Bear is doing the most tonight.

Bear is doing the most tonight.

He's very used to routine and has slept in his crate nightly just about since we got him. We keep a camera on him to listen for and record seizures if they happen.

Lately, he doesn't want to sleep in his crate. He's probably too warm in there. But he'll fuss until he's let out.

Tonight, as Shaun was going to bed, he decided he was a big boy and wanted to go in there with him and Cub. Shaun might test it out when it's not a work night, but he has to sleep and can't handle Bear right now.

Poor Bear is over there knocking on his door.

He says he's 3 years old - a grown man! And he wants to sleep with Papa and Cub. 😂

Glochids. 🫠

Glochids. 🫠

Me and Shaun just finished watching

Me and Shaun just finished watching the last episode of American Horror Story:  NYC.

If you've seen it, then you know about the ending, with the long, repetitive music and scenes with Gino.

I'd asked Shaun to turn it down about 3 times, which he did. But I was still getting really irritated by it and said "This is so fucking repetitive and annoying!"

Meanwhile, Shaun was really moved by it; almost to tears when my exclamation made him laugh.

He looked online to see why there was such a departure this season from the rest of the AHS series, and came across a lot of people who said it was a very powerful scene and a favorite of theirs.

Honestly, things like this have happened to me all of my life and I never knew why. I guess the Autism explains it.

I was awake until around 3 this morning...

I was awake until around 3 this morning because hyperfocus. Woke up around 4 pm today. It's only 6 and I've already dozed off again, and still want to sleep more.

This isn't even unusual.

I'm definitely going to see a doctor about this.

I appreciate everyone's comments and messages...

I appreciate everyone's comments and messages, and I apologize that I haven't responded to any of them yet. I will get there; I just have to get up some energy.

I've been stressed almost to death. I've been waking up with tension headaches and migraines. I think I cracked the code last night, though.

Adrian (our little kitty) has been downstairs since June after living in my bedroom for 5 years. I really needed a space to sleep without interruption and cat hair, though, and her little self body-slams me to cuddle in the night.

Well, she's been stressed about being downstairs. There have been some cat squabbles, but we thought that was just them adjusting; it's been pretty normal in our experience that settling in takes some time.

However, she recently has been hiding and I even have had to carry her physically to the litter box. I think I was picking up the tension because last night before I even went to bed or had a plan (we'd already removed all of the cat stuff from the room and even sold the catio), I took her upstairs. She had been looking miserable and the other cats were tense, and I just couldn't do it anymore. And today I didn't wake up in pain.

I know that's not the only thing I've been stressed about, but I do feel relieved and she seemed VERY happy to be back in my room. She was rolling everywhere and purring and her tail was floofed up. 😂 It made my heart happy. All of the cats are older and deserve peace in their final years. I feel a lot better.

Other than that, I've been busy working on www.polishallthethings.com. The app is a subdomain there, and now my nail art blog is integrated, so everything is together. That feels nice. I still have work to do, but I am at a point where I feel like I can rest for a minute.

Also, I had a computerized ADHD assessment this morning. I will get my results in 2 weeks. They had a noise machine in the room that sounded like water running, probably for the privacy of the other patients. I don't know if that was part of the test, but I put my earplugs in so I could think. Hopefully, I didn't nerf myself.

I'm starting to wonder if like... I'm not ok.

I'm starting to wonder if like... I'm not ok.

For last last 2 weeks or so, I've been waking up with a tension headache or migraine about half the days.

Yes, I'm stressed... But just about stuff I want to get done. Nothing life-altering. I'm slowly, but surely doing things. But I don't know what to do with the stress. I don't know how to not wake up in pain so bad it gives me nausea.

It's been a day.

It's been a day.

I woke up early for no reason.

Had an appointment to get HRT refilled. Estrodial patches are in short supply nationwide, so my prescription is NOT refilled.

Had another appointment. It was just intake when I thought it would be an evaluation.

Teaching class tonight was good.

I received my Skyrizi in the mail today. I went ahead and injected it because I'm not used to having it on hand... But I was 6 days early. I'm sure it's fine; I'm just having one of those stressy, no-fun days.

I am exhausted. Calling it a night now.