I've done some things today.

I've done some things today.

I went and paid for/picked up my business license, so I'm officially and legally in business now!

I started the application process to be a developer on ios and Android. Turns out, you need a DUNS number to do either of those things, so...

I applied for a DUNS number

And started on developing Polish ALL The Things! Into an APP app, and not just a progressive web application.

I have so many robust features that it's going to take some time to have it the way I want it, but I'm off to a good start! And I don't have to have every feature ready on mobile just to have it in the stores. It can be a work in progress.

I'm off to eat and have a break so that I'm ready for UI/UX class in a bit!

Today we did some errands.

Today we did some errands.

Lately when we go out, I try to wear my nicer clothes now that I have some that fit. But today, I wasn't up for getting changed, so I left the house in my leggings, t-shirt, braless, sloppy jacket, and sandals. Usually, I'd be like "Ugh, I'm such a slob" and feel bad about it...

But today, I thought of it this way:  "I have several things to do and I'm removing barriers to my tasks by taking away the obstacle of changing clothes. This is an accommodation and it's helping me get things done. It's ok."

And just like that, I didn't beat myself up for not looking "presentable" in public spaces. There was therefore no shame spiral, no extra stress. Just me doing the best I can (as usual), but it finally being "enough."

We took the boys out for errands...

We took the boys out for errands, which y'all KNOW is Bear's favorite thing. 😂

Shaun thought his parking break was off, but it wasn't when he tried to drive and the car lurched.

Bear been holding on for dear life since! 😂😂😂

And that face! The distrust! The "WTF was that, Papa!?" 😂

Edit:  He was compensated with a pup cup for his troubles.

I woke up today a little before 9...

I woke up today a little before 9, which happens sometimes. But I usually still feel drowsy and end up falling asleep again until noon or 1.

However, I woke up and had this cartoon-ass thought:

"The day is full of possibilities!"

And I got up.

Is this what "rested" feels like?

Because I'm digging it. 😂😂😂

Listen...

Listen. I know this is going to possibly sound kooky... But I have been treated for hypothyroidism for a few years now, and it has me feeling A LOT better.

But since being diagnosed with Autism and starting to relax for what feels like the first time in my life... I'm starting to feel over-treated. Like, I'm hot and sweaty a lot of the time, and that has been opposite of my (almost) whole life experience save for the last few years when I started treatment and stopped feeling cold all the time.

I know that stress/cortisol is linked to thyroid function... But in such a big way that I might need a lower dose of medication?

I think it's time to get some labs done. 🤔

I'm heading to bed.

I'm heading to bed. It's been another actually good day, stress/burnout-wise.

Me and Shaun had a late anniversary lunch. Since Shadow has to be asleep tomorrow because his work schedule is changing temporarily, he asked if we could have his birthday dinner tonight, which we did. We picked it up to-go and ate at home.

Me and Shaun put on a comedy thing that the kids recommended. I messed around on the computer while listening to it and updated the swatch status and location for 3 out of 72 drawers of nail polish. It's one of the things I'd put on my list of things to do that I couldn't get myself to do... even though I wanted to do it. But I did some and it was easy and fun. And I was using the app I created, so that was also nice.

I felt the urge to not stop until I was done or until I crashed completely out - whichever came first, but I have something to do in the morning and I want to be rested for it. So since I'm getting sleepy I'm being good and going to bed. The task will be there tomorrow or whenever I feel like picking it up again. I think that breaking this cycle of hyperfocus and straining/stressing myself over nothing will be key to preventing burnout again.

Look at me. I'm cosplaying a very stable adult. Are y'all proud of me? 😂😂😂

Goodnight. ❤️

Today we're married 8 years...

Today we're married 8 years. Together for 18. I don't know what I would do without Shaun. He's held me together in so many different ways over the years. Through mental and physical breakdowns, migraines, throwing up so hard I pee myself - and now peri. The good, the bad, and the ugly - he's solid through it all.

And as usual, he's got the most creative gifts ever. 🥰

My favorite has to be this Teddy Bear Cholla he made using my stash of whiskers (with my permission!). They aren't glued in or anything, but they're definitely not falling out. We're going to paint the pot; he didn't realize it matched the cactus body so well. But I love this so much. Also, he didn't even use all of my whiskers. 😂😂😂  We might have to start another cactus for the shorter ones. I'm thinking an Opuntia for the next one...

I'm also digging this little monster dude with the succulents on his head. It's a stash jar, so that's neat. And since it's our Bronze anniversary, he got me a little beetle guy to sit on my shelf. He manages to bring the things I love into every gift while somehow keeping it traditional.

Here's to all of the years behind us, and hopefully many more to come! To my bestie for the restie:  I love you! ❤️