which happens sometimes. But I usually still feel drowsy and end up falling asleep again until noon or 1.

However, I woke up and had this cartoon-ass thought:

"The day is full of possibilities!"

And I got up.

Is this what "rested" feels like?

Because I'm digging it. 😂😂😂

Listen...

Listen. I know this is going to possibly sound kooky... But I have been treated for hypothyroidism for a few years now, and it has me feeling A LOT better.

But since being diagnosed with Autism and starting to relax for what feels like the first time in my life... I'm starting to feel over-treated. Like, I'm hot and sweaty a lot of the time, and that has been opposite of my (almost) whole life experience save for the last few years when I started treatment and stopped feeling cold all the time.

I know that stress/cortisol is linked to thyroid function... But in such a big way that I might need a lower dose of medication?

I think it's time to get some labs done. 🤔